TheVoidInside
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I am legit a different person after meeting her. When i met her, i was optimistic, had some confidence, laid back and positive.
After her, i became miserable, paranoid, unconfident negative. I began having doubts about everything i do, not just my looks, simply because she INVALIDATED my entire existance. Literally nothing mattered to her, nothing.
And when i was trying with other girls, i was so inhibited to meet them. @Primalsplit had to coerce me to actually go out with other women and even then, i was a mess with them. I wasnt sure on how to behave, tryharding to be NT only to come across as even more autistic, 0 social awareness.
Today i saw a girl from medical school i had gone out back in 2023. She changed her hair but she still fogs (5'11 too). She was expecting me to play in a band and be an NT musician but i didnt at the time simply because my old itis didnt give a shit about that so i stopped socializing with other musicians.
She is always there no matter what i do, always there to remind me that im a compensating worthless loser, always inhibiting me from meeting other women. I dont feel good about myself after this woman. I always feel like a loser when meeting other girls, like an old dude who got rejected by a woman his age and is coping with younger ones. Meeanwhile she is having the time of her life even at 30
After her, i became miserable, paranoid, unconfident negative. I began having doubts about everything i do, not just my looks, simply because she INVALIDATED my entire existance. Literally nothing mattered to her, nothing.
And when i was trying with other girls, i was so inhibited to meet them. @Primalsplit had to coerce me to actually go out with other women and even then, i was a mess with them. I wasnt sure on how to behave, tryharding to be NT only to come across as even more autistic, 0 social awareness.
Today i saw a girl from medical school i had gone out back in 2023. She changed her hair but she still fogs (5'11 too). She was expecting me to play in a band and be an NT musician but i didnt at the time simply because my old itis didnt give a shit about that so i stopped socializing with other musicians.
She is always there no matter what i do, always there to remind me that im a compensating worthless loser, always inhibiting me from meeting other women. I dont feel good about myself after this woman. I always feel like a loser when meeting other girls, like an old dude who got rejected by a woman his age and is coping with younger ones. Meeanwhile she is having the time of her life even at 30
