Test to fix growing up without a father at 19

[blonde slayer]

In terms of physique, I am already around 3 years of training in with good genetics so it wouldn't be a waste in that metric.

I am looking for the mental benefits, I am very depressed, lonely and ND even tho I am hmtn and will soon reach htn with reta. (Ik bevause the forum told me i deleted the posts with pics tho)

Tomorrow is my birthday and I cannot invite anyone because I have literally 0 friends, my parents are divorced and hate eachother, my dad left me when I was 3.

I've been crying for 3 days because I am jealous of people being able to throw big parties with bunch of friends who care about them and are "close"

Never had a genuine connection with anyone ever, love doesn't exist as far as I am concerned.

I grew up with a narcissistic abusive mother, moved out as soon as I could at 18

I try to communicate with him now but my development is done and the damage is done.

I feel like an abused dog 24/7, I am super narcissistic, I have a femdom fetish and it generally turns me off if I have to be dominant around a woman.

Porn free since 2 months but it doesn't seem tk help much.


People who have experience with test/roids, can I get following benefits with roids:

-not feel like an abused dog all the time

-Have higher dopamine

-more mental energy to socialise

-find it hot/tolerable/not go limp to dominate women in the way it was biologically prescribed

-be lower inhib

-have less anxiety

-fix the "emptiness "

-feel the full spectre of emotions instead of only rage and sadness

Brutal brain chemisty pill

 

[blonde slayer]

Bump

 

[PharmaPhaggot]

 

[Rylie]

I've been crying for 3 days because I am jealous of people being able to throw big parties

 

[m0ss26]

Ur already a crybaby, blasting test will shoot ur estrogen up and make you more of an emotional bitch

That being said you should still roid

 

[m0ss26]

-have less anxiety

-fix the "emptiness "

Roids and LESS anxiety????? Oh brother dude was reading Reddit miracle stories of female to male trannies

 

[blonde slayer]

Ur already a crybaby, blasting test will shoot ur estrogen up and make you more of an emotional bitch

That being said you should still roid

Why should I roid tho, which of the things i listed that might help with?
I can use ai's for estrogen, no?

 

[blonde slayer]

Roids and LESS anxiety????? Oh brother dude was reading Reddit miracle stories of female to male trannies

I meant the anxiety that comes from being low t and making decisions, or does that get worse aswell?

 

[m0ss26]

I meant the anxiety that comes from being low t and making decisions, or does that get worse aswell?

90% chance your anxiety gets worse

Why should I roid tho,

sick physique