Bvnny.
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I went through 4 stages of maturity, and now I'm completely satisfied in the place I stand regarding the dating market... luckily, I only started "trying" some years ago, since I was a big-ass nerd at high-school, so I'm a good case study regarding inceldom, slaying, "normiedom" and how to find meaning on other people.
So, I entered college 3 years ago, and in the first year of college I was at a state of "Detachment from the Self".
Detachment from the Self:
Well, I was simply ignorant as to where I stand in life at that time, all I thought about was politics, religion and I was also kinda fascinated by this whole college thing (since it was my first year in College), so I was quite satisfied with my life because I didn't actually thought of myself at that time, all I though about were other things.
But things would change in the next year, after realizing the political ideology I used to subscribe to was wrong, and religion was not that big of a deal for me anymore.
Self-Realization and Depression:
In the second year of college I truly realized I was at a bad situation in life, all my "friends" were not really true friends I could trust on, my dating life was bad (while all my peers were getting laid I was the weirdo who had no idea how to talk to women), I was fat and obnoxious, so I got depressed for a while and just realized "there was it" and "there was nothing I could do about it".
But by July I discovered about the Blackpill, PUA, the PSL community and then I started taking care of my appearance, going to the gym, learning how to talk to foids (kinda) and adjusting all aspects of my life that were somewhat out of place.
Slaying and Normiedom:
In the third year of college everything would change, I was talking to a girl since the previous year, and on January I finally lost my virginity, after losing my virginity all of a sudden my life got upside down [...] I started having sex with other women, I also let a trans-foid, a fag and a cross-dresser suck my cock, after so many years not knowing how to deal with other people things just seemed so easy, out of pure experience I learned PUA and how to fuck them bitches that showed interest in having sex with me.
All my friends started treating me differently, now I used to kiss girls in front of them everytime we went to clubs and music festivals, now I felt like I was truly respected by my peers, but, after a while, "normieceldom" showed its true face to me, after slaying so many times I realized some of the stories about slaying my friends told me were fake, that they were all depressed, that they had to combine slaying + drinking + weed + consumerism to try giving meaning to their lives, that this bohemian lifestyle was actually quite depressing for everyone, it is depressing for stacies, chads, some lucky normies... literally EVERYONE.
True friends and Meaningful Relationships:
On december of that year I started dating a girl, that, at first, I thought of cheating because I mog her and I had some chances to cheat on her, but now I don't have any reasons to cheat on her anymore, because I'm not with her only for sex or to show others that I have a gf, I'm dating her because I love her, and she gave me much more than her love.
She showed me her friends, and they're true people, while the "friends" I had for years didn't make me comfortable enough to open up and have some long-ass conversations, with my gf and her friends I just feel good, with them I go to the cinema, I play cardboard games, we have pijama parties and I can actually talk to them about how I'm feeling, they also open up about how they're feeling and we all help each other as much as we can.
The last time I felt like that was at high-school, with my best friends that I stopped going out with because of college and one of them getting to live on another state, but now, now I have that again, now I'm conscious to where I stand in life, I have experienced that whole slayer lifestyle and I have chosen to live traditionally, on a monogamous relationship with a lovingly girlfriend and a small social circle of true friends (I'm still friends with my old peers, I just don't focus on them that much anymore).
So, I entered college 3 years ago, and in the first year of college I was at a state of "Detachment from the Self".
Detachment from the Self:
Well, I was simply ignorant as to where I stand in life at that time, all I thought about was politics, religion and I was also kinda fascinated by this whole college thing (since it was my first year in College), so I was quite satisfied with my life because I didn't actually thought of myself at that time, all I though about were other things.
But things would change in the next year, after realizing the political ideology I used to subscribe to was wrong, and religion was not that big of a deal for me anymore.
Self-Realization and Depression:
In the second year of college I truly realized I was at a bad situation in life, all my "friends" were not really true friends I could trust on, my dating life was bad (while all my peers were getting laid I was the weirdo who had no idea how to talk to women), I was fat and obnoxious, so I got depressed for a while and just realized "there was it" and "there was nothing I could do about it".
But by July I discovered about the Blackpill, PUA, the PSL community and then I started taking care of my appearance, going to the gym, learning how to talk to foids (kinda) and adjusting all aspects of my life that were somewhat out of place.
Slaying and Normiedom:
In the third year of college everything would change, I was talking to a girl since the previous year, and on January I finally lost my virginity, after losing my virginity all of a sudden my life got upside down [...] I started having sex with other women, I also let a trans-foid, a fag and a cross-dresser suck my cock, after so many years not knowing how to deal with other people things just seemed so easy, out of pure experience I learned PUA and how to fuck them bitches that showed interest in having sex with me.
All my friends started treating me differently, now I used to kiss girls in front of them everytime we went to clubs and music festivals, now I felt like I was truly respected by my peers, but, after a while, "normieceldom" showed its true face to me, after slaying so many times I realized some of the stories about slaying my friends told me were fake, that they were all depressed, that they had to combine slaying + drinking + weed + consumerism to try giving meaning to their lives, that this bohemian lifestyle was actually quite depressing for everyone, it is depressing for stacies, chads, some lucky normies... literally EVERYONE.
True friends and Meaningful Relationships:
On december of that year I started dating a girl, that, at first, I thought of cheating because I mog her and I had some chances to cheat on her, but now I don't have any reasons to cheat on her anymore, because I'm not with her only for sex or to show others that I have a gf, I'm dating her because I love her, and she gave me much more than her love.
She showed me her friends, and they're true people, while the "friends" I had for years didn't make me comfortable enough to open up and have some long-ass conversations, with my gf and her friends I just feel good, with them I go to the cinema, I play cardboard games, we have pijama parties and I can actually talk to them about how I'm feeling, they also open up about how they're feeling and we all help each other as much as we can.
The last time I felt like that was at high-school, with my best friends that I stopped going out with because of college and one of them getting to live on another state, but now, now I have that again, now I'm conscious to where I stand in life, I have experienced that whole slayer lifestyle and I have chosen to live traditionally, on a monogamous relationship with a lovingly girlfriend and a small social circle of true friends (I'm still friends with my old peers, I just don't focus on them that much anymore).
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