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is because im at the wrong place, at the wrong time doing the wrong things since i was 13 or so.
my parents sent me to a hypercompetitive school when i was young because they wanted me to have good eduction.
problem wass, i wasnt naturally inclined towards that stuff. i was bad at studying and learning things.
but you know, peer pressue made me "get good" at it. obviously doing something that wasnt intended for me caused me brain damage.
i ended up getting a very strong bachelor's degree but it wasnt something i should have done.
As a result, i cant socialize with the people around me because we DONT have the same background. I have gone through some very specific "processes" that they havent. So they naturally seem inferior to me.
At the same time, i cant socialize with people that have the same background either because i shouldnt have the background to begin with. Naturally, i feel inferior to them because they were naturally gifted while i wasnt
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I dont expect people here to understand anyway, noone will understand as a matter of fact. Because of all this shit im generally very low inhib and reckless which makes me take more bad decisions in the process. I have no mental illnesses whatsover, just rly bad conditioning for a long time. I shouldnt even be alive now that i think about it.
my parents sent me to a hypercompetitive school when i was young because they wanted me to have good eduction.
problem wass, i wasnt naturally inclined towards that stuff. i was bad at studying and learning things.
but you know, peer pressue made me "get good" at it. obviously doing something that wasnt intended for me caused me brain damage.
i ended up getting a very strong bachelor's degree but it wasnt something i should have done.
As a result, i cant socialize with the people around me because we DONT have the same background. I have gone through some very specific "processes" that they havent. So they naturally seem inferior to me.
At the same time, i cant socialize with people that have the same background either because i shouldnt have the background to begin with. Naturally, i feel inferior to them because they were naturally gifted while i wasnt
.I dont expect people here to understand anyway, noone will understand as a matter of fact. Because of all this shit im generally very low inhib and reckless which makes me take more bad decisions in the process. I have no mental illnesses whatsover, just rly bad conditioning for a long time. I shouldnt even be alive now that i think about it.
