The black pill is killing me

[Deleted member 1476]

(inb4 “didn’t read” I’m venting, you don’t have to read it)

I’ve realised that natural selection has brought me to PSL to finish me off, to give me the cold hard truth I need to remove myself from the gene pool. I’ve been kept alive way beyond the natural lifespan of a genetic dead-end because of modern medicine and whatever else. I didn’t even know I was so mentally scarred until PSL revealed to me what I’d missed out on during my formative years and why.

My hope of ascension is gone now. My flaws can’t be corrected with surgery. Once I max out my looks naturally, I’ll have the problem of social isolation to contend with. The only way to meet girls will be online, which is a nonstarter for sub-6 men. Getting a social circle beyond university-age? I have no fucking idea. Again, no idea.

I’m 21 and still waiting for my first kiss which will likely be with an escort, which makes me feel completely worthless. I haven’t seen my grandparents for years now because I’m terrified of the questions. Have you got a girlfriend yet? Why haven’t you got a job? Why aren’t you at university? I love them and they had so much hope for me when I was young and I’ve let them down. I can’t look my dad in the eye because I’m so ashamed of myself.

On top of that, some cool people here seem to like me. I cried reading people concerned about me over the past few days. Why do you like me? Why do you care about me and accept me? How can you read this post and not think I’m a joke and want nothing to do with me?

I’ll can’t listen to music because the lyrics about sex and desire are suifuel. I can’t watch films because the hot actresses and sex scenes are suifuel. I can’t watch TV because people talking about sex and relationships like they’re normal things is suifuel. I can’t use social media because the hot girls talking about their sex lives are suifuel. I can’t go outside, especially in the summer because the hot girls in tiny shorts that I missed the chance to fuck are suifuel. I can’t watch porn because people having fun from sex is suifuel. I can’t quit porn because realising that I can’t have a sexual release in my life without porn or my imagination is suifuel.

I don’t have any copes left and I have nothing except deep pain all day long. I can’t escape a past of bullying, isolation, depression and family problems, and I certainly can’t escape the trauma of not experiencing sex during my formative years. I’m thinking about castration but that would only kill my libido, not my problems so I don’t know.

My only option to make the pain stop is to rope, but I’m too much of a coward to do it and I don’t want to upset my mum. I have no idea what to do. The pain is never going to stop and it’s only going to get worse because I’m not supposed to be alive. I need to die so badly

I’ll come back here when I muster the courage to rope so I can say bye. Meanwhile I’ll take the advice I’ve been given here so I can at least say I tried, and maybe I can make my family proud of me before I go.

I’m still not sure if it’s genuine but it’s really nice that people here like me so thank you for that

 

[Pietrosiek]

Jm youre fucking back i Will read later but i want to hug you bro
Aaaaaa

 

[Swolepenisman]

Where do u live

 

[Pietrosiek]

Man i feel so good youre back

 

[Hepatologyscribe]

Don’t read 1 letter.

 

[Deleted member 656]

 

[Jimsonbobson505]

(inb4 “didn’t read” I’m venting, you don’t have to read it)

I’ve realised that natural selection has brought me to PSL to finish me off, to give me the cold hard truth I need to remove myself from the gene pool. I’ve been kept alive way beyond the natural lifespan of a genetic dead-end because of modern medicine and whatever else. I didn’t even know I was so mentally scarred until PSL revealed to me what I’d missed out on during my formative years and why.

My hope of ascension is gone now. My flaws can’t be corrected with surgery. Once I max out my looks naturally, I’ll have the problem of social isolation to contend with. The only way to meet girls will be online, which is a nonstarter for sub-6 men. Getting a social circle beyond university-age? I have no fucking idea. Again, no idea.

I’m 21 and still waiting for my first kiss which will likely be with an escort, which makes me feel completely worthless. I haven’t seen my grandparents for years now because I’m terrified of the questions. Have you got a girlfriend yet? Why haven’t you got a job? Why aren’t you at university? I love them and they had so much hope for me when I was young and I’ve let them down. I can’t look my dad in the eye because I’m so ashamed of myself.

On top of that, some cool people here seem to like me. I cried reading people concerned about me over the past few days. Why do you like me? Why do you care about me and accept me? How can you read this post and not think I’m a joke and want nothing to do with me?

I’ll can’t listen to music because the lyrics about sex and desire are suifuel. I can’t watch films because the hot actresses and sex scenes are suifuel. I can’t watch TV because people talking about sex and relationships like they’re normal things is suifuel. I can’t use social media because the hot girls talking about their sex lives are suifuel. I can’t go outside, especially in the summer because the hot girls in tiny shorts that I missed the chance to fuck are suifuel. I can’t watch porn because people having fun from sex is suifuel. I can’t quit porn because realising that I can’t have a sexual release in my life without porn or my imagination is suifuel.

I don’t have any copes left and I have nothing except deep pain all day long. I can’t escape a past of bullying, isolation, depression and family problems, and I certainly can’t escape the trauma of not experiencing sex during my formative years. I’m thinking about castration but that would only kill my libido, not my problems so I don’t know.

My only option to make the pain stop is to rope, but I’m too much of a coward to do it and I don’t want to upset my mum. I have no idea what to do. The pain is never going to stop and it’s only going to get worse because I’m not supposed to be alive. I need to die so badly

I’ll come back here when I muster the courage to rope so I can say bye. Meanwhile I’ll take the advice I’ve been given here so I can at least say I tried, and maybe I can make my family proud of me before I go.

I’m still not sure if it’s genuine but it’s really nice that people here like me so thank you for that

Glad your alive

 

[Deleted member 3328]

I like you bro.

Be strong.

 

[Almu]

whats venting ?

 

[Deleted member 3902]

Just ascend with me and @Aesthetic in Africa

 

[Vidyacoper]

you can do it bro, we're all gonna make it. right now you shouldnt worry about any of that trivial stuff, what you've missed out on or what chance you have, only focus on reaching chad, u can do it bro

 

[Aesthetic]

Just ascend with me and @Aesthetic in Africa

We shall ascend and live like kings soon brother

 

[Pietrosiek]

Idk man. I dont know how you look maybe you can be gl. Are you really autistic? Maybe you can fix something. And i love you man (no homo). Dont forget that

I’ll can’t listen to music because the lyrics about sex and desire are suifuel. I can’t watch films because the hot actresses and sex scenes are suifuel. I can’t watch TV because people talking about sex and relationships like they’re normal things is suifuel. I can’t use social media because the hot girls talking about their sex lives are suifuel. I can’t go outside, especially in the summer because the hot girls in tiny shorts that I missed the chance to fuck are suifuel. I can’t watch porn because people having fun from sex is suifuel. I can’t quit porn because realising that I can’t have a sexual release in my life without

Same bro

 

[Ritalincell]

whats venting ?

 

[Gazzamogga]

Have you actually tried talking with girls or have you just been rotting in your room for years

 

[Halotestin]

Try amitriptyline

 

[Deleted member 1476]

Have you actually tried talking with girls or have you just been rotting in your room for years

I talked to them at school but was always friendzoned or they didn’t respond

Idk man. I dont know how you look maybe you can be gl. Are you really autistic? Maybe you can fix something. And i love you man (no homo). Dont forget that

I’m not autistic, just below average looking and quiet

 

[Gazzamogga]

I talked to them at school but was always friendzoned or they didn’t respond

How long has it been since you've actually talked to a girl your age where she wasn't 'forced' to (ie school/work/shops etc)

 

[Deleted member 1476]

How long has it been since you've actually talked to a girl your age where she wasn't 'forced' to (ie school/work/shops etc)

I don’t think I ever have

 

[Pietrosiek]

I talked to them at school but was always friendzoned or they didn’t respond

I’m not autistic, just below average looking and quiet

Csn you pm me your pics? We will see. Im sure that getting foids its harder in UK than in Poland for example and i think that polish foids like foreign man, that would be halo here.

 

[Deleted member 1464]

Hang in there buddyboyo

 

[Deleted member 1476]

Csn you pm me your pics? We will see. Im sure that getting foids its harder in UK than in Poland for example and i think that polish foids like foreign man, that would be halo here.

I don’t have any right now but like I said in my post looksmaxing won’t help me. Plus I doubt polish girls are much different from British ones

 

[Pietrosiek]

I don’t have any right now but like I said in my post looksmaxing won’t help me. Plus I doubt polish girls are much different from British ones

They are. If you dont have big standards (like i have) you can get foids here much easier. Anyway if you will have some pics feel free to pm. Also pm me as much as you want man. Is it hard for you to get a job?

 

[Gazzamogga]

I don’t think I ever have

I'll pm you tomorrow if you want, about to go to sleep now

 

[Deleted member 1476]

They are. If you dont have big standards (like i have) you can get foids here much easier. Anyway if you will have some pics feel free to pm. Also pm me as much as you want man. Is it hard for you to get a job?

They aren’t too hard to find but my confidence is shot so I never apply anyway. I’m going to try again tho

 

[Catawampus]

Fuck you're back! I was legit getting worried, I missed you bro. My dms are always open btw.

 

[Pietrosiek]

They aren’t too hard to find but my confidence is shot so I never apply anyway. I’m going to try again tho

Do it bro.

 

[fukmylyf]

I'm glad you're still here. 21 is still very young and there's a good chance things will improve if you work at it. You seem really worried about finding a social circle outside of university, so maybe you could back to school and make socialmaxxing a priority. Don't make the mistake of putting your life on hold to looksmax. You are at an age where it's very possible to have those experiences you missed out on.

 

[Deleted member 1476]

Fuck you're back! I was legit getting worried, I missed you bro. My dms are always open btw.

I’m not back for long, I was just posting this thread to get stuff off my chest. It’s still over but thanks for the concern bro

 

[Pietrosiek]

I’m not back for long, I was just posting this thread to get stuff off my chest. It’s still over but thanks for the concern bro

Maybe we can talk on discord?

 

[Catawampus]

I’m not back for long, I was just posting this thread to get stuff off my chest. It’s still over but thanks for the concern bro

Do you have any plans or anything that you have going on right now to give you hope? Once you give up is when its over

 

[Deleted member 2854]

Your post was very heartfelt and I can relate on a deep level.

I can tell you that it can get better. I was a virgin until 23 and have since racked up a decent amount of sexual experience.
Some men would say it's too late anyway because we missed out on teen sex / love. Yeah there's that, but then, what the fuck other options are there? Either A) try and improve, B) Rope, C) live a miserable existence wishing about what could've been. Better to get sex at a later age than none at all.

How do you look? Have you tried tinder at all?

Thx

 

[Deleted member 616]

The only way for you to escape the matrix:

Once again, all my respect to this brave man

https://incels.is/threads/i-will-be-the-first-truecel-to-ascend-to-chad-level-with-surgery-and-roids.19551/ He has fulfilled his oath

looksmax.org

 

[Catawampus]

Dont forget Gandy didn't have a gf until he was 21. You still have time.

 

[Deleted member 1476]

I'm glad you're still here. 21 is still very young and there's a good chance things will improve if you work at it. You seem really worried about finding a social circle outside of university, so maybe you could back to school and make socialmaxxing a priority. Don't make the mistake of putting your life on hold to looksmax. You are at an age where it's very possible to have those experiences you missed out on.

I’m too low IQ to take A-Levels again (to get into uni, I had to drop out of them after a year when I did them before, because my grades were awful) and I’d have to pay fees

I can study for an undergrad degree without them through the OU but that’s distance learning, I can’t go to a campus university now. University is the last chance you get to build a social circle and it’s gone for me now

 

[Deleted member 2227]

If you don't kill yourself, things will get worse and you will ask urself in the future why you havent roped yet

 

[Pietrosiek]

If you don't kill yourself, things will get worse and you will ask urself in the future why you havent roped yet

Dont listen to OwlGod, he shouldve kill himself. Anyway make sure to keep contact with me even if you leave this site

 

[.👽.]

(inb4 “didn’t read” I’m venting, you don’t have to read it)

I’ve realised that natural selection has brought me to PSL to finish me off, to give me the cold hard truth I need to remove myself from the gene pool. I’ve been kept alive way beyond the natural lifespan of a genetic dead-end because of modern medicine and whatever else. I didn’t even know I was so mentally scarred until PSL revealed to me what I’d missed out on during my formative years and why.

My hope of ascension is gone now. My flaws can’t be corrected with surgery. Once I max out my looks naturally, I’ll have the problem of social isolation to contend with. The only way to meet girls will be online, which is a nonstarter for sub-6 men. Getting a social circle beyond university-age? I have no fucking idea. Again, no idea.

I’m 21 and still waiting for my first kiss which will likely be with an escort, which makes me feel completely worthless. I haven’t seen my grandparents for years now because I’m terrified of the questions. Have you got a girlfriend yet? Why haven’t you got a job? Why aren’t you at university? I love them and they had so much hope for me when I was young and I’ve let them down. I can’t look my dad in the eye because I’m so ashamed of myself.

On top of that, some cool people here seem to like me. I cried reading people concerned about me over the past few days. Why do you like me? Why do you care about me and accept me? How can you read this post and not think I’m a joke and want nothing to do with me?

I’ll can’t listen to music because the lyrics about sex and desire are suifuel. I can’t watch films because the hot actresses and sex scenes are suifuel. I can’t watch TV because people talking about sex and relationships like they’re normal things is suifuel. I can’t use social media because the hot girls talking about their sex lives are suifuel. I can’t go outside, especially in the summer because the hot girls in tiny shorts that I missed the chance to fuck are suifuel. I can’t watch porn because people having fun from sex is suifuel. I can’t quit porn because realising that I can’t have a sexual release in my life without porn or my imagination is suifuel.

I don’t have any copes left and I have nothing except deep pain all day long. I can’t escape a past of bullying, isolation, depression and family problems, and I certainly can’t escape the trauma of not experiencing sex during my formative years. I’m thinking about castration but that would only kill my libido, not my problems so I don’t know.

My only option to make the pain stop is to rope, but I’m too much of a coward to do it and I don’t want to upset my mum. I have no idea what to do. The pain is never going to stop and it’s only going to get worse because I’m not supposed to be alive. I need to die so badly

I’ll come back here when I muster the courage to rope so I can say bye. Meanwhile I’ll take the advice I’ve been given here so I can at least say I tried, and maybe I can make my family proud of me before I go.

I’m still not sure if it’s genuine but it’s really nice that people here like me so thank you for that

Back from the dead nigga?

 

[StoicNihilist]

Yes bro, the Blackpill has killed me inside as well

 

[Deleted member 1476]

Do you have any plans or anything that you have going on right now to give you hope? Once you give up is when its over

I plan to start studying online at the end of the year if I can get a job, plus softmaxing (all I can afford really). Trouble is I have no will to do these things anymore because I’m losing hope

Dont forget Gandy didn't have a gf until he was 21. You still have time.

He didn’t have to navigate Tinder and social media as a sub-6 man though, plus he’s literally a supermodel

 

[LordNorwood]

Brother first off I'm legitimately glad that you're ok.
Secondly check discord when you get the chance bro. I told you I am always here for you if you need to talk and I wasn't bullshitting. I want to help, I'm not going to deny your problems man but you're only 21. You have so much time to turn things around.
You're one of my genuine friends on here and I want to see you succeed. You have a lot more going for you than you think. I'm not surprised people like you because you have a great, charming and humble personality. It sucks to see you like this. People will say this post is reddit or w/e, idc. Just know that people care about you.

 

[sloopnoob]

was going through the forum while taking a dump and now I'm in tears. you made me cry while shitting, shit ain't fair man.

 

[fukmylyf]

Your post was very heartfelt and I can relate on a deep level.

I can tell you that it can get better. I was a virgin until 23 and have since racked up a decent amount of sexual experience.
Some men would say it's too late anyway because we missed out on teen sex / love. Yeah there's that, but then, what the fuck other options are there? Either A) try and improve, B) Rope, C) live a miserable existence wishing about what could've been. Better to get sex at a later age than none at all.

How do you look? Have you tried tinder at all?

Thx

I don't even think teen love exists in this day and age. It's best to forget about those bullshit fantasies. If you pay attention to guys who slay, you'll notice they have a pragmatic approach and rarely fall in love.

 

[Catawampus]

I plan to start studying online at the end of the year if I can get a job, plus softmaxing (all I can afford really). Trouble is I have no will to do these things anymore because I’m losing hope

That's a good plan though, take it a step at a time, don't try to do everything at once or else you'll get discouraged.

 

[sloopnoob]

I'm a 5'4 curry I've got it worse I don't have hopes too but you gotta man up and make things turn around. We'll make it.

 

[Catawampus]

I don't even think teen love exists in this day and age. It's best to forget about those bullshit fantasies. If you pay attention to guys who slay, you'll notice they have a pragmatic approach and rarely fall in love.

As much as society would like to convince us that love is women's fantasy, I think more men fanatsize about falling in love than girls do. We aren't as primitive as women emotionally.

 

[Deleted member 1476]

Brother first off I'm legitimately glad that you're ok.
Secondly check discord when you get the chance bro. I told you I am always here for you if you need to talk and I wasn't bullshitting. I want to help, I'm not going to deny your problems man but you're only 21. You have so much time to turn things around.
You're one of my genuine friends on here and I want to see you succeed. You have a lot more going for you than you think. I'm not surprised people like you because you have a great, charming and humble personality. It sucks to see you like this. People will say this post is reddit or w/e, idc. Just know that people care about you.

Thanks man

It’s just too much pain for me to handle and it gets worse all the time. I never wanted much out of life but I’ve got nothing. I know what I need to do but every time I think about my situation and my past it just becomes more and more improbable in my mind that I’ll ever be happy

 

[Deleted member 3593]

Hey man. Don't let PSL aspies drag u down like this. Think of it this way, if you're at your absolute rock bottom with nothing to lose but everything to gain (which is what this post sounds like) then just take some risks and go for it; if anything it should make you happy knowing you can only get better from here. If there's anything blackpill has taught me it's that it's a clown world and taking risks atleast makes it enjoyable since nothing will matter in the end. Just my .02. After really accepting this my life just feels much better. Like another user here said, turn all ur anxiety into excitement.

 

[fukmylyf]

you're not the only one suffering bro. These are hard times for many many men, man.

 

[LordNorwood]

Thanks man

It’s just too much pain for me to handle and it gets worse all the time. I never wanted much out of life but I’ve got nothing. I know what I need to do but every time I think about my situation and my past it just becomes more and more improbable in my mind that I’ll ever be happy

Just break it down into small manageable steps brother. Best way to tackle any problem. I think it seems so huge and overwhelming to you right now. Just take a step each day and one day you will be there.