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Knowing that i'm good looking enough for women to cold approach me and tell me that, as well as ask me out, cat call me etc but still being an incel subhuman because i'm not NT and have social anxiety makes me want to kill myself everyday.

Whenever I see some recessed norman with a decent looking girl I ask Allah what purpose I even have on this earth. Just to suffer? Knowing that I was so close to living a good life, but failed miserably anyway.
It's all so fucked.
 
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exposure therapy
 
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exposure therapy
I've done a good bit of exposing myself to femoids, that's why I know i'm physically attractive to them. I'm not as much of a sperg as I once was, but it's still not enough.
 
just order lexapro or microdose shrooms for life.

phenibut/adderall/lyrica ext imo is cope because its just not sustainable long term. exposure therapy does work for brain rewiring but if your gut or hormones are fucked it wont work so you gonna need to check them also.
 
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If you’re a coomer thats why you non nt
 
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just order lexapro or microdose shrooms for life.

phenibut/adderall/lyrica ext imo is cope because its just not sustainable long term. exposure therapy does work for brain rewiring but if your gut or hormones are fucked it wont work so you gonna need to check them also.
I'm thinking of trying some drugs or injecting T because I think at this point I have nothing to lose. I need to take drastic actions or i'm going to rope before 25. Already I suffered irreversible damage to my mental health by missing out on prime teen pussy.

If you’re a coomer thats why you non nt
I'm a coomer because i'm not NT.
 
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The bluepill thinks autists can get laid if they are good human beings
 
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I'm thinking of trying some drugs or injecting T because I think at this point I have nothing to lose. I need to take drastic actions or i'm going to rope before 25. Already I suffered irreversible damage to my mental health by missing out on prime teen pussy.


I'm a coomer because i'm not NT.
i was also close to suicide due to massive social anxiety. tried over 30+ drugs including roids. Got lucky figuring out that my problems stemed from fucked up gut microbiome(candida overgrowth). probably inherited from father.

but if your hormones/gut is fine then ssris( best one is lexapro imo)/microdosing psychodelics best way to deal with this shit. Or if you are lucky to find then ideally hop on nardil.
 
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Nobody cares
 
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I've done a good bit of exposing myself to femoids, that's why I know i'm physically attractive to them. I'm not as much of a sperg as I once was, but it's still not enough.
just keep socialising then lol
all u have to do is keep doing it until ur used to it
 
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just keep socialising then lol
all u have to do is keep doing it until ur used to it
I can't just undo so many years of damage. My brother had female friends at the age of 5. I'm almost 22 and I haven't had a single female friend. I only talk to females casually when i'm at a bar or club which is rare. Women are a different species to me.
 
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are you an idiot if they cold approach you just continue the chat with them i domt get it, im non nt myself but i can fake acting normal why cant you its difficult but you have to be strong
 
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are you an idiot if they cold approach you just continue the chat with them i domt get it, im non nt myself but i can fake acting normal why cant you its difficult but you have to be strong
In the past it was so overwhelming that I basically ran away from them. I'd look for some excuse to get out of the convo like going to the bathroom etc. I'm not as gay now, but they still lose interest because I have nothing to talk about as a loser incel. Women are a different species. Our lives have been entirely different since the age of 5. I just can't compete.
 
In the past it was so overwhelming that I basically ran away from them. I'd look for some excuse to get out of the convo like going to the bathroom etc. I'm not as gay now, but they still lose interest because I have nothing to talk about as a loser incel. Women are a different species. Our lives have been entirely different since the age of 5. I just can't compete.
what psl are u
 
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just use tinder to slay
too autistic for that shit. I couldn't sleep at night knowing my face was on it in my autistic selfies in a city with people I went to hs with. It was a very incel profile because that's all I could make. I still did decent enough with the number of likes and matches I got, but it wasn't worth it for the sake of my mental health. I want to meet women irl.
 
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6 PSL means that you don't have to use a braincell to think about what you need to say or do... You just need to exist and foids will do all the job.
 
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6 PSL means that you don't have to use a braincell to think about what you need to say or do... You just need to exist and foids will do all the job.
I'm 21 and I kissed one girl in my life lol. Clearly whatever i'm doing is not enough.
 
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6 PSL means that you don't have to use a braincell to think about what you need to say or do... You just need to exist and foids will do all the job.
it seems like foids actively apptoach him and he runs away, retarded
 
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it seems like foids actively apptoach him and he runs away, retarded
I did when I was a teen. Not really anymore. They still get bored though. Also I haven't really had many chances to socialize all that much in the last few years. I'm going clubcelling ( alone :incel: ) tomorrow and if nothing happens i'm probably going to rope sometime soon.
 
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I did when I was a teen. Not really anymore. They still get bored though. Also I haven't really had many chances to socialize all that much in the last few years. I'm going clubcelling ( alone :incel: ) tomorrow and if nothing happens i'm probably going to rope sometime soon.
pm pics of face how tall r u
 
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pm pics of face how tall r u
I don't pm pics anymore because I almost got doxxed. I'm 6'0 but most people guess that i'm 6'2 for some reason.
 
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im a non nt retard myself but its not that hard to talk to girls that start a conversation with you! just ask her questions like her favorite shows and maybe u should watch the normies shows like stranger things so you can talk to them about it! talk to them about song artists, girls love the weekend. emo girls like deftones, the neighborhood for example, normie girls like the weekend, chase atlantic.
 
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im a non nt retard myself but its not that hard to talk to girls that start a conversation with you! just ask her questions like her favorite shows and maybe u should watch the normies shows like stranger things so you can talk to them about it! talk to them about song artists, girls love the weekend. emo girls like deftones, the neighborhood for example, normie girls like the weekend, chase atlantic.
For the most parts I literally don't have interests lol. I mean I listen to the Weeknd but that's it. I wouldn't have really anything to talk about. Even video games are boring to me now and I can't talk about them with the lesser normies who are actually into them. As an incel even getting out of bed in the morning is difficult.
I codecell, read books again as of recently and I go to the gym. There isn't much more to me.
 
For the most parts I literally don't have interests lol. I mean I listen to the Weeknd but that's it. I wouldn't have really anything to talk about. Even video games are boring to me now and I can't talk about them with the lesser normies who are actually into them. As an incel even getting out of bed in the morning is difficult.
I codecell, read books again as of recently and I go to the gym. There isn't much more to me.
you dont have to go hiking or on awesome trips to be interesting to girls. as i said just talk to them learn what they like and apply it to other girls as well since they are mostly the same. try to gain common interests with them. most girls hobbies are just netflix, music and makeup. maybe you should also learn to draw or play the guitar, you can talk to them about that as well.
 
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im a non nt retard myself but its not that hard to talk to girls that start a conversation with you! just ask her questions like her favorite shows and maybe u should watch the normies shows like stranger things so you can talk to them about it! talk to them about song artists, girls love the weekend. emo girls like deftones, the neighborhood for example, normie girls like the weekend, chase atlantic.

We should have a music maxxing thread. I don’t listen to music ever but it would useful to not just choke when I’m asked “what do you like listening to”
 
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We should have a music maxxing thread. I don’t listen to music ever but it would useful to not just choke when I’m asked “what do you like listening to”
Yeah, I always say "I like all kinds of music" and then cringe hard af in my head afterwards.
 
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We should have a music maxxing thread. I don’t listen to music ever but it would useful to not just choke when I’m asked “what do you like listening to”
Yes u right. Here are some artists/bands that girls said "Omg I can't believe you listen to ... too!". These were normie and emo girls.
(The Weeknd, Chase Atlantic, the neighborhood, ciggarettes after sex, lil peep, arctic monkeys, deftones) basically every girl i talked to liked a few of these and were surprised I liked them too.
 
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Yeah, I always say "I like all kinds of music" and then cringe hard af in my head afterwards.
Once you start cringing internally it’s so over for that date
 
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Knowing that i'm good looking enough for women to cold approach me and tell me that, as well as ask me out, cat call me etc but still being an incel subhuman because i'm not NT and have social anxiety makes me want to kill myself everyday.

Whenever I see some recessed norman with a decent looking girl I ask Allah what purpose I even have on this earth. Just to suffer? Knowing that I was so close to living a good life, but failed miserably anyway.
It's all so fucked.
 
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Knowing that i'm good looking enough for women to cold approach me and tell me that, as well as ask me out, cat call me etc but still being an incel subhuman because i'm not NT and have social anxiety makes me want to kill myself everyday.

Whenever I see some recessed norman with a decent looking girl I ask Allah what purpose I even have on this earth. Just to suffer? Knowing that I was so close to living a good life, but failed miserably anyway.
It's all so fucked.
How old are you?
 
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Allah created you for a purpose bro keep striveing and ask him to ease whatever deppression or sorrow you have. Inshallah you get a obedient pious stacy for an ltr. Dont be chaseing hoes and sleeping with them thats HARAM.
 
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You need to stop looking at this as an external problem first.

Primarily it's an internal one. There is something going on inside of you that has resulted in you having no relations with women at 22.

You need to ask yourself why you are keeping yourself distanced from women- I don't mean just physically distanced, but intimacy wise. From them seeing the real you.

What are you afraid of? What don't you like about yourself that you are hiding from the world?

You're afraid that if you show your real self to the world, you won't be loved, you'll be rejected, you'll be alone.

What part of you don't you like? You need to become okay with it.

You need to become ok with your greatest fears around women. What is the thing you fear most, that could happen with a woman? You have to be okay with this happening.
 
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You need to stop looking at this as an external problem first.

Primarily it's an internal one. There is something going on inside of you that has resulted in you having no relations with women at 22.

You need to ask yourself why you are keeping yourself distanced from women- I don't mean just physically distanced, but intimacy wise. From them seeing the real you.

What are you afraid of? What don't you like about yourself that you are hiding from the world?

You're afraid that if you show your real self to the world, you won't be loved, you'll be rejected, you'll be alone.

What part of you don't you like? You need to become okay with it.

You need to become ok with your greatest fears around women. What is the thing you fear most, that could happen with a woman? You have to be okay with this happening.
I think it's mostly low self-esteem. Had a shitty upbringing, shitty subhuman parents, bullied when I was younger, only grew into my looks in my late teens etc. I just hate myself and what my life is and most of the time i'm too depressed to do anything so I just rot. I'm mostly afraid of being judged. I really overthink what people may or may not think about me.
Good post btw
 
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I think it's mostly low self-esteem. Had a shitty upbringing, shitty subhuman parents, bullied when I was younger, only grew into my looks in my late teens etc. I just hate myself and what my life is and most of the time i'm too depressed to do anything so I just rot. I'm mostly afraid of being judged. I really overthink what people may or may not think about me.
Good post btw
I'm about to sleep now but I'll reply to this tomorrow hopefully. If I forget to, give me a notification

You can deal with those internal things
 
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I'm about to sleep now but I'll reply to this tomorrow hopefully. If I forget to, give me a notification

You can deal with those internal things
thanks bro
 
I think it's mostly low self-esteem. Had a shitty upbringing, shitty subhuman parents, bullied when I was younger, only grew into my looks in my late teens etc. I just hate myself and what my life is and most of the time i'm too depressed to do anything so I just rot. I'm mostly afraid of being judged. I really overthink what people may or may not think about me.
Good post btw
Need to deal with this trauma bro.
Because of all these things that happened to you, you've disowned parts of yourself. You're afraid to show your real self now in adulthood.

I took a course called transformation mastery with Julien Blanc that got me started on the jouney- dealing with the inner trauma

it's a tough journey but it's worth it. Requires your willingness to deal with it though

bottom line, your 'personality' today doesn't need to be who you are for the rest of your life
 
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