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I got 0 sleep that day and my friend say come to play football, I love playing even though shit cardio so I said ok, I love soccer so much ill play it even with 0 sleep. My dad got pissed when I told him im going out and said its too much money(real reason was because he didnt want me out too late money was just scapegoat were not poor), because 0 sleep instead of defusing the situation like usually I started to argue with him and after intense arguments I called him a bastard lol. He got pissed and said hes going to the police station and instead went to my friends dad and told him to control his child because Im not studying well (yes u fucking idiot I was raised in a gynocracy,ow dopamine childhood, and was lied to and fed some bs vegetarian diet and still 6'3 ,and still came first in class in HS, and still high IQ but became depressed in uni and know its a meme so I dont give any effort) .
i was riding in autorickshaw when i got message from friend saying my dad in his house,I got so pissed that I actually became RIchard Ramirez esque for a sec. I THOUGHT id go home beat the shit out of my parents and light a cigarette (taboo in my home) and blow smoke and kill my dad and then maybe myself or turn myself in . Trouble is it took 20 minutes to go back home and this Dionysian violence slowly subdued. I bargained with auto guy for 70 instead of 100 that guy was adamant and acted cool as soon as I stepped down I gave him 500 rs just to enjoy the sheer look of confusion and fear in his face :" its ok brother keep the 500 " and walked to my house feeling like a literal king
As soon as I stepped into house I saw mom dad and by this time the desire to kill had subued 2% ( to kill you need to be 100 $ even 99 not enough) and so I started whipping myself until my back bled with my dads belt, my mom saw this and became hysteric and dad kept muttering " please dont please dont" and this just made me whip myself harder
I swear in that pain I kept questioning god " why me why me " and as the pain grew i started laughing and realised there is no god, as the pain increased i became ecstatic and started to laugh and cry at the same time. After this incident i threw my sacred knot all brahmins have and vowed to my parents that my path is now of a kshatriya(warrior instead of priest)
That was the defining moment of my life after that I became low inhib, learnt to laugh at life even at its ugliest and killed God once and for all . I have still lapsed into melancholic longing for CHRIST since then but at my happiest I become God, not serve him.
@inferiorpispot234 @volcelfatcel I urge you to do the same, brahmanism has become retarded and effete we must become kshatriyas.
i was riding in autorickshaw when i got message from friend saying my dad in his house,I got so pissed that I actually became RIchard Ramirez esque for a sec. I THOUGHT id go home beat the shit out of my parents and light a cigarette (taboo in my home) and blow smoke and kill my dad and then maybe myself or turn myself in . Trouble is it took 20 minutes to go back home and this Dionysian violence slowly subdued. I bargained with auto guy for 70 instead of 100 that guy was adamant and acted cool as soon as I stepped down I gave him 500 rs just to enjoy the sheer look of confusion and fear in his face :" its ok brother keep the 500 " and walked to my house feeling like a literal king
As soon as I stepped into house I saw mom dad and by this time the desire to kill had subued 2% ( to kill you need to be 100 $ even 99 not enough) and so I started whipping myself until my back bled with my dads belt, my mom saw this and became hysteric and dad kept muttering " please dont please dont" and this just made me whip myself harder
I swear in that pain I kept questioning god " why me why me " and as the pain grew i started laughing and realised there is no god, as the pain increased i became ecstatic and started to laugh and cry at the same time. After this incident i threw my sacred knot all brahmins have and vowed to my parents that my path is now of a kshatriya(warrior instead of priest)
That was the defining moment of my life after that I became low inhib, learnt to laugh at life even at its ugliest and killed God once and for all . I have still lapsed into melancholic longing for CHRIST since then but at my happiest I become God, not serve him.
@inferiorpispot234 @volcelfatcel I urge you to do the same, brahmanism has become retarded and effete we must become kshatriyas.
