The final thread i hope to create - Done with cope and realising the source of all of my issues

[Justakid]

I was very young when i first interacted with any incel adjacent communities, I was 12. I had first became involved with some people who claimed to be incels on discord and then on tiktok. Initially I had dismissed them and thought their existance was sad and their fault. Later when i had started to face issues in my life and ended up burrowing myself into a social shithole i blamed it all on my looks due to my past interactions with people who spread lookism. When i was 13, I sat down on a park bench while it was raining and while crying signed up for org, and submitted the application when i got home after eating kfc to try and stop myself from crying by the time i got home.

Some context for people who do not know me - Im justakid, a 14 year old from a mid upper class ukranian family who spent most of my years in the UK, US, Cyprus, and Ukraine. In 2020 my family had first struggled financily but quickly got back on our feet (since most of our income is from real estate ownership) until the war started and everything had spiralled. Of course i did not realise until my parents had started arguing and my life started to spiral to the point i thought we were poor. I grew up in 5-7 bedroom houses and moving to a 2 bedroom apartment was a big change - But that 2 bedroom apartment costs 84k a year.

I had thought everything was my fault, seeing my parents argue - leading to many issues of how i viewed myself. I started to eat like shit, masturbate 5 times a day, stopped exercising and all extracurriculars and became a hideous inflamed acnecel. My biochemist mom put me on accutane, which helped me but gave intense moodswings.

While taking accutane I had started to relate to all the accelerationist and nihilst communities, and ended up devolping a geniune hate to all females. Fortunatley before it ever got worse a girl started to talk to me and treated me well. Soon enough I realised that i didnt look as horrible as I did because i was starving myself and had lost all my acne. Life was only uphill from there, but i was still always battling the feeling that everything that ever happened and was bad in my life and my parents life was my fault, combined with the sudden change in how people treated me because of my looks I fell in love with this forum and had started to post alot here during the summer holiday.

I blamed myself, and thought i could fix my parents' lives if i ascended to chad

My parents stopped arguing and life was uphill, until the argumenets sprung up again and I found out my dad had a new affair that had lead to him spending a disspraprtionate amount on his mistress and inturn leading to the bad financial descisions that made us lose our large amounts of money.

Talking to my mom who revealed this to me, I had started questioning more about this

She told me this wasnt his first affair - and that there was another one in 2008-2010, which had lead to her having one aswell

I was born in 2014

I then made the joke that made me realise what the past arguements were about


I now know who I am, and that even though lookism is still real my life is amazing and all the niggers on here are suffering not because of how ugly they are but because you are poor and not living the high life like me

My dad/not dad still accepted me and gave me the big house in the will, and even though my mom exhibited hypergamous femoid behaviour I cannot thank her enough for revaling that info to me - as all my issues of self have been solved

This forum just helped me cope, but now that im free from the cope i can go back to living a normal life and not being related to these communuties

I will not make any threads from now on, only interact with others


okay done with the ramblings now rep me for this high quality not engagement in mind focused thread

 

[Slow]

Nobody’s reading all that but your definitely making a good decision good luck

 

[Justakid]

Nobody’s reading all that but your definitely making a good decision good luck

Thanks - was about to hate on you for your user colour but u got this in a week so fairs.

 

[unowkn]

while crying signed up for org, and submitted the application when i got home after eating kfc to try and stop myself from crying by the time i got home.

Whilst crying you signed up to org.. how dramatic..
And you went to KFC right after.. I'm assuming you met @Master there too ?

 

[droidmaxxing]

I was very young when i first interacted with any incel adjacent communities, I was 12. I had first became involved with some people who claimed to be incels on discord and then on tiktok. Initially I had dismissed them and thought their existance was sad and their fault. Later when i had started to face issues in my life and ended up burrowing myself into a social shithole i blamed it all on my looks due to my past interactions with people who spread lookism. When i was 13, I sat down on a park bench while it was raining and while crying signed up for org, and submitted the application when i got home after eating kfc to try and stop myself from crying by the time i got home.

Some context for people who do not know me - Im justakid, a 14 year old from a mid upper class ukranian family who spent most of my years in the UK, US, Cyprus, and Ukraine. In 2020 my family had first struggled financily but quickly got back on our feet (since most of our income is from real estate ownership) until the war started and everything had spiralled. Of course i did not realise until my parents had started arguing and my life started to spiral to the point i thought we were poor. I grew up in 5-7 bedroom houses and moving to a 2 bedroom apartment was a big change - But that 2 bedroom apartment costs 84k a year.

I had thought everything was my fault, seeing my parents argue - leading to many issues of how i viewed myself. I started to eat like shit, masturbate 5 times a day, stopped exercising and all extracurriculars and became a hideous inflamed acnecel. My biochemist mom put me on accutane, which helped me but gave intense moodswings.

While taking accutane I had started to relate to all the accelerationist and nihilst communities, and ended up devolping a geniune hate to all females. Fortunatley before it ever got worse a girl started to talk to me and treated me well. Soon enough I realised that i didnt look as horrible as I did because i was starving myself and had lost all my acne. Life was only uphill from there, but i was still always battling the feeling that everything that ever happened and was bad in my life and my parents life was my fault, combined with the sudden change in how people treated me because of my looks I fell in love with this forum and had started to post alot here during the summer holiday.

I blamed myself, and thought i could fix my parents' lives if i ascended to chad

My parents stopped arguing and life was uphill, until the argumenets sprung up again and I found out my dad had a new affair that had lead to him spending a disspraprtionate amount on his mistress and inturn leading to the bad financial descisions that made us lose our large amounts of money.

Talking to my mom who revealed this to me, I had started questioning more about this

She told me this wasnt his first affair - and that there was another one in 2008-2010, which had lead to her having one aswell

I was born in 2014

I then made the joke that made me realise what the past arguements were about


I now know who I am, and that even though lookism is still real my life is amazing and all the niggers on here are suffering not because of how ugly they are but because you are poor and not living the high life like me

My dad/not dad still accepted me and gave me the big house in the will, and even though my mom exhibited hypergamous femoid behaviour I cannot thank her enough for revaling that info to me - as all my issues of self have been solved

This forum just helped me cope, but now that im free from the cope i can go back to living a normal life and not being related to these communuties

I will not make any threads from now on, only interact with others


okay done with the ramblings now rep me for this high quality not engagement in mind focused thread

All the best bro
I'm tryna fix my life too

 

[Tenres]

Whilst crying you signed up to org.. how dramatic..
And you went to KFC right after.. I'm assuming you met @Master there too ?

 

[tension]

I was very young when i first interacted with any incel adjacent communities, I was 12.

Im justakid, a 14 year old

 

[Justakid]

Whilst crying you signed up to org.. how dramatic..
And you went to KFC right after.. I'm assuming you met @Master there too ?

howd you know :jfl:

idk why i was even crying LOL

 

[Justakid]

2026cel

 

[tension]

2026cel

That has nothing to do with what I said

A 14 year old saying “back when I was young” referring to when he was 12, is very goofy

Also, “June 8th, 2025”

This isn’t my first account + I’ve been into looksmaxxing since 2022

I found out about this forum in 2023 when DL leaked it

Cope lil jit

 

[Justakid]

That has nothing to do with what I said

A 14 year old saying “back when I was young” referring to when he was 12, is very goofy

Also, “June 8th, 2025”

This isn’t my first account + I’ve been into looksmaxxing since 2022

I found out about this forum in 2023 when DL leaked it

Cope lil jit

Yeah man everyone says this isn't their first account

I found out about this forum in 2022, doesn't change the fact I joined in 2025.

 

[whatsamaxilla]

I was very young when i first interacted with any incel adjacent communities, I was 12. I had first became involved with some people who claimed to be incels on discord and then on tiktok. Initially I had dismissed them and thought their existance was sad and their fault. Later when i had started to face issues in my life and ended up burrowing myself into a social shithole i blamed it all on my looks due to my past interactions with people who spread lookism. When i was 13, I sat down on a park bench while it was raining and while crying signed up for org, and submitted the application when i got home after eating kfc to try and stop myself from crying by the time i got home.

Some context for people who do not know me - Im justakid, a 14 year old from a mid upper class ukranian family who spent most of my years in the UK, US, Cyprus, and Ukraine. In 2020 my family had first struggled financily but quickly got back on our feet (since most of our income is from real estate ownership) until the war started and everything had spiralled. Of course i did not realise until my parents had started arguing and my life started to spiral to the point i thought we were poor. I grew up in 5-7 bedroom houses and moving to a 2 bedroom apartment was a big change - But that 2 bedroom apartment costs 84k a year.

I had thought everything was my fault, seeing my parents argue - leading to many issues of how i viewed myself. I started to eat like shit, masturbate 5 times a day, stopped exercising and all extracurriculars and became a hideous inflamed acnecel. My biochemist mom put me on accutane, which helped me but gave intense moodswings.

While taking accutane I had started to relate to all the accelerationist and nihilst communities, and ended up devolping a geniune hate to all females. Fortunatley before it ever got worse a girl started to talk to me and treated me well. Soon enough I realised that i didnt look as horrible as I did because i was starving myself and had lost all my acne. Life was only uphill from there, but i was still always battling the feeling that everything that ever happened and was bad in my life and my parents life was my fault, combined with the sudden change in how people treated me because of my looks I fell in love with this forum and had started to post alot here during the summer holiday.

I blamed myself, and thought i could fix my parents' lives if i ascended to chad

My parents stopped arguing and life was uphill, until the argumenets sprung up again and I found out my dad had a new affair that had lead to him spending a disspraprtionate amount on his mistress and inturn leading to the bad financial descisions that made us lose our large amounts of money.

Talking to my mom who revealed this to me, I had started questioning more about this

She told me this wasnt his first affair - and that there was another one in 2008-2010, which had lead to her having one aswell

I was born in 2014

I then made the joke that made me realise what the past arguements were about


I now know who I am, and that even though lookism is still real my life is amazing and all the niggers on here are suffering not because of how ugly they are but because you are poor and not living the high life like me

My dad/not dad still accepted me and gave me the big house in the will, and even though my mom exhibited hypergamous femoid behaviour I cannot thank her enough for revaling that info to me - as all my issues of self have been solved

This forum just helped me cope, but now that im free from the cope i can go back to living a normal life and not being related to these communuties

I will not make any threads from now on, only interact with others


okay done with the ramblings now rep me for this high quality not engagement in mind focused thread

dnr but good luck if ur leaving forums

 

[tension]

Yeah man everyone says this isn't their first account

I found out about this forum in 2022, doesn't change the fact I joined in 2025.

Sure you did

 

[hairpill33]

LOLLL