The malice of a slave

[Greyyz]

I feel empty. I have this malice towards myself. I want more. I can no longer just go to school, study, and cope, taking the pills given to me. I have no goals nor dreams, but yet there is something I want a taste at the back of my throat, a taste that I don't know, but my soul knows it.
I should have been something beautiful, something more, yet look at how disgusting I am a man worth nothing, who will end up coping till I die.
I want to change, but the programming is too deep already.