The mornings are the roughest for me.

[Deleted member 17578]

The moment i wake up I always have 3 feelings/thoughts:

1) I immediately realize how much I hate my life, my past, my situation. Depression is at an instant peak. I immediately have thoughts like: 'You are too ugly to succeed in life, you will never have a girlfriend, you will never be happy'
2) Then I realize I have nothing worthwhile/enjoyable to do on this day. Yeah I could study, go to the gym, etc. But I don't find those things important at all. They won't fix my life nor will they make me feel good.
3) I love the half dreamy/drowzy feeling in the morning in bed, cuddling with myself under my blanket. Feels extremely comfortable.

I tend to fall asleep and wake-up another 3-4 times over the next 4 hours. Dreaming all those 4 times and feeling good. Before waking up slowly, getting out of bed.

And then starting my day very, very slowly. Make some breakfast, drink some coffee, watch some videos and browse the internet.

Then usually arrange some small thing for work/my studies, do groceries, go to the gym. Boom it's evening already
then play games/watch videos till bed-time.

around bed-time ill go on a night walk through the city centre. watching people, watching lights, the architecture.

Then try to sleep. Usually hard asf, lots of bad thoughts running through my mind.

another day gone. repeat next day.

 

[Vermilioncore]

I wake up, maybe get my dick sucked if I’m lucky.

Kiss my girl before she leaves. I get to work. Listen to music while workinn, hang up on customers who ask confusing shit, and drink beer until I clock out. Girlfriend comes home we eat dinner and then fuck, then sleep. Ciao

 

[Deleted member 17578]

I wake up, maybe get my dick sucked if I’m lucky.

Kiss my girl before she leaves. I get to work. Listen to music while workinn, hang up on customers who ask confusing shit, and drink beer until I clock out. Girlfriend comes home we eat dinner and then fuck, then sleep. Ciao

sounds like a good life ngl. I could vibe with that.

 

[JovenCansao]

Without the psychological part it seems like the day of an average male tbh

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Without the psychological part it seems like the day of an average male tbh

I don't think the average male has so many negative thoughts about himself tbh.

I have a lot of hate in me, mostly directed towards myself. But also towards my parents, family, women, society, people around me.
It keeps me high cortisol and stressed during most of the day. But especially in the morning.

 

[Mouthbreath]

I feel great when I wake up, sometimes I day dream for several hours. But I hate that because it keeps me from atleast trying to ascend. In the evening I realize that I'm wasting my life, but as soon as I wake up the next day I just feel great again. It's too much estrogen maybe. Thecel talked about feeling the same thing. He sometimes just lays in bed happily for hours, without any drive to do things.

 

[Deleted member 17578]

I feel great when I wake up, sometimes I day dream for several hours. But I hate that because it keeps me from atleast trying to ascend. In the evening I realize that I'm wasting my life, but as soon as I wake up the next day I just feel great again. It's too much estrogen maybe. Thecel talked about feeling the same thing. He sometimes just lays in bed happily for hours, without any drive to do things.

Damn, interesting.

So you never have a stressed/anxious/angry feeling that makes you want to do shit?
There needs to be balance somehow between all of this.

 

[thecel]

I feel great when I wake up, sometimes I day dream for several hours. But I hate that because it keeps me from atleast trying to ascend. In the evening I realize that I'm wasting my life, but as soon as I wake up the next day I just feel great again. It's too much estrogen maybe. Thecel talked about feeling the same thing. He sometimes just lays in bed happily for hours, without any drive to do things.

Not anymore. I lie in bed sadly and angrily because of gender dysphoria. I’m not on E atm

 

[ascension]

Relatable man. For the last few months the only thing making me happy is eating junk food. I've spent 1.5k on takeaways since November.

 

[Prettyboy]

Regardless if you enjoy your life or not, those few seconds right after waking up when you are in the state of ego death is fantastic. You are aware that you are awake put havent thinked about the upcoming day yet

 

[Deleted member 21661]

The moment i wake up I always have 3 feelings/thoughts:

1) I immediately realize how much I hate my life, my past, my situation. Depression is at an instant peak. I immediately have thoughts like: 'You are too ugly to succeed in life, you will never have a girlfriend, you will never be happy'
2) Then I realize I have nothing worthwhile/enjoyable to do on this day. Yeah I could study, go to the gym, etc. But I don't find those things important at all. They won't fix my life nor will they make me feel good.
3) I love the half dreamy/drowzy feeling in the morning in bed, cuddling with myself under my blanket. Feels extremely comfortable.

I tend to fall asleep and wake-up another 3-4 times over the next 4 hours. Dreaming all those 4 times and feeling good. Before waking up slowly, getting out of bed.

And then starting my day very, very slowly. Make some breakfast, drink some coffee, watch some videos and browse the internet.

Then usually arrange some small thing for work/my studies, do groceries, go to the gym. Boom it's evening already
then play games/watch videos till bed-time.

around bed-time ill go on a night walk through the city centre. watching people, watching lights, the architecture.

Then try to sleep. Usually hard asf, lots of bad thoughts running through my mind.

another day gone. repeat next day.

Daily thought when waking up

"another day of life sucking"

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Relatable man. For the last few months the only thing making me happy is eating junk food. I've spent 1.5k on takeaways since November.

I go to the grocery store and get hundreds of euros in junkfood every month. I get the vibe.

It's rough. I need to focus on getting my morning in order. I fuck up my mornings and then everything else is fucked up afterwards

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Regardless if you enjoy your life or not, those few seconds right after waking up when you are in the state of ego death is fantastic. You are aware that you are awake put havent thinked about the upcoming day yet

When I wake up I am still in the mental vibe of the dream I just left. Which is luckily usually very good, positive, loving.

I have insane horror dreams a couple times per month where I wake-up with adrenaline rushing through my veins its JFL tier. I jump out of my bed like I need to fight for my life.

 

[Deleted member 23880]

I’m the same age as you, 27. And its the first year I applied for neetbux but I dropped out of uni and have like €35k debt and difficulties with getting loan again and bottom-tier grades.

Anyways I know this morning feeling very well. Sometimes it’s fine, but like with other stuff you’re expected to have, like driving license (didn’t get it until 25) it’s the scary feeling that I have to get smart habits soon or it’s over for my life. There’s this small chance still before ur collagen and youthfulness belongs to the past.
My whole 20s can’t be like this, but it’s almost been. Having no goals, internet addicted and social/sexually frustrated, like you just observe from the outside, it’s hard to be motivated to do tedious tasks just to get by and earn peanuts. Getting free money is better rn and the only things I’m putting effort into atm is skincare, leanmaxing/good diet, style, excercising. But the weeks are very similar with not a normal good life tbh.

I was gonna say it was worst when I was 20-21-23, just felt depressive every morning.
and I would say one of the peaks were 24, was only 2-3 months in summer, but I roadbike maxxed, my stamina and strength got amazing quick and I looked forward to waking up, eating and then a bike workout in perfect sunny weather. I was lean, tan and went strong up hills. Just me and my bike, perfect. No girls though

And just to add I think it’s better to wake up and not being forced into doing something I don’t want, like going to school which I have to say was almost as worse feeling.

I also still don’t know what I should do with my life besides going to the gym etc. I have some drinking buddies in this city I can contact but I don’t think they care, also I want to get to a lower bodyfat first. I know I want to get to 10% BF because I know it’ll make me feel better when I walk outdoors. The feeling of being fat makes me more depressed than anything, so once that’s fixed I will take some better pics for online dating, can use my iPhone tripod, rent a nice hotel room, to not appear aspie. Atleast having one bitch this summer would improve my life quite a bit. But the future? Who fucking knows man