Anamnesis
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its 5:42 am right now my hearth was pumping so hard i woke up literally shaking and screaming
i dreamed about being a mass killer i were in a department like floor 10 or something very high and i killed i think my stepmother and my sister with a compressed air gun then i tried to kill my brother the same way and i throwed him from the balcony to the floor
Then i tried to kill my self because my dad was comimg closer to me to punch me or something and i just jumped from the balcony and i shoot myself in my head while falling
somehow me and my brother survived
Then i were running so hard and i jump over a wall to escape and go to a park
I killed myself by cutting my own arm somehow and bleeding out
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Then i had the same type of dream in the same dream idk how to explain
I were a mass killer again in the same body and i killed all my friends with a knife in their house thats all i can remember
Then i killed myself from jumping from a tall place by hitting my head
it was a very high place
There is other details that I cannot describe in words its so weird i cannot even describe it
i dont remember that much
But i remember the feeling that shit felt so fucking real i cannot understand
I literally felt that was the real life it scares me so much
the feeling was real asf i still remember how i felt in my dream all the adrenaline amd all that i cannot difference from the real world
which made me doubt even my own reality because if my body could have created such an exaggeratedly realistic reality on its own while I was asleep, I can't be more sure that what I'm experiencing rn in my life is really what I know as real
long ass thread but i wanted to write this down somewhere
i dreamed about being a mass killer i were in a department like floor 10 or something very high and i killed i think my stepmother and my sister with a compressed air gun then i tried to kill my brother the same way and i throwed him from the balcony to the floor
Then i tried to kill my self because my dad was comimg closer to me to punch me or something and i just jumped from the balcony and i shoot myself in my head while falling
somehow me and my brother survived
Then i were running so hard and i jump over a wall to escape and go to a park
I killed myself by cutting my own arm somehow and bleeding out
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Then i had the same type of dream in the same dream idk how to explain
I were a mass killer again in the same body and i killed all my friends with a knife in their house thats all i can remember
Then i killed myself from jumping from a tall place by hitting my head
it was a very high place
There is other details that I cannot describe in words its so weird i cannot even describe it
i dont remember that much
But i remember the feeling that shit felt so fucking real i cannot understand
I literally felt that was the real life it scares me so much
the feeling was real asf i still remember how i felt in my dream all the adrenaline amd all that i cannot difference from the real world
which made me doubt even my own reality because if my body could have created such an exaggeratedly realistic reality on its own while I was asleep, I can't be more sure that what I'm experiencing rn in my life is really what I know as real
long ass thread but i wanted to write this down somewhere
