Venting the nd pill will be the death of me

[leonardogatsby]

i literally dedicate every second of every day of my life to trying to be normal or just a decent person in general but everyone sees me as different for some reason, i’m a high functioning autist diagnosed with Asperger’s and i feel like i can mask very well in social settings and sometimes i feel indifferent to any of my NT peers but i feel like theres something deeply rooted in me that gives off a ‘weird’ or different vibe to others. no one even knows im nd other than my family.

 

[11OUTTA10]

It's your face buddy

 

[Deleted member 99272]

i literally dedicate every second of every day of my life to trying to be normal or just a decent person in general but everyone sees me as different for some reason, i’m a high functioning autist diagnosed with Asperger’s and i feel like i can mask very well in social settings and sometimes i feel indifferent to any of my NT peers but i feel like theres something deeply rooted in me that gives off a ‘weird’ or different vibe to others. no one even knows im nd other than my family.

give up trying to be what your not, it will save you years of pain and anxiety. only have real ones and focus on ascension and what you fw

 

[HtnGymcel]

Seems like a part of your life bro with your disorder n' stuff.

get the best out of it, hope it improves!

 

[Deleted member 99272]

It's your face buddy

when you achieve htn+ people do overlook your quirks but it is exhausting to be something your not and you lowkey in the end will stop interactign unneccesarily with NTs unless you can get something out of it. I will not be doing small talk, you cant make me, i only want information exchange and chilling in silence.

i would rather be despited and judged on the downlow by mfs if i can still slay and be myself

 

[11OUTTA10]

when you achieve htn+ people do overlook your quirks

Even mtn bro, a lot of ppl are ND

It's just a matter of what ND traits you have. Like interrupting convosto yap about trains? Yeah, not even a chadlite is gonna get away with that shit. But just typical shyness and stuff, that's not a huge deal.

 

[leonardogatsby]

It's your face buddy

the sub 5s in my school find it easier to keep and maintain friendships than me

 

[leonardogatsby]

give up trying to be what your not, it will save you years of pain and anxiety. only have real ones and focus on ascension and what you fw

i can’t even get “real ones” bro

 

[vision_n]

just lie wdym
fake your emotions and then complain about every living creature
it's not that hard in terms of mastering, but emotionally its hard for me

 

[Deleted member 99272]

Even mtn bro, a lot of ppl are ND

It's just a matter of what ND traits you have. Like interrupting convosto yap about trains? Yeah, not even a chadlite is gonna get away with that shit. But just typical shyness and stuff, that's not a huge deal.

if a lot of peopel were neurodivergent then neurotypicality wouldnt be a problem for us autists to get along with. you dont have nd traits you either are diagonosed or not. shyness is something everyone experiences. in my most social most masked n0t a drop of shyness in me i still had extreme exhaustion from masking. having to control every body part, all your mannerisms is physically so draining. you clearly no nothing about that.

ascending made me realise how shallow peopl are and how easy looking good makes things but I realised after being the centre of attention a few times since how not cut out i am for that. I am made to only exchange information, not eye contact, not small talk not teasing people, not conforming, not trying to people please, not to dance.

no matter how much positive affirmation, success stories i will never be neurotypical, and thats ok. if not for my looks i would have killed myself by now having to perform for absolutely fucking everyone to not be criticised is brutally fucked up

 

[HtnGymcel]

when you achieve htn+ people do overlook your quirks but it is exhausting to be something your not and you lowkey in the end will stop interactign unneccesarily with NTs unless you can get something out of it. I will not be doing small talk, you cant make me, i only want information exchange and chilling in silence.

i would rather be despited and judged on the downlow by mfs if i can still slay and be myself

true

 

[Deleted member 99272]

Even mtn bro, a lot of ppl are ND

It's just a matter of what ND traits you have. Like interrupting convosto yap about trains? Yeah, not even a chadlite is gonna get away with that shit. But just typical shyness and stuff, that's not a huge deal.

i legit was made fun of for how i walked, talked, my interests, my posture, how close my feet are to eachother when i stand, straing at people, airing people. no matter how much i tried to conform there was always something wrong and i was chronically doing all of this wrong without choice. having to control everything. the sheer exhaustion every day.

fuck me im never going back i cant.

 

[Deleted member 99272]

i can’t even get “real ones” bro

there is a nice ahh nigga out there trust me. even the weird kids if you half to. not the genuinely freaky mfs the outcasts. anyone bro who u can just sit with in silence not having to start awkward chats

 

[Aryan Incel]

Same

 

[Aryan Incel]

Ndpill is most brutal

 

[typeshit11106]

An old friend had asperger’s, he was in my frat, had a bunch of friends and a great reputation. u can kinda tell a little that he wasn’t fully normal but real ones wouldn’t care abt that shit if ur normal like 80/90 percent of the time and if ur chill. u don’t wanna be around fags that see ur not 100% normal and shit on u for it. unless ur complete weirdo and retarded then it’s fair game lol

 

[beckyslayer191]

i literally dedicate every second of every day of my life to trying to be normal or just a decent person in general but everyone sees me as different for some reason, i’m a high functioning autist diagnosed with Asperger’s and i feel like i can mask very well in social settings and sometimes i feel indifferent to any of my NT peers but i feel like theres something deeply rooted in me that gives off a ‘weird’ or different vibe to others. no one even knows im nd other than my family.

Nt max

 

[11OUTTA10]

i legit was made fun of for how i walked, talked, my interests, my posture, how close my feet are to eachother when i stand, straing at people, airing people. no matter how much i tried to conform there was always something wrong and i was chronically doing all of this wrong without choice. having to control everything. the sheer exhaustion every day.

fuck me im never going back i cant.

Ok I am very sorry to hear that. Sounds really hard to deal with. I don't know what to say.

 

[11OUTTA10]

i legit was made fun of for how i walked, talked, my interests, my posture, how close my feet are to eachother when i stand, straing at people, airing people. no matter how much i tried to conform there was always something wrong and i was chronically doing all of this wrong without choice. having to control everything. the sheer exhaustion every day.

fuck me im never going back i cant.

Wait no you're a tall chadlite I don't feel bad for you lol retard

 

[atlantidmogger]

Fecal microbiome transplant and gut bacteria supplementation mostly cures autism. In the meantime just invent a NT personality for social situations and mimic others, until you’ve cured yourself

 

[gigacumster3000]

if you really want to 'max' yourself, focus on basic hygiene, dressing better than a homeless guy, and working out regularly. not rocket science bro

 

[Nativeamericanmaxx]

Nt max

You can’t truly become nt if ur nd. My dad has severe social anxiety and it rubbed off on me now I’m forever slightly nd. Makes interactions and social settings 10x harder

 

[Avagar Nexus]

Even mtn bro, a lot of ppl are ND

It's just a matter of what ND traits you have. Like interrupting convosto yap about trains? Yeah, not even a chadlite is gonna get away with that shit. But just typical shyness and stuff, that's not a huge deal.

i literally dedicate every second of every day of my life to trying to be normal or just a decent person in general but everyone sees me as different for some reason, i’m a high functioning autist diagnosed with Asperger’s and i feel like i can mask very well in social settings and sometimes i feel indifferent to any of my NT peers but i feel like theres something deeply rooted in me that gives off a ‘weird’ or different vibe to others. no one even knows im nd other than my family.

I’ve always liked to think that I’m socially aware of my behavior and think to know when I might be tempted to say something that wouldn’t sound as “NT”, or do certain gestures. However, not until recently have I noticed that I think it’s totally slipping. I’ve caught myself many times talking for like 20-25 minutes, and regretting the whole thing, without any clue of what the other person thought, and sometimes I just stop talking in the middle of explaining something, and the other person just says nothing, and talks to someone else, or just asks me something unrelated to what I was saying, implying they weren’t following at all. I’ve always noticed “ND” people behaving certain ways and thought why would they do that, no one would accept it, how is he not aware of how that would be perceived, and to find yourself in the same position not being sure of your behavior, meaning possibly you were behaving that way too while being totally unaware of your behavior and just letting go.

 

[Zefus]

i literally dedicate every second of every day of my life to trying to be normal or just a decent person in general but everyone sees me as different for some reason, i’m a high functioning autist diagnosed with Asperger’s and i feel like i can mask very well in social settings and sometimes i feel indifferent to any of my NT peers but i feel like theres something deeply rooted in me that gives off a ‘weird’ or different vibe to others. no one even knows im nd other than my family.

if you try to act normal its already over, just spend your time and effort improving looks so you can be loved regardless of personality or nd status