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It is difficult to compare the emotional feelings generated by the first-time cuckold experience, to any other experience. Perhaps this is because this experience was actually sought after by the cuckold, or the cuckold simply agreed; while at the same time, it involves what we are all taught to never let happen, which is to never let anyone else be physical with our S.O. Even after the first time, it can feel extremely emotional and confusing, while also feeling like something we want and need. As the original poster noted, an orgasm only calms these feelings temporarily, for many, or even most cuckolds. Very often in life we know why we let a particular event happen, and why we repeat it. But, there are a few aspects of life which we are unaware of why, we even bother, to become part of, in the first place; and cuckolding, for many of us is one of them. A male cuckold, with a female wife, allows an event to occur and most often re-occur; while an average guy would probably get totally angry and some even violent. And although many, if not almost all men who are cuckolds, do feel real emotional hurt; nonetheless, they swear it off after they orgasm, telling themself, it will never happen again, but most all will soon desire it to happen once again.
Seeing my wife kissing someone else for the first time was painful and confusing, and still I felt drawn to it. This was not our first time, but happened near our first time, and it was just as painful. And I watched with embarrassment, how they responded to one another, and I wanted her dress to come off. I watched in humiliation as he confidently undressed himself, and, as she took her black dress off. I felt pain in my heart and mind, and some kind of pleasure at the same time. I watched by wife in her bra and panties which I helped her put on, as he held her close, his really large dick up against her, as they embraced while lost in one long kiss, followed by more French kisses. I felt envy seeing her lover's penis so much harder than I had been in a long while, at least 3 inches larger than what I have. And actually, the pain was so very great that tears came to my eyes. Never before had I felt pain like this. It was a confusing pain. It was pain filled with shame and jealousy. And still I watched as her lover, much younger than my wife (and myself), made love to her without any concern about me. It was as if I were not even there. And, I allowed it to continue; although, we had an agreement that anyone of us could stop it at anytime. But, I never even tried to stop it. I simply watched and listened while someone else satisfied my wife. My pants remained on and my penis would become almost erect for a few seconds. I had not attempted masturbation, at least not yet.
At about the two hour mark, after he had climaxed inside my beautiful wife, and after she enjoyed at least 2 climaxes, and still making love, I needed to leave the room. I cried by myself. And I tried to calm myself. And my mind thought about what I had just experienced, and I thought about someone else doing what I should be doing, someone able to excite her more than I had in a long, long time. I thought about my wife giving another guy, a younger guy, lots of sexual pleasure. I wanted to call my best friend but I knew he could never know. As I thought, I found myself wanting masturbating. My penis was hard now. I removed my pants and underwear. But my tee-shirt remained on. It was very red and wanted to stay hard. I was in pain, with an erection, wanting to feel the pleasure of jerking off. I needed to return and so I did. My wife was kissing his semi hard penis. He was telling her how good it feels. He spread his legs and she kissed his balls and the insides of thighs, and then again, his cock. It was now fully erect, and she kept kissing it. I was so envious of him. I was so jealous of their intimacy. My hand was pleasuring my penis. And my penis was leaking like never before. Lots of semen would leak from me, and still more would follow, and I stayed hard. I watched her provide him oral sex. I watched as my wife would place it outside her mouth, and cuddled her face with his cock. I heard as she told him "I love your cock". He responded with "I love every part of you; if you were mine, I would never share you". I felt intense pain, and still some excitement; I felt awkward and ashamed and inadequate; I felt like an outsider, and I again felt envious about his better and larger, and so much more attractive penis; and, I wanted my wife back. I wanted her more than ever. But, it would not happen so fast. My wife looked at him and said "lets make love in the sitting position". He said "lets".
My wife got on top of him and he brought the upper portion of his body to meet her. His penis came to be inside her. She said "Oh....its so huge, more than before, feels so good". And then, they kissed and kissed and kissed. As they kissed they rocked back and forth. And they moaned. I was incredibly jealous. My penis could no longer stand it, and I had an incredible climax in my hand. As I sat I could not watch any more. I told myself this could never ever happen again. I was so upset and angry. I felt betrayed. I left their room and I sat and tried to feel some calmness. But I also wanted to stop them. I felt powerless. In a way I even felt as if my penis betrayed me by reacting as it did. Then I realized that I am my penis. And that I agreed to this. The emotional feelings were out of control; I had never felt this kind of pain and excitement at the same time. As I sat, I cried some. But, I found myself needing my hand at my penis. I thought of my wife and her lover moaning, while rocking back and forth, locked in an endless kiss. My dick was now fully hard. And I needed to go back. I missed my wife. Upon my return, I found them embraced and still in the sitting position. They were now rocking back and forth much more gently. They were clearly experiencing great pleasure. Their bodies were locked together as their movements generated very pronounced moans by each of them. And their rocking seemed more pronounced and somehow slow and timed. They exchanged words like "feels so good"; please don't stop; "I love how this feels"; "it's so deep, feels so good; and, "I never had this before". I could not help but to climax again in my hand. And, this time, I continued to sit and watch and listen. I myself, was in a kind of "sub-space'. I was lost in the world of pain and pleasure; and, I could no longer understand whether I felt pleasure or pain. But, I knew I wanted my wife. I watched as they kissed, at times I could see their tongues meet before entering his mouth or her mouth. I could see the muscles in his arms as he held her to him, her arms casually closed behind his neck. At times, he would take one arm from holding her, and place his mouth close to a breast, while cupping her breast and kissing and sucking it. My wife, it was obvious, found him a much better lover than I ever was. She was feeling pleasure as never before; she was experiencing sex like never before; she was enjoying a penis more than ever before. As they rocked back and forth, I heard her saying she can't hold it back; she was moaning so loud it actually scared me; and, she was having a monster of an orgasm. She then told him, "please shoot inside me, please but take longer if you need". He then increased the rocking and his stamina showed. He had a really fast pace; until he said "I'm ready, I'm going to do it now" and then he let out several strong moans. As he said this, he was holding her very tight as they rocked together. I was in a trance like state. I wanted my wife back. He was shooting his sperm inside my wife and I watched as they both enjoyed it.
Yes, I will say that cuckold pain it terribly strong, it is simply like nothing else. Perhaps, this is why we need to communicate with one another. We are different. And we love differently.
Seeing my wife kissing someone else for the first time was painful and confusing, and still I felt drawn to it. This was not our first time, but happened near our first time, and it was just as painful. And I watched with embarrassment, how they responded to one another, and I wanted her dress to come off. I watched in humiliation as he confidently undressed himself, and, as she took her black dress off. I felt pain in my heart and mind, and some kind of pleasure at the same time. I watched by wife in her bra and panties which I helped her put on, as he held her close, his really large dick up against her, as they embraced while lost in one long kiss, followed by more French kisses. I felt envy seeing her lover's penis so much harder than I had been in a long while, at least 3 inches larger than what I have. And actually, the pain was so very great that tears came to my eyes. Never before had I felt pain like this. It was a confusing pain. It was pain filled with shame and jealousy. And still I watched as her lover, much younger than my wife (and myself), made love to her without any concern about me. It was as if I were not even there. And, I allowed it to continue; although, we had an agreement that anyone of us could stop it at anytime. But, I never even tried to stop it. I simply watched and listened while someone else satisfied my wife. My pants remained on and my penis would become almost erect for a few seconds. I had not attempted masturbation, at least not yet.
At about the two hour mark, after he had climaxed inside my beautiful wife, and after she enjoyed at least 2 climaxes, and still making love, I needed to leave the room. I cried by myself. And I tried to calm myself. And my mind thought about what I had just experienced, and I thought about someone else doing what I should be doing, someone able to excite her more than I had in a long, long time. I thought about my wife giving another guy, a younger guy, lots of sexual pleasure. I wanted to call my best friend but I knew he could never know. As I thought, I found myself wanting masturbating. My penis was hard now. I removed my pants and underwear. But my tee-shirt remained on. It was very red and wanted to stay hard. I was in pain, with an erection, wanting to feel the pleasure of jerking off. I needed to return and so I did. My wife was kissing his semi hard penis. He was telling her how good it feels. He spread his legs and she kissed his balls and the insides of thighs, and then again, his cock. It was now fully erect, and she kept kissing it. I was so envious of him. I was so jealous of their intimacy. My hand was pleasuring my penis. And my penis was leaking like never before. Lots of semen would leak from me, and still more would follow, and I stayed hard. I watched her provide him oral sex. I watched as my wife would place it outside her mouth, and cuddled her face with his cock. I heard as she told him "I love your cock". He responded with "I love every part of you; if you were mine, I would never share you". I felt intense pain, and still some excitement; I felt awkward and ashamed and inadequate; I felt like an outsider, and I again felt envious about his better and larger, and so much more attractive penis; and, I wanted my wife back. I wanted her more than ever. But, it would not happen so fast. My wife looked at him and said "lets make love in the sitting position". He said "lets".
My wife got on top of him and he brought the upper portion of his body to meet her. His penis came to be inside her. She said "Oh....its so huge, more than before, feels so good". And then, they kissed and kissed and kissed. As they kissed they rocked back and forth. And they moaned. I was incredibly jealous. My penis could no longer stand it, and I had an incredible climax in my hand. As I sat I could not watch any more. I told myself this could never ever happen again. I was so upset and angry. I felt betrayed. I left their room and I sat and tried to feel some calmness. But I also wanted to stop them. I felt powerless. In a way I even felt as if my penis betrayed me by reacting as it did. Then I realized that I am my penis. And that I agreed to this. The emotional feelings were out of control; I had never felt this kind of pain and excitement at the same time. As I sat, I cried some. But, I found myself needing my hand at my penis. I thought of my wife and her lover moaning, while rocking back and forth, locked in an endless kiss. My dick was now fully hard. And I needed to go back. I missed my wife. Upon my return, I found them embraced and still in the sitting position. They were now rocking back and forth much more gently. They were clearly experiencing great pleasure. Their bodies were locked together as their movements generated very pronounced moans by each of them. And their rocking seemed more pronounced and somehow slow and timed. They exchanged words like "feels so good"; please don't stop; "I love how this feels"; "it's so deep, feels so good; and, "I never had this before". I could not help but to climax again in my hand. And, this time, I continued to sit and watch and listen. I myself, was in a kind of "sub-space'. I was lost in the world of pain and pleasure; and, I could no longer understand whether I felt pleasure or pain. But, I knew I wanted my wife. I watched as they kissed, at times I could see their tongues meet before entering his mouth or her mouth. I could see the muscles in his arms as he held her to him, her arms casually closed behind his neck. At times, he would take one arm from holding her, and place his mouth close to a breast, while cupping her breast and kissing and sucking it. My wife, it was obvious, found him a much better lover than I ever was. She was feeling pleasure as never before; she was experiencing sex like never before; she was enjoying a penis more than ever before. As they rocked back and forth, I heard her saying she can't hold it back; she was moaning so loud it actually scared me; and, she was having a monster of an orgasm. She then told him, "please shoot inside me, please but take longer if you need". He then increased the rocking and his stamina showed. He had a really fast pace; until he said "I'm ready, I'm going to do it now" and then he let out several strong moans. As he said this, he was holding her very tight as they rocked together. I was in a trance like state. I wanted my wife back. He was shooting his sperm inside my wife and I watched as they both enjoyed it.
Yes, I will say that cuckold pain it terribly strong, it is simply like nothing else. Perhaps, this is why we need to communicate with one another. We are different. And we love differently.
