the spiral gets deeper and deeper

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the more you obsess over looks the more you realize just how many little things have to add up to have a fantasy ascension which is so rare and the more you look at your face the more obsessed you get and eventually all you see is your falios and not the good things

 

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@Blackgymmax you're so right about changing multiple features for an ascension, i can see the path I'm headed down now one of a validation monster with nothing else but emptiness

 

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@looksmaxprofile its not a pretty sight, i have like 900 pictures/vids from the last few days :/ like torture don't you also obsess

 

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you realize just how many little things have to add up to have a fantasy ascension

I had this a few months ago, realized it was insanity, went back to square one. Only planning on getting MSE now, maybe bimax if I get a bunch of money.

 

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@looksmaxprofile its not a pretty sight, i have like 900 pictures/vids from the last few days :/ like torture don't you also obsess

I literally had a period where I would take picture upon picture every day and morph them in GIMP (I'm pretty decent at doing so) all to conclude I'm subhuman. I am a lot better now. It helps that I am average height and realistically low MTN to MTN though, idk if you're genuinely subhuman or it's mental. Even still I have in the back of my mind the constant thought about how fucked I and the people around me are as modern humans with recessed, narrow skulls, it makes me feel sad and dissatisfied with the state of things.

 

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just coom™
tbh

 

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I literally had a period where I would take picture upon picture every day and morph them in GIMP (I'm pretty decent at doing so) all to conclude I'm subhuman. I am a lot better now. It helps that I am average height and realistically low MTN to MTN though, idk if you're genuinely subhuman or it's mental. Even still I have in the back of my mind the constant thought about how fucked I and the people around me are as modern humans with recessed, narrow skulls, it makes me feel sad and dissatisfied with the state of things.

i literally have a bodycount of 13 but at the same time people have called me ugly a lot in my life, although that was more back then when i literally had no bones at all and the worst skin ever. girls either find me cute or ugly, never in the middle, i have uncanny falios especially my nose.

I'm glad you understand what I'm feeling, every picture i take i go on airbrush (editing app) and morph around the features, and i always end up at the same answers, fix my nose, fix my eyebrows, and my chin, but I've done these morphs almost a thousand times now i literally spent 6 hours today i need to quit this cause it's pointless and like you said insanity

 

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I also think there's an inherent futility to it all. Not to say ascension is bad, but odds are, you will not be completely satisfied, which is to be expected, since we as modern humans have inherently flawed craniofacial development to varying degrees which cannot be fixed in one magic surgery.

 

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I also think there's an inherent futility to it all. Not to say ascension is bad, but odds are, you will not be completely satisfied, which is to be expected, since we as modern humans have inherently flawed craniofacial development to varying degrees which cannot be fixed in one magic surgery.

yeah, i'll probably just keep it simple. rhino, fix eyebrows, be lean, good skin, little chin work, and maybe some minor eye work

 

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i literally have a bodycount of 13 but at the same time people have called me ugly a lot in my life, although that was more back then when i literally had no bones at all and the worst skin ever. girls either find me cute or ugly, never in the middle, i have uncanny falios especially my nose.

I am motivated purely by vanity and the desire for respect/validation at this point. Maybe there's a deeply buried evolutionary drive in there, but I am legitimately too autistic for sex; I've only experienced it once but I literally told the girl that I had to stop, because I just didn't feel anything emotionally, in spite of the physical sensation, it was weird. I want to look good and be some archetypal germanic PLS1+ skulled gay alien.

 

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I am motivated purely by vanity and the desire for respect/validation at this point. Maybe there's a deeply buried evolutionary drive in there, but I am legitimately too autistic for sex; I've only experienced it once but I literally told the girl that I had to stop, because I just didn't feel anything emotionally, in spite of the physical sensation, it was weird. I want to look good and be some archetypal germanic PLS1+ skulled gay alien.

sex is just nutting, everytime during sex i thought is this it? it felt special when i had strong feelings for a girl however

i am definitely also self aware that i just seek validation, but that's what this website does to you, it makes you feel ugly comparing yourself to impossible standards and creates an endless terrible cycle

even the top good looking guys here are stuck in it, and for what?