The story of a hopeless forever alone incel - How I was blackpilled by life

[CursedOne]

"I was born into this world and my life was already over." This quote basically sums up all of my experience I made in life.
My life was basically fucked up by genetics. Its pretty much that.

I am going to turn 25 years in this month and I am a kissless virgin. I never had a gf, I never even held a girls hand. I am a genetic deadend, utter genetic trash. I should be gone long time ago by means of natural selection. I just want to give you a inside look in the life of a subhuman genetic trash like me.
For me this topic is kind of a reminder what my life will be if I dont continue looksmax. So you can view this topic as a motivation for me but also a classical incel story. Feel free to bash me as much as you can. I deserve all your hate for how much garbage of a genetic trash I am.

I know that many people in this forum were blackpilled by the internet but for me getting blackpilled happened thru the bad experiences I made in life.
Im from germany. I really do have shit looks. worst eye area you can imagine, scar on eyebrow 178cm manlet. Only lower third (jawlinw) is decent) My problem is my fucking face. Frame is normal to above average. It all started in middle school. I remember getting bullied on a daily basis in school by almost everyone. I know that many people assume that I shouldnt judge my ugliness based ony some rude comments about my appearence but almost everyone joked and insulted me over my uglieness independently of each other. So its safe for say that indeed I am ugly.

Here are my prime examples:
-I remember a moment when I used to look at a womans direction and she responded with giving me a disgusting look and running away. Happened twice.
-When I told a girl I look ugly without beard, she responded "you look ugly anyway"
-Even children in school pointed out how ugly I was. broke me the most.
-Sometimes people give me a disgusting look when I talk to them. Especially women.
-All of my friends called me ugly, all of them
-When we had graduation ceremony, a female schoolmate told me that "even" I look great (we were all dressed nice)
-All people treat me harsh. I often time have the feeling that I got treated like shit just because of my ugliness. Good looking friends of mine are treated with respect.
-I complimented a woman I used to love, she responded with feeling annoyed (cuz if a ugly man does its a crime)
-Never was asked out.

What it did to me:
I got pschyological problems due to the bullying I received. I remember that I couldnt sleep well for a decade.
I became a little bit socially awkward. I began to stutter.
I tried to stay away from woman as much as possible cuz I know that no woman is going to find me attractive.
I openly admit that I had suicidal thoughts back then. I just couldnt take it anymore. But I decided to live on.

What I learned:
-If you are ugly your life is like playing dark souls on the hardest mode. Your life will suck automatically and theres nothing you can do about it. You have to work 100 times harder to get what a good looking guy got.
-Whoever has a happy life is determined by ones genes and by the family and status he is born to.

What I tried
-Since I was bluepilled I thought that if I try to lose weight (I was a bit overweight back then) it would benefit me. I lost like 25kg in like 3 months but it didint change a damn thing. I still had a ugly face and the bullying didint stopped.

The results were that i tried to escape from reality as much as possible due to the bad experiences i received. I dedicated myself to computer games, anime. I barely left the house. The results was that I didint have a teenage life. I missed all the good things. I became more and more fat.
I hated myself, my parents for reproducing me and throwing me into hell by giving me the worst genes possible. I hated this world and everything within it. I see myself as a loser because I am a loser.

A year ago I started looksmaxxing by losing fat and gymceling. Now Im into surgeries. I try to break my incelcurse as good as possible.
Biggest mistake in my life was that I started looksmaxxing to late.
Now that I want to surgerymaxx. I learn that turkey (I planned to get surgeries done there) bannend traveling so I cant even get the surgeries done. You can see that I lack any luck in this world. The very moment I decide to travel all my plans get fucked over some gookvirus. This is my luck.
I stand before the never-changing world waiting for success in my shitty life whie getting disappointed by life again and again. Nothing changes in Life. This is how I feel. I can do and try everything. its pointless and hopeless, so it seems. If this is what life offers for me, then why continue living I ask? But I try to live as good as possible waiting for a change in my life. I feel like lost one, a cursed one that is doomed to fail. I really hate my parents for giving me shit genetics and make suffer all my life. I work 2 jobs to get my surgerys done. My parents dont give me a shit. Sometimes I really dont even understand myself how i survived all the shit happened to me without ending my own life? I think my cope with games and anime was to good I think.
I wish I was never born to be honest, sucks being me I guess.

 

[chadpreetcel123]

Send pics

I don't think you're that ugly

 

[CursedOne]

Send pics

I don't think you're that ugly

If I get some surgeries done, I will eventually upload pics but not now. I know that I am ugly. Maybe I am not stblackscel but I am incel. Why else would I be on this side?

 

[Deleted member 4310]

Every single word

I fucking hate normies who claim that racism is a problem in the west while ugly people are literally denied a normal life in 2020. Normies are just virtue signalling because everybody else seem to stand up against "racism" so they hop on the bandwagon.

If society actually cared about equality then cosmetic surgery would be a human right. As an ugly man you make less money, are less likely to be employed, less likely to be promoted, more likely to be found guilty in court than attractive people etc. You don't see normies complaining about this blatant inequality.

 

[ChaddeusPeuterschmit]

It is what it is

 

[CursedOne]

Every single word

I fucking hate normies who claim that racism is a problem in the west while ugly people are literally denied a normal life in 2020. Normies are just virtue signalling because everybody else seem to stand up against "racism" so they hop on the bandwagon.

If society actually cared about equality then cosmetic surgery would be a human right. As an ugly man you make less money, are less likely to be employed, less likely to be promoted, more likely to be found guilty in court than attractive people etc. You don't see normies complaining about this blatant inequality.

Yeah, I agree 100%. I even made a topic that plastic surgery should be funded by the state. Funny thing is that people who wanna change their own gender can get surgeries done for free because they feel insecure about their body. But what about us?

 

[Deleted member 4310]

Yeah, I agree 100%. I even made a topic that plastic surgery should be funded by the state. Funny thing is that people who wanna change their own gender can get surgeries done for free because they feel insecure about their body. But what about us?

In Sweden trannys can change gender for free. What's hilarious is that most transitions are from male to female. If women are so oppressed, why would anyone want to become one?

 

[Deleted]

Everyone can't be arvid i guess

 

[Deleted member 616]

Get looks or die brah. It’s all or nothing.

 

[ChaddeusPeuterschmit]

Dn rd

 

[Deleted]

Get looks or die brah. It’s all or nothing.

Why do you choose cats without hunter eyes?

 

[Deleted member 616]

Why do you choose cats without hunter eyes?

Felin eyes = hunter eyes

 

[Deleted]

Felin eyes = hunter eyes

I mean yes but by that logic all humans have hunter eyes. Ur avis isn't vertically narrow and has shit pfl combined with boring color

 

[Disabledcel]

 

[Deleted member 6123]

This was like reading about myself, although nobody treated me bad after I turned 18, but that's mostly because I lived as NEET for years. Atleast have solace in that ur story is not that unique, I mean only in my local area with about 12k people there must be hundreds of young males that are addicted to vidya and internet, like for e.g. 3 of my friends are very fat normies and they're not even gamers now lol

The biggest mistake is we are always comparing ourselves to Chads and 0.01% famous actors/models, of course you will forever know they exist but choose to acknowledge them, take whatever positive like mimick some of their style/behaviour but if you'd ever want to ascend you have to stop checking social media, live in the real world and never google search images of 'brad pitt young' before you've ascended or AT LEAST TRIED, you HAVE to run delusionmax, every semi-redpilled normie out there in this world is on it, just don't fall for the bluepill consumerist trap but cope with something else rather than mental masturbation (like blackpilled forums are like) even though I have to admit it's almost impossible when you have a non-existant social circle or real purpose in life

I'm new but been lurking PSL forums for atleast 2 years now

 

[Turanid_Bull]

Fuck this earth. Would end humanity if I had the chance. There is more pain than happiness here.

 

[CursedOne]

Everyone can't be arvid i guess View attachment 336061

I said I want to be good looking not a faggot

Fuck this earth. Would end humanity if I had the chance. There is more pain than happiness here.

I wish it could all just end. All of humanity. all of my pain. everything

 

[watah]

"I was born into this world and my life was already over." This quote basically sums up all of my experience I made in life.
My life was basically fucked up by genetics. Its pretty much that.

I am going to turn 25 years in this month and I am a kissless virgin. I never had a gf, I never even held a girls hand. I am a genetic deadend, utter genetic trash. I should be gone long time ago by means of natural selection. I just want to give you a inside look in the life of a subhuman genetic trash like me.
For me this topic is kind of a reminder what my life will be if I dont continue looksmax. So you can view this topic as a motivation for me but also a classical incel story. Feel free to bash me as much as you can. I deserve all your hate for how much garbage of a genetic trash I am.

I know that many people in this forum were blackpilled by the internet but for me getting blackpilled happened thru the bad experiences I made in life.
Im from germany. I really do have shit looks. worst eye area you can imagine, scar on eyebrow 178cm manlet. Only lower third (jawlinw) is decent) My problem is my fucking face. Frame is normal to above average. It all started in middle school. I remember getting bullied on a daily basis in school by almost everyone. I know that many people assume that I shouldnt judge my ugliness based ony some rude comments about my appearence but almost everyone joked and insulted me over my uglieness independently of each other. So its safe for say that indeed I am ugly.

Here are my prime examples:
-I remember a moment when I used to look at a womans direction and she responded with giving me a disgusting look and running away. Happened twice.
-When I told a girl I look ugly without beard, she responded "you look ugly anyway"
-Even children in school pointed out how ugly I was. broke me the most.
-Sometimes people give me a disgusting look when I talk to them. Especially women.
-All of my friends called me ugly, all of them
-When we had graduation ceremony, a female schoolmate told me that "even" I look great (we were all dressed nice)
-All people treat me harsh. I often time have the feeling that I got treated like shit just because of my ugliness. Good looking friends of mine are treated with respect.
-I complimented a woman I used to love, she responded with feeling annoyed (cuz if a ugly man does its a crime)
-Never was asked out.

What it did to me:
I got pschyological problems due to the bullying I received. I remember that I couldnt sleep well for a decade.
I became a little bit socially awkward. I began to stutter.
I tried to stay away from woman as much as possible cuz I know that no woman is going to find me attractive.
I openly admit that I had suicidal thoughts back then. I just couldnt take it anymore. But I decided to live on.

What I learned:
-If you are ugly your life is like playing dark souls on the hardest mode. Your life will suck automatically and theres nothing you can do about it. You have to work 100 times harder to get what a good looking guy got.
-Whoever has a happy life is determined by ones genes and by the family and status he is born to.

What I tried
-Since I was bluepilled I thought that if I try to lose weight (I was a bit overweight back then) it would benefit me. I lost like 25kg in like 3 months but it didint change a damn thing. I still had a ugly face and the bullying didint stopped.

The results were that i tried to escape from reality as much as possible due to the bad experiences i received. I dedicated myself to computer games, anime. I barely left the house. The results was that I didint have a teenage life. I missed all the good things. I became more and more fat.
I hated myself, my parents for reproducing me and throwing me into hell by giving me the worst genes possible. I hated this world and everything within it. I see myself as a loser because I am a loser.

A year ago I started looksmaxxing by losing fat and gymceling. Now Im into surgeries. I try to break my incelcurse as good as possible.
Biggest mistake in my life was that I started looksmaxxing to late.
Now that I want to surgerymaxx. I learn that turkey (I planned to get surgeries done there) bannend traveling so I cant even get the surgeries done. You can see that I lack any luck in this world. The very moment I decide to travel all my plans get fucked over some gookvirus. This is my luck.
I stand before the never-changing world waiting for success in my shitty life whie getting disappointed by life again and again. Nothing changes in Life. This is how I feel. I can do and try everything. its pointless and hopeless, so it seems. If this is what life offers for me, then why continue living I ask? But I try to live as good as possible waiting for a change in my life. I feel like lost one, a cursed one that is doomed to fail. I really hate my parents for giving me shit genetics and make suffer all my life. I work 2 jobs to get my surgerys done. My parents dont give me a shit. Sometimes I really dont even understand myself how i survived all the shit happened to me without ending my own life? I think my cope with games and anime was to good I think.
I wish I was never born to be honest, sucks being me I guess.

Bro u Ight?