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between age 13 and age 15 i, as almost every young man, went through puberty, and i still find myself within it.
here’s a picture of my 13 year old self, at the time i already knew about lookism, i had been knowing for a while, i’ll explain why under.
img n1:
picture taken after i got jumped by my so called “best friends” (i never had many friends, i have 1 or 2 at the moment) my “best friend” at the time had told me “wanna go out to eat mcdonalds?” i, not aware of anything, said yes, went, and while we were walking towards it, we saw a large group of people, my friend kept walking towards them.
even though i was skeptical, i knew i hadn’t done anything wrong and that i had no reason to be afraid of anyone, when we reached these people, they beat the FUCK out of me, threw me on the floor, kicked me, laughed and spit on me, told me i was an ugly worthless short midget and that i deserved nothing in life.
while walking back i started crying, one of them came up to me and started making excuses, said it was my fault because i said this and said that, i hadn’t said anything about anyone, i didn’t even know these people.
i took this picture to understand why they hated on me so bad, i remember that after looking at it, i started crying again.
img 2: nothing much to say, just ugly ass dude.
img 3: bonesmashed while looking like an infant just to appear a bit less ugly (i was retarded dwbi
) marks on the chin.
now for how i knew about lookism from a very young age:
my brother (31 years old now) was active on older lookism related forums, he told me everything when i was 9 years old thinking he could “save me” by “fixing my habits” (said all of this and didn’t do shit).
his LIFESAVING help made me (insecure kid since i was born) even more insecure at the age of 9, making me hate myself and not be able to do shit about it.
now for femminoids:
i had absolutely NOBODY, no looks, no talking stage, nothing.
no little girlfriend to talk to my mom about, no girl that i liked, i was too scared and full of self hatred to even consider anything like that.
anytime i even thought of liking a girl, i’d push that thought out of my mind just by looking at the mirror.
at this point i was at my lowest, then i realized “im a bit taller than last month” (157-159)
BOOM growth spurt, reached 170 like it was nothing.
let’s skip a while, we’re in april 2026 now, i am 187 cm tall, around mtn facially
decent frame
and i actually get looks in public, i’m still extremely insecure (and still 15 years old) but i finally get to walk around without sweating and wishing to go home every instant.
i remember how it felt, i remember the way my throat would close up anytime anyone would look towards me.
i remember thinking all the laughs were about me.
i found some sort of peace, and i hope anybody who’s reading this will be able to aswell.
@EvilSatanArseRapist
here’s a picture of my 13 year old self, at the time i already knew about lookism, i had been knowing for a while, i’ll explain why under.
img n1:
picture taken after i got jumped by my so called “best friends” (i never had many friends, i have 1 or 2 at the moment) my “best friend” at the time had told me “wanna go out to eat mcdonalds?” i, not aware of anything, said yes, went, and while we were walking towards it, we saw a large group of people, my friend kept walking towards them.
even though i was skeptical, i knew i hadn’t done anything wrong and that i had no reason to be afraid of anyone, when we reached these people, they beat the FUCK out of me, threw me on the floor, kicked me, laughed and spit on me, told me i was an ugly worthless short midget and that i deserved nothing in life.
while walking back i started crying, one of them came up to me and started making excuses, said it was my fault because i said this and said that, i hadn’t said anything about anyone, i didn’t even know these people.
i took this picture to understand why they hated on me so bad, i remember that after looking at it, i started crying again.
img 2: nothing much to say, just ugly ass dude.
img 3: bonesmashed while looking like an infant just to appear a bit less ugly (i was retarded dwbi
) marks on the chin.now for how i knew about lookism from a very young age:
my brother (31 years old now) was active on older lookism related forums, he told me everything when i was 9 years old thinking he could “save me” by “fixing my habits” (said all of this and didn’t do shit).
his LIFESAVING help made me (insecure kid since i was born) even more insecure at the age of 9, making me hate myself and not be able to do shit about it.
now for femminoids:
i had absolutely NOBODY, no looks, no talking stage, nothing.
no little girlfriend to talk to my mom about, no girl that i liked, i was too scared and full of self hatred to even consider anything like that.
anytime i even thought of liking a girl, i’d push that thought out of my mind just by looking at the mirror.
at this point i was at my lowest, then i realized “im a bit taller than last month” (157-159)
BOOM growth spurt, reached 170 like it was nothing.
let’s skip a while, we’re in april 2026 now, i am 187 cm tall, around mtn facially
decent frame
and i actually get looks in public, i’m still extremely insecure (and still 15 years old) but i finally get to walk around without sweating and wishing to go home every instant.
i remember how it felt, i remember the way my throat would close up anytime anyone would look towards me.
i remember thinking all the laughs were about me.
i found some sort of peace, and i hope anybody who’s reading this will be able to aswell.
@EvilSatanArseRapist
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