The Worst Phase Is Back Again

[LTNUser]

I decided to make this thread after fapping almost an hour ago and for the second time in a row in two consecutive days.I will just cover the part when this shit began and what effects did it have on my mind.
So I newly discovered masturbation when I was 13.At that time I didn't even know how to do it properly but I found it easily the most pleasurable activity out of all at that time(even more than sports).
But I immediately didn't fall for this trap,it slowly consumed me from Day 1 and it had dopamine inducing effects everytime I fell for it.I didn't go outside to play anymore,did not recite the name of God,did not spend time with my family,did not do anything productive but the most shameful thing about this whole addiction was how my perception of women was pretty much ruined.
Although I never had any perverted thoughts outside in public but I still watched women naked on a screen for most of the time,when I was supposed to go outside and play with kids my age instead.
Everytime I was alone at home or my family wasn't near me inside house,I opened the tab and jerked off to all those videos that made me addicted to this shit.
I was a shy,silent and calm kid but it's pretty embarrassing to think how the guy(me) who was perceived as a good boy,obedient and polite student by other students/teachers in school was actually a loner with zero personality/interests who was good for nothing at all in actuality.My innocent appearance made people think I was disciplined and all that but there was something dark and evil in my other side which people never got to know of(thankfully).
After having started masturbation in March 2023,I continued it for a long time until December in the same year.
By then,a lot of energy,nutrients and useful things inside the vital force had been lost and not in ordinary quantity but a huge one.Finally,on either 30th or 31st of December I decided to quit fapping temporarily,for atleast 90 days.
Once it was New Year,I was motivated and energised to start with a new beginning and forget about the past I could never reverse again.
Everything went well during the month of January in 2024.I went outside more often,ate healthy(vegetables and fruits mostly),gained maybe 3 or 4 kilos of weight and I no longer got even the slightest of urges to fap to any sort of erotic videos.I never imagined anything lustful in my mind during that time.
I thought my spark was back and God blessed me even more because of the way I controlled myself.Although,I still ate like shit back then but I didn't masturbate for a month atleast.

My mood was uplifted when I lasted for 40 days,although I didn't feel any inner light emerging from within,I still felt proud for myself for successfully winning the battle against lust.

I think this is going to be a really long thread if I continue typing so I'll just stop here.I will type about the remaining part some other day.

TLR - Fell for the masturbation trap/addiction 29 months ago,managed to overcome it temporarily after an year almost but that has now resurfaced and is severely affecting all aspects again.

My advice for young guys, especially users below 14 would be to never keep yourself isolated inside your house.Just do something productive even if it is for 10-15 minutes and try to keep yourself busy.Never let your mind control you,stay strong lads

 

[lastredeemer]

 

[mogs me]

I decided to make this thread after fapping almost an hour ago and for the second time in a row in two consecutive days.I will just cover the part when this shit began and what effects did it have on my mind.
So I newly discovered masturbation when I was 13.At that time I didn't even know how to do it properly but I found it easily the most pleasurable activity out of all at that time(even more than sports).
But I immediately didn't fall for this trap,it slowly consumed me from Day 1 and it had dopamine inducing effects everytime I fell for it.I didn't go outside to play anymore,did not recite the name of God,did not spend time with my family,did not do anything productive but the most shameful thing about this whole addiction was how my perception of women was pretty much ruined.
Although I never had any perverted thoughts outside in public but I still watched women naked on a screen for most of the time,when I was supposed to go outside and play with kids my age instead.
Everytime I was alone at home or my family wasn't near me inside house,I opened the tab and jerked off to all those videos that made me addicted to this shit.
I was a shy,silent and calm kid but it's pretty embarrassing to think how the guy(me) who was perceived as a good boy,obedient and polite student by other students/teachers in school was actually a loner with zero personality/interests who was good for nothing at all in actuality.My innocent appearance made people think I was disciplined and all that but there was something dark and evil in my other side which people never got to know of(thankfully).
After having started masturbation in March 2023,I continued it for a long time until December in the same year.
By then,a lot of energy,nutrients and useful things inside the vital force had been lost and not in ordinary quantity but a huge one.Finally,on either 30th or 31st of December I decided to quit fapping temporarily,for atleast 90 days.
Once it was New Year,I was motivated and energised to start with a new beginning and forget about the past I could never reverse again.
Everything went well during the month of January in 2024.I went outside more often,ate healthy(vegetables and fruits mostly),gained maybe 3 or 4 kilos of weight and I no longer got even the slightest of urges to fap to any sort of erotic videos.I never imagined anything lustful in my mind during that time.
I thought my spark was back and God blessed me even more because of the way I controlled myself.Although,I still ate like shit back then but I didn't masturbate for a month atleast.

My mood was uplifted when I lasted for 40 days,although I didn't feel any inner light emerging from within,I still felt proud for myself for successfully winning the battle against lust.

I think this is going to be a really long thread if I continue typing so I'll just stop here.I will type about the remaining part some other day.

TLR - Fell for the masturbation trap/addiction 29 months ago,managed to overcome it temporarily after an year almost but that has now resurfaced and is severely affecting all aspects again.

My advice for young guys, especially users below 14 would be to never keep yourself isolated inside your house.Just do something productive even if it is for 10-15 minutes and try to keep yourself busy.Never let your mind control you,stay strong lads

I’m beating my meat as I’m typing this btw

 

[yesimog420]

Why would your mind control you? You are the mind bud think you mean don’t let the Jews control you

 

[pope]

I decided to make this thread after fapping almost an hour ago and for the second time in a row in two consecutive days.I will just cover the part when this shit began and what effects did it have on my mind.
So I newly discovered masturbation when I was 13.At that time I didn't even know how to do it properly but I found it easily the most pleasurable activity out of all at that time(even more than sports).
But I immediately didn't fall for this trap,it slowly consumed me from Day 1 and it had dopamine inducing effects everytime I fell for it.I didn't go outside to play anymore,did not recite the name of God,did not spend time with my family,did not do anything productive but the most shameful thing about this whole addiction was how my perception of women was pretty much ruined.
Although I never had any perverted thoughts outside in public but I still watched women naked on a screen for most of the time,when I was supposed to go outside and play with kids my age instead.
Everytime I was alone at home or my family wasn't near me inside house,I opened the tab and jerked off to all those videos that made me addicted to this shit.
I was a shy,silent and calm kid but it's pretty embarrassing to think how the guy(me) who was perceived as a good boy,obedient and polite student by other students/teachers in school was actually a loner with zero personality/interests who was good for nothing at all in actuality.My innocent appearance made people think I was disciplined and all that but there was something dark and evil in my other side which people never got to know of(thankfully).
After having started masturbation in March 2023,I continued it for a long time until December in the same year.
By then,a lot of energy,nutrients and useful things inside the vital force had been lost and not in ordinary quantity but a huge one.Finally,on either 30th or 31st of December I decided to quit fapping temporarily,for atleast 90 days.
Once it was New Year,I was motivated and energised to start with a new beginning and forget about the past I could never reverse again.
Everything went well during the month of January in 2024.I went outside more often,ate healthy(vegetables and fruits mostly),gained maybe 3 or 4 kilos of weight and I no longer got even the slightest of urges to fap to any sort of erotic videos.I never imagined anything lustful in my mind during that time.
I thought my spark was back and God blessed me even more because of the way I controlled myself.Although,I still ate like shit back then but I didn't masturbate for a month atleast.

My mood was uplifted when I lasted for 40 days,although I didn't feel any inner light emerging from within,I still felt proud for myself for successfully winning the battle against lust.

I think this is going to be a really long thread if I continue typing so I'll just stop here.I will type about the remaining part some other day.

TLR - Fell for the masturbation trap/addiction 29 months ago,managed to overcome it temporarily after an year almost but that has now resurfaced and is severely affecting all aspects again.

My advice for young guys, especially users below 14 would be to never keep yourself isolated inside your house.Just do something productive even if it is for 10-15 minutes and try to keep yourself busy.Never let your mind control you,stay strong lads

 

[160cmcurry]

no fap is a meme

don’t stress over it

 

[Sceptical]

no fap is a meme

don’t stress over it

i can't coom due to my low t

 

[atturki67]

I decided to make this thread after fapping almost an hour ago and for the second time in a row in two consecutive days.I will just cover the part when this shit began and what effects did it have on my mind.
So I newly discovered masturbation when I was 13.At that time I didn't even know how to do it properly but I found it easily the most pleasurable activity out of all at that time(even more than sports).
But I immediately didn't fall for this trap,it slowly consumed me from Day 1 and it had dopamine inducing effects everytime I fell for it.I didn't go outside to play anymore,did not recite the name of God,did not spend time with my family,did not do anything productive but the most shameful thing about this whole addiction was how my perception of women was pretty much ruined.
Although I never had any perverted thoughts outside in public but I still watched women naked on a screen for most of the time,when I was supposed to go outside and play with kids my age instead.
Everytime I was alone at home or my family wasn't near me inside house,I opened the tab and jerked off to all those videos that made me addicted to this shit.
I was a shy,silent and calm kid but it's pretty embarrassing to think how the guy(me) who was perceived as a good boy,obedient and polite student by other students/teachers in school was actually a loner with zero personality/interests who was good for nothing at all in actuality.My innocent appearance made people think I was disciplined and all that but there was something dark and evil in my other side which people never got to know of(thankfully).
After having started masturbation in March 2023,I continued it for a long time until December in the same year.
By then,a lot of energy,nutrients and useful things inside the vital force had been lost and not in ordinary quantity but a huge one.Finally,on either 30th or 31st of December I decided to quit fapping temporarily,for atleast 90 days.
Once it was New Year,I was motivated and energised to start with a new beginning and forget about the past I could never reverse again.
Everything went well during the month of January in 2024.I went outside more often,ate healthy(vegetables and fruits mostly),gained maybe 3 or 4 kilos of weight and I no longer got even the slightest of urges to fap to any sort of erotic videos.I never imagined anything lustful in my mind during that time.
I thought my spark was back and God blessed me even more because of the way I controlled myself.Although,I still ate like shit back then but I didn't masturbate for a month atleast.

My mood was uplifted when I lasted for 40 days,although I didn't feel any inner light emerging from within,I still felt proud for myself for successfully winning the battle against lust.

I think this is going to be a really long thread if I continue typing so I'll just stop here.I will type about the remaining part some other day.

TLR - Fell for the masturbation trap/addiction 29 months ago,managed to overcome it temporarily after an year almost but that has now resurfaced and is severely affecting all aspects again.

My advice for young guys, especially users below 14 would be to never keep yourself isolated inside your house.Just do something productive even if it is for 10-15 minutes and try to keep yourself busy.Never let your mind control you,stay strong lads

Dnr but I busted 7min ago

 

[luca_.]

I decided to make this thread after fapping almost an hour ago and for the second time in a row in two consecutive days.I will just cover the part when this shit began and what effects did it have on my mind.
So I newly discovered masturbation when I was 13.At that time I didn't even know how to do it properly but I found it easily the most pleasurable activity out of all at that time(even more than sports).
But I immediately didn't fall for this trap,it slowly consumed me from Day 1 and it had dopamine inducing effects everytime I fell for it.I didn't go outside to play anymore,did not recite the name of God,did not spend time with my family,did not do anything productive but the most shameful thing about this whole addiction was how my perception of women was pretty much ruined.
Although I never had any perverted thoughts outside in public but I still watched women naked on a screen for most of the time,when I was supposed to go outside and play with kids my age instead.
Everytime I was alone at home or my family wasn't near me inside house,I opened the tab and jerked off to all those videos that made me addicted to this shit.
I was a shy,silent and calm kid but it's pretty embarrassing to think how the guy(me) who was perceived as a good boy,obedient and polite student by other students/teachers in school was actually a loner with zero personality/interests who was good for nothing at all in actuality.My innocent appearance made people think I was disciplined and all that but there was something dark and evil in my other side which people never got to know of(thankfully).
After having started masturbation in March 2023,I continued it for a long time until December in the same year.
By then,a lot of energy,nutrients and useful things inside the vital force had been lost and not in ordinary quantity but a huge one.Finally,on either 30th or 31st of December I decided to quit fapping temporarily,for atleast 90 days.
Once it was New Year,I was motivated and energised to start with a new beginning and forget about the past I could never reverse again.
Everything went well during the month of January in 2024.I went outside more often,ate healthy(vegetables and fruits mostly),gained maybe 3 or 4 kilos of weight and I no longer got even the slightest of urges to fap to any sort of erotic videos.I never imagined anything lustful in my mind during that time.
I thought my spark was back and God blessed me even more because of the way I controlled myself.Although,I still ate like shit back then but I didn't masturbate for a month atleast.

My mood was uplifted when I lasted for 40 days,although I didn't feel any inner light emerging from within,I still felt proud for myself for successfully winning the battle against lust.

I think this is going to be a really long thread if I continue typing so I'll just stop here.I will type about the remaining part some other day.

TLR - Fell for the masturbation trap/addiction 29 months ago,managed to overcome it temporarily after an year almost but that has now resurfaced and is severely affecting all aspects again.

My advice for young guys, especially users below 14 would be to never keep yourself isolated inside your house.Just do something productive even if it is for 10-15 minutes and try to keep yourself busy.Never let your mind control you,stay strong lads

Would say dnr but I read all of it. Relapsing is an unending fight over and over again, except you have less and less motivation every time

 

[luca_.]

i can't coom due to my low t

Me too Pepe