Therapy is so ass it makes me more suicidal

Crying on org and larping suicide nobody cares how you screamed at your therapist lol
Genuinely not gonna argue with you. If you think I'm larping my attempt is somewhere out there lul
 
Yeah as long as I remember I've been passively suicidal but I started lacking empathy later on (maybe when I was 10? Don't remember). I don't really remember my childhood but I remember wishing I got in a car crash every time my parents drove me to school
Your lack of empathy is likely tied to how you were raised/treated then.

I severely doubt you were suicidal as a child too. Could very well be your brain rewriting history to make you think your current perspective is more valid.

What I'm basing you off is what I've seen in other people claiming similar things. I could be wrong of course.
 
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Obviously but don’t drag it I literally joined a few days ago moid
the allergic joke was funny, take my pity rep
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I severely doubt you were suicidal as a child too.
Actually I remember this because one time I hit my head in class (3rd grade) trying to crack my skull or some shit and people still remember it :feelsbadman:
 
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Actually I remember this because one time I hit my head in class (3rd grade) trying to crack my skull or some shit and people still remember it :feelsbadman:
Sorry for the late response, the sites been slow which caused me to skip over your notification within my inbox.

Are you saying you tried to crack your skull to kill yourself? I'm assuming a 3rd grader knows there are easier ways to kill himself, why didn't you do that? Are you sure it wasn't rooted in wanting attention or something? It can line up especially since you "lost empathy" implying you had it before. Are you sure this isn't all because you went through something tragic?
 
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I have to fucking wake up at 10am 3 times a week to go to some shitty therapist that makes me have family sessions and forces me to hug and make eye contact with the slut of a mom I have. I screamed at the therapist at least 4 times already. When I have individual sessions she tries to get me to talk about something that isn't lookism and that pisses me off so much. I got tipsy so I can handle talking to her, but I started being too honest now she's talking to my parents about some "consultation with a psychologist" or whatever. Oh my god I want to beat that bitch up I have therapy tomorrow I'll genuinely lose my shit. If I don't go my dad will take my phone again and I will hang myself because of how boring life is without internet :lasereyes::lasereyes: Fuck these bitches I hope they all die die die stupid cunt foids :feelswah::feelswah:
@motionmantris hello my bro
I was genuinely about to blow my head off yesterday, but the barrel hit my chin and i injured myself so i stopped for a bit but then my mom walked in so i didnt kms and now i have reconsidered it :feelsautistic:
 
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I was genuinely about to blow my head off yesterday, but the barrel hit my chin and i injured myself so i stopped for a bit but then my mom walked in so i didnt kms and now i have reconsidered it :feelsautistic:
glad ur still here continue u on bro
 
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I have to fucking wake up at 10am 3 times a week to go to some shitty therapist that makes me have family sessions and forces me to hug and make eye contact with the slut of a mom I have. I screamed at the therapist at least 4 times already. When I have individual sessions she tries to get me to talk about something that isn't lookism and that pisses me off so much. I got tipsy so I can handle talking to her, but I started being too honest now she's talking to my parents about some "consultation with a psychologist" or whatever. Oh my god I want to beat that bitch up I have therapy tomorrow I'll genuinely lose my shit. If I don't go my dad will take my phone again and I will hang myself because of how boring life is without internet :lasereyes::lasereyes: Fuck these bitches I hope they all die die die stupid cunt foids :feelswah::feelswah:
@motionmantris hello my bro
 
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Therapy's sole purpose is to make you a good goy in society, jfl
 
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Are you sure this isn't all because you went through something tragic?
I mean I don’t remember anything before the age of 8 so maybe? It’s not like I can be sure
 
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I was genuinely about to blow my head off yesterday, but the barrel hit my chin and i injured myself so i stopped for a bit but then my mom walked in so i didnt kms and now i have reconsidered it :feelsautistic:
Good you didn’t do it bhai. For me failed attempts are due to the method being ineffective mostly, I don’t think I’ve backed up from it.
 
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I mean I don’t remember anything before the age of 8 so maybe? It’s not like I can be sure
What you describe about feeling guilt until 10 years old and after losing all sense of it is in almost all cases due to trauma.

Sure, you most likely have some mental issues, but the majority is probably from that.

I feel like you do want attention as you posted this on here. I personally would never post anything like this as I don't feel the need to let anyone in on what's happening in my life.

I feel like you put up a facade and pretend like you hate everyone because you may have anti social traits or because you were wronged in the past. You justify it to make it seem like a valid explanation but you like talking here. You speak with us willingly, why is that?

I feel like you hating the world is a product of how you were treated.

I also don't get how you're unable to remember anything before the age of 8. I remember everything vividly after 5 years old.

Were you ever neglected or wronged?
 
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How come therapy made you even more crazy
 
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Yes I do who doesn't :forcedsmile:
I'm glad you can accept it & everyone does you are correct on that point. The issue lies in not being able to control it.


That is most likely why then. It's basically impossible like I stated before for this to be due to neurodivergence. Johan Liebert is a classic example of this. People think it's because he had things like autism but it was only due to his upbringing.

I believe the best way to get over this is to truly think with yourself. Think why you feel these things. It takes a long while to truly admit you don't dislike people but rather the thought of being neglected/rejected/etc. Your brain makes you feel this way to justify the shield you have.

I want you to go ahead and think for the next month or so. Put aside any "Hahaha dark triad" thoughts you may have. None of it matters. Figure out who you are.
 
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