There has always been something 'off' in me

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Since i can remember ive been a outcast in some way, always isolated from others. This has been a recourring theme in my life and could probably been solved if a little effort was made on my part or by others to socialize me at some point so that i developed personal relationships, but this was avoided for far too long to the point that I lost my formative years. It accumulated and became part of my identity. Im not sure It can fixed at this point.
Not sure how I will function as an adult

 

[Deleted member 773]

It’s called being high IQ and the solution is to inject T and smoke weed

 

[Deleted member 2227]

OP THINK HE IS A AUTIST OR A DARK TRIAD PSYCHOPATH

 

[autistic_tendencies]

inject immediately

 

[Inline]

It’s called being high IQ and the solution is to inject T and smoke weed

I do smoke weed sometimes in my teenage years up to now, but i wish i didnt. Not smoking weed ever again hopefuly.
On the high Iq thing, i dont think so. I have low agency, very poor memory, struggle with speaking, bad grades at uni and very slow at reasoning. I did a iq test once and got 66 percentile. Although i do indeed have intelecyual interests most around me dont have, i havent really pursued them at a meaningful degree. I also think my addictions, isolation, being NEET etc lowered considerably my Iq tbh

 

[25thpercentile human]

Since i can remember ive been a outcast in some way, always isolated from others. This has been a recourring theme in my life and could probably been solved if a little effort was made on my part or by others to socialize me at some point so that i developed personal relationships, but this was avoided for far too long to the point that I lost my formative years. It accumulated and became part of my identity. Im not sure It can fixed at this point.
Not sure how I will function as an adult

how old are you? just talk with ppl its not that hard

 

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OP THINK HE IS A AUTIST OR A DARK TRIAD PSYCHOPATH

Im neither. I suspect i might have schizoid personality disorder though

 

[6ft8InTheNetherlands]

Since i can remember ive been a outcast in some way, always isolated from others. This has been a recourring theme in my life and could probably been solved if a little effort was made on my part or by others to socialize me at some point so that i developed personal relationships, but this was avoided for far too long to the point that I lost my formative years. It accumulated and became part of my identity. Im not sure It can fixed at this point.
Not sure how I will function as an adult

I have the same and all I can say is good luck.

Mental hurdles like this can't really be overcome unless you're very young. it's over for us in their mid to late 20s regarding this.

 

[Cope]

You change as an adult but it's definitely a lot harder, especially after 25.

I would try to NTmax as soon as possible. Even if you're technically an "introverted" person, you need some level of social prowess to make it anywhere in life. Psychedelics increase neuroplasticity which allow you pick up on these things easier which is why it's often mentioned on these forums to become less inhibited and more neurotypical. I was the same way as you when I was younger and I've made up for it somewhat, but I've seriously lost so much time.

 

[Deleted member 2100]

Same, Ive always felt different than everyone else. My views always differed from theirs.

 

[ChaddeusPeuterschmit]

Autism

 

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Since ive never interacted repeatedly with people, creating patterns of personality or asserting/solidifying some identity, when i speak to people i feel all over the place. I mostly say what they want to hear, speak in platitudes, try to end the conversation as fast as possible but being polite. I feel fake but i have no choice

You change as an adult but it's definitely a lot harder, especially after 25.

Im younger than that but the future feels uncertain

 

[Deleted member 2100]

Since ive never interacted repeatedly with people, creating patterns of personality or asserting/solidifying some identity, when i speak to people i feel all over the place. I mostly say what they want to hear, speak in platitudes, try to end the conversation as fast as possible but being polite. I feel fake but i have no choice

Im younger than that but the future feels uncertain

Same exact problem bro. How old are you?

 

[Cope]

Since ive never interacted repeatedly with people, creating patterns of personality or asserting/solidifying some identity, when i speak to people i feel all over the place. I mostly say what they want to hear, speak in platitudes, try to end the conversation as fast as possible but being polite.

That's how NT social interactions are. It's low IQ and pointless, but it's something you need to constantly practice at.

 

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Same exact problem bro. How old are you?

19. I feel younger due to lack of life experience though. The last three years feel like one
I have very few memories from childhood also

 

[Deleted member 2100]

19. I feel younger due to lack of life experience though. The last three years feel like one
I have very few memories from childhood also

Same exact situation. Brutal.

 

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Same exact situation. Brutal.

Its always interesting to know there are people that relate to this. I always find my situation very unliquely, like "how could i get away with this for 19 years"? In older times this wouldnt be possible i think, people needed community to survive etc. We are a product of the modern city, internet, among a series of factors

 

[Deleted member 2100]

Its always interesting to know there are people that relate to this. I always find my situation very unliquely, like "how could i get away with this for 19 years"? In older times this wouldnt be possible i think, people needed community to survive etc. We are a product of the modern city, internet, among a series of factors

Indeed

But we still have time to get our social receptors going, its not over yet.

 

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But we still have time to get our social receptors going, its not over yet

It wont feel the same. Youth is a magical thing. I wish i could be 16 again tbh

 

[Deleted member 2100]

It wont feel the same. Youth is a magical thing. I wish i could be 16 again tbh

Yea man fuck. Im 17 and Im about to graduate high school in 3 months and I regret not having done anything. Its time I wont ever get back.

Since youre in the same situation as me, you could answer this question better than anybody.

For college, should I dorm straight off the bat and build up social skills and live life? Or should I got community college, become more proficient in school, lose weight and improve myself, and then dorm for the last two years.

I want to pick the latter option, its the smarter option, but Im afraid Ill never get that spark of youthful joy that others do.

 

[6ft8InTheNetherlands]

^^Guys if you really are 18 and want to fix your mental hurdles, get off this site now and do a complete 180 in life because it's not over yet for you. massive brain changes take place between 18-25

 

[Deleted member 4209]

Since i can remember ive been a outcast in some way, always isolated from others. This has been a recourring theme in my life and could probably been solved if a little effort was made on my part or by others to socialize me at some point so that i developed personal relationships, but this was avoided for far too long to the point that I lost my formative years. It accumulated and became part of my identity. Im not sure It can fixed at this point.
Not sure how I will function as an adult

are you me?

 

[Alexanderr]

This is the perfect description of my life.

 

[Deleted member 4612]

This is the perfect description of my life.

same tbh

 

[IWantToMax]

Same.
I used to be really extroverted until 4th year of elementary school.
I was a legit Chad until then.

Still remember that this year, while other kids were playing, I would be talking with a friend of mine about girls and shit.

From then on I stopped being social and became a complete outcast in primary school, I had to go to a school different from my friends' and lived away from the city, so I could not hangout with other guys frequently, more like once every couple months.

In secondary school I was outcast for the first 2 years, I have people still tell me that until 3rd year they didn't even know what my voice sounded like.
From 3rd year I started partying and shit and became way more outgoing.

I'm still not NT, but it getting better and better

 

[Time Travel]

Same bro. I have no idea what to do. I asked come off as weird to new people.

 

[Amnesia]

No u cant fix it, its over trust me. You never change

 

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For college, should I dorm straight off the bat and build up social skills and live life? Or should I got community college, become more proficient in school, lose weight and improve myself, and then dorm for the last two years

I went to uni for about a year and didnt make any friends and had bad grades, i certainly tegret doing that. Its free here at least. Consider carefully tbh

 

[ChadFucksYourOneitis]

Bad grades don't always mean you are dumb. To get good grades one has to be obedient and conform to the system and his teachers.