There is no balance in slavery

[MoriBountarou2]

I spent three days living as a beach bum. Doing absolutely nothing. Just sitting in the sun at the beach doing nothing. From sunrise to sunset. Ive never felt better in my life. Ofc i cant do that all the time. Today i went back to school, tomorrow at my job. An ugly, unlovable, khhv, slave. There in nature im nothing. I am a failure even by natures standards since im not developed enough to be attractive and reproduce. But there i can accept it. I felt at peace with it. Now going back to the normal routine feels 10 times worse. I realised there cant be balance really. Doing this 2 days a week or smth which even that is unrealistic. Its either this all the time or nothing. Because experiencing what life was meant to be then going back into this lie feels really wrong. If i dont find a khhv ltb by 25 im going to live in Mongolia with the nomads or sum shit

 

[Norwood8]

Just go now if it makes you feel fulfilled go live in nature. You can probably save enough money in a few months max to live for years in a third world country without working.

 

[MoriBountarou2]

Just go now if it makes you feel fulfilled go live in nature. You can probably save enough money in a few months max to live for years in a third world country without working.

Even though i am realistic and i know how ugly i am, i still want to stay here to finish uni to see if i can find a girl. Most likely wont happen but i want to just make sure yk get it out of my head