There's a decent chance I was molested as a kid...

[Deleted member 11126]

I can't remember anything before the age of 8-9. And I was always interested in sexual violence since I was 10 I remember always being curious. It gives me urges but at the same time it makes me sad.


I've had dreams about sexual abuse since I was a kid I didn't want to believe it but when I got drunk last night all these memories of pain came back. When I think of this situation I want to hurt people so badly

 

[Deleted member 11126]

I hope this is all in my head... Is it normal to not remember anything past 9?

 

[GandyIsNormie]

I hope this is all in my head... Is it normal to not remember anything past 9?

I remember things even when I was 1 year old even if it seems like a joke

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Ten year olds dont get rape dreams. Sounds like repressed memories.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

I remember things even when I was 1 year old even if it seems like a joke

My memory is pretty good but past 9 its very difficult to remember a single thing. I had a guy in HS tell me we were friends in kindergarten and I could not remember him at all.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Ten year olds dont get rape dreams. Sounds like repressed memories.

I've had a lot of sexually violent dreams as a kid.

 

[Deleted member 17791]

I've had a lot of sexually violent dreams as a kid.

Have you thought about talking to someone about it?

 

[PrinceLuenLeoncur]

I've had a lot of sexually violent dreams as a kid.

Over 4 u bro. Time to become the punisher and rape the guy who raped you and if it’s a woman then umm I dunno

 

[Deleted member 18522]

Ten year olds dont get rape dreams. Sounds like repressed memories.

My thoughts exactly. You can’t even think up that stuff at that age

OP was unfortunately probably molested and compartmentalized the abuse

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Have you thought about talking to someone about it?

Whenever I think about it I want to kill someone... I can barely type it and I'm drunk rn

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Whenever I think about it I want to kill someone... I can barely type it and I'm drunk rn

It's okay. You'd feel better after letting it off your chest.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Over 4 u bro. Time to become the punisher and rape the guy who raped you and if it’s a woman then umm I dunno

At least this shit didn't make me a faggot a lot of people who are molested become this way.

Although I do have an abusive sadistic nature I don't know if this is the reason why

 

[Clark69]

Is it normal to not remember anything past 9?

Most people can have memories going back to three-four years old. Judging from what you said, it's 99% possible you were molested

 

[Sigmamale]

I would bring this to a professional if you feel comfortable doing so. Professionals can not fix you if your problem is related to looks but I think they could possibly help you with this situation.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Most people can have memories going back to three-four years old. Judging from what you said, it's 99% possible you were molested

I love the patrick bateman edit...

The only thing that makes me feel better now is imagining beating someone to a bloody pulp or hurting people lol