Deleted member 8846
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No matter what I do, no matter what I accomplish nothing will ever grant me even a crumb of happiness anymore.
I know that this reality is just autistically fucking gay and retardedly meaningless so why even bother?? Why even care about anything tbh.
If I get a high paying job, I'll walk home from the interview with a jaded, depressing look on my face. If I'm talking to a hot foid, I'm putting up a fake "happiness" aura, but in reality I don't give a fuck about her and I know that the only reason I'm talking to her is because my dick wants to be inside of her. I'm a biological puppet, a slave to my biology.
Even if I ascend, why would that make me happy? So what? A woman "loves" (except love doesn't even exist) me for the looks I had to acquire through countless of expensive and retarded surgeries. That kind of just brings more depression than happiness tbh.
Even if I get laid, that wouldn't bring any long term meaning or satisfaction into my life. Just short term "happy" emotions from my reptilian brain for following what my biology wants me to do.
What is there even left to do anymore? I don't have any copes. All I do is bonesmash, workout and browse this ASPIE forum. I will wagecuck till the day I die and then my life will be complete. My life will have been for absolutely nothing and I will have wasted 70 - 80 years chasing some pussy, only to die and fade away into ash.
The blackpill has destroyed me, buddyboyos. Hamudi Ebalz was right... Every cope really has it's end. Enjoy your copes while they last, I miss the days when I was a 14 year old bluepilled cuck and I was having dreams about getting laid.
I know that this reality is just autistically fucking gay and retardedly meaningless so why even bother?? Why even care about anything tbh.
If I get a high paying job, I'll walk home from the interview with a jaded, depressing look on my face. If I'm talking to a hot foid, I'm putting up a fake "happiness" aura, but in reality I don't give a fuck about her and I know that the only reason I'm talking to her is because my dick wants to be inside of her. I'm a biological puppet, a slave to my biology.
Even if I ascend, why would that make me happy? So what? A woman "loves" (except love doesn't even exist) me for the looks I had to acquire through countless of expensive and retarded surgeries. That kind of just brings more depression than happiness tbh.
Even if I get laid, that wouldn't bring any long term meaning or satisfaction into my life. Just short term "happy" emotions from my reptilian brain for following what my biology wants me to do.
What is there even left to do anymore? I don't have any copes. All I do is bonesmash, workout and browse this ASPIE forum. I will wagecuck till the day I die and then my life will be complete. My life will have been for absolutely nothing and I will have wasted 70 - 80 years chasing some pussy, only to die and fade away into ash.
The blackpill has destroyed me, buddyboyos. Hamudi Ebalz was right... Every cope really has it's end. Enjoy your copes while they last, I miss the days when I was a 14 year old bluepilled cuck and I was having dreams about getting laid.