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bipolar, edgy, suicidal, agressive, antisocial, i had it all. i legit had trouble conversatng because i was bored to do so. i spent all the time inside my head, i couldnt communicate with others and all i thought about was my oneitis and the pain she went though during chidl birth. if she could take it then i must take it too.
even worse though, i started becoming uncontrollably rude the same way she was. because my chimp brain knows i cant have her so it manifests her personality traits through me and i hate it cuz its cucked. i have also abandone my weak side entirely so i was basically a zombie without it.
and thats the thing thats why i NEED her so much. she has the same weak traits with me but these traits are good for a girl not for a guy. that way i can keep my strong traits and see my weak ones in her. sadly that cant happen so i lose 50% of my soul and all thats left are the agressive, sporty, high IQ, aspects of me at the cost of being empty as fuck. im scewed because there is no other girl like her so i have to live as a shell forever.
I also had nightmares. Last night i dreamt i was in a hotel room. In the room right next to mine was my old oneitis with her husband and baby. In the room left of mine was my oneitis with her husband and baby. I was suffcating even in my sleep.
even worse though, i started becoming uncontrollably rude the same way she was. because my chimp brain knows i cant have her so it manifests her personality traits through me and i hate it cuz its cucked. i have also abandone my weak side entirely so i was basically a zombie without it.
and thats the thing thats why i NEED her so much. she has the same weak traits with me but these traits are good for a girl not for a guy. that way i can keep my strong traits and see my weak ones in her. sadly that cant happen so i lose 50% of my soul and all thats left are the agressive, sporty, high IQ, aspects of me at the cost of being empty as fuck. im scewed because there is no other girl like her so i have to live as a shell forever.
I also had nightmares. Last night i dreamt i was in a hotel room. In the room right next to mine was my old oneitis with her husband and baby. In the room left of mine was my oneitis with her husband and baby. I was suffcating even in my sleep.
