Things I used to enjoy doing don’t make me happy anymore and that breaks my heart

[Vermilioncore]

This year things have gotten so bad. It feels like a nightmare I never can wake from. I used to cope by playing video games and writing.

Neither of those things can satisfy me now.

I’m scared. I don’t want to lose the little joy I have left. I don’t want to stop enjoying my copes because then I’ll commit suicide.

I realized alcohol is the only cope I still enjoy because it actually alters the way I am feeling. It can make me feel numb or cause me to not give a fuck.

Now I know why homeless people are on drugs and alcohol. It transport them away from the pain.

 

[Deleted member 17027]

This year things have gotten so bad. It feels like a nightmare I never can wake from. I used to cope by playing video games and writing.

Neither of those things can satisfy me now.

I’m scared. I don’t want to lose the little joy I have left. I don’t want to stop enjoying my copes because then I’ll commit suicide.

I realized alcohol is the only cope I still enjoy because it actually alters the way I am feeling. It can make me feel numb or cause me to not give a fuck.

Now I know why homeless people are on drugs and alcohol. It transport them away from the pain.

I GOT U CUH
if ur really dying to feel something try weed?
games defo get boring after sometime try hanging out with funny ass niggas
if productivity is a problem try caffiene tablets and dead ass take a cold shower for 5 minutes u will be jumpin around saying stupid funny shit in ur room, or instead listen to some fire ass music that just makes u feel that shit ya hearddd