Thinking about an ideal version of my life makes me want to cry

[mug]

Guys I think I am struggling with some demons, eating fast food porn addiction, not getting enough sleep… I need to be humbler and ask for advice… im clearly not smart nor wise enough to make the decisions for myself at least not without help…

They tell you being an adult is about making your own decisions and being your own person… but don’t adults need structure in their lives and good advice to pass down that advice too? For math and science we build on it so i can’t just try to figure out life myself… I need to be humble…

The person I want to be. I someone who can drive… has a car, commutes to community college. Works part time and a second job. And has a consistant schedule, wakes up at 6 am, does the same things every day and is in bed by 11pm. This person goes to the gym when he has time and has a routine he follows… he has a few thousand dollars in his savings and has a girlfriend he can take on a nice date every month. This person is humble and reads books and values physical and mental strength. As well as humility and God…

This is who I want to be. And yes i have been reading that guide for porn addicts…

 

[brucel]

We live among the worst time were everything is addicting and harmful yet we are supposed to find these disgusting things normal, we have it harder than any generation, the jews shall find what true pain, they have did to us.