Thinking of suicide is so calming

[LegitUser]

I don't known if I will go through with it. But it's reassuring to realise there is always a solution for 100% of my problems.

Anyone else relate?

 

[Neucher]

I don't known if I will go through with it. But it's reassuring to realise there is always a solution for 100% of my problems.

Anyone else relate?

You probably are too much of a pussy to kill yourself

 

[LegitUser]

You probably are too much of a pussy to kill yourself

No, I can do it if I really want to. The only reason I don't is because of spite against other people. And the fact there is a still few ways I might be able to afford leg lengthening before my prime years are over. If that fails, then I will almost certainly do it.

 

[Clqs]

EmilCioranMaxxing

 

[LegitUser]

EmilCioranMaxxing

Idk who that is

 

[Neucher]

are you depressed

 

[whotthehell]

Thinking of Sui can lead you to some irresponsible decisions because you don’t care about your life anyways

 

[LegitUser]

are you depressed

Yes, why?

 

[Neucher]

Yes, why?

get SSRIs

 

[134applesauce456]

relatable to be honest

it's not like I actually want to do it but it's comforting knowing if everything in life fails one day, there is a way out

 

[MajesticNaan]

relatable to be honest

it's not like I actually want to do it but it's comforting knowing if everything in life fails one day, there is a way out

its never over

 

[Regressive]

rope out/away/off/

 

[Funnyunenjoyer1]

I don't known if I will go through with it. But it's reassuring to realise there is always a solution for 100% of my problems.

Anyone else relate?

suicidal thoughts are low T

 

[LegitUser]

get SSRIs

I am on an SNRI right now, started 4 weeks ago. Antidepressants and any forms of therapy won't help - they treat the symptoms. The cause of my illness is being ugly, being raised by shit parents, being rejected by almost everyone.

It's like how the used to give heart attack patients morphine and hope they survive the night, sure the Antidepressants make life slightly more bearable (for me.it helps me not think of the past alot), but in the end the problems are still there.

There is no hope for me unless I somehow 10x my money and pay for leg lengthening.

 

[Super Gooner]

No, I can do it if I really want to. The only reason I don't is because of spite against other people. And the fact there is a still few ways I might be able to afford leg lengthening before my prime years are over. If that fails, then I will almost certainly do it.

How will u do it?

 

[LegitUser]

relatable to be honest

it's not like I actually want to do it but it's comforting knowing if everything in life fails one day, there is a way out

Yeah, if I survive the impulsively when I am really alone, I think I have a deadline age at around 20 - if things haven't significantly improved by then I'm ending it.

 

[IAMNOTANINCEL]

Never rope, ER-Nodtveidt only

 

[hypernormie]

 

[LegitUser]

How will u do it?

Overdose, it's the most peaceful way and based on my degree I'm doing right now I find it a poetic and fitting end. I haven't decided exactly what combination yet but it will be some mix of benzo + opiod + cardiac toxin. Last time I was very depressed( about a year ago), I had almost ordered amitryptyaline, xanax and codeine. I stopped because I went to my doctor about it. I never told them how bad I was though.

The reason I don't keep anything on hand is to prevent me from commuting suicide impulsively

 

[hypernormie]

suicidal thoughts are low T

Actually the opposite

Low digit ratio (2D:4D) in male suicide victims​

Low digit ratio (2D:4D) in male suicide victims - PMC

Although women attempt suicides equally or more often than men do, men are more likely to die of suicide than women (sex paradox of suicidal behavior). Furthermore, the male traits of aggression and impulsivity predict suicide completion. Here, we ...

pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

 

[Super Gooner]

Overdose, it's the most peaceful way and based on my degree I'm doing right now I find it a poetic and fitting end. I haven't decided exactly what combination yet but it will be some mix of benzo + opiod + cardiac toxin. Last time I was very depressed( about a year ago), I had almost ordered amitryptyaline, xanax and codeine. I stopped because I went to my doctor about it. I never told them how bad I was though.

The reason I don't keep anything on hand is to prevent me from commuting suicide impulsively

Why do u want to commit?

 

[LegitUser]

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[LegitUser]

Why do u want to commit?

Right now I don't want to, I just like thinking of it as it's comforting to know there's a solution for anything.

In the past when I almost did it was because of realising there is no way to fix my life unless I somehow make alot of money. The bp is very real, girls look at me in disgust before I even say anything in clubs, whereas with my attractive friends tho look in envy (and this isn't just an issue limited to me, they have the same look of disgust when my friends who are less or similar levels of attractiveness to me try to flirt with them)

Here's what I need:
- leg lengthening ~150k
- fat transfer (fix undereyes): few thousand
- therapy to fix childhood issues: few thousand and become NT. (Nt is law unless chad)

not being NT leads to extreme loneliness.

 

[hypernormie]

Right now I don't want to, I just like thinking of it as it's comforting to know there's a solution for anything.

In the past when I almost did it was because of realising there is no way to fix my life unless I somehow make alot of money. The bp is very real, girls look at me in disgust before I even say anything in clubs, whereas with my attractive friends tho look in envy (and this isn't just an issue limited to me, they have the same look of disgust when my friends who are less or similar levels of attractiveness to me try to flirt with them)

Here's what I need:
- leg lengthening ~150k
- fat transfer (fix undereyes): few thousand
- therapy to fix childhood issues: few thousand and become NT. (Nt is law unless chad)

not being NT leads to extreme loneliness.

so is your goal to get rich?

 

[Super Gooner]

Right now I don't want to, I just like thinking of it as it's comforting to know there's a solution for anything.

In the past when I almost did it was because of realising there is no way to fix my life unless I somehow make alot of money. The bp is very real, girls look at me in disgust before I even say anything in clubs, whereas with my attractive friends tho look in envy (and this isn't just an issue limited to me, they have the same look of disgust when my friends who are less or similar levels of attractiveness to me try to flirt with them)

Here's what I need:
- leg lengthening ~150k
- fat transfer (fix undereyes): few thousand
- therapy to fix childhood issues: few thousand and become NT. (Nt is law unless chad)

not being NT leads to extreme loneliness.

So its lonliness? Whats wrong with your life now? Is there nothing you enjoy? Like masturbation or something. Are u ethnic by chance and under 5’9? Ive had suicidal thoughts too but i know they stop there and i would never actually commit to it because we have one life and you never know what could happen

 

[Klasik616]

I don't known if I will go through with it. But it's reassuring to realise there is always a solution for 100% of my problems.

Anyone else relate?

And the best thing, God doesn't exist

 

[LegitUser]

So its lonliness? Whats wrong with your life now? Is there nothing you enjoy? Like masturbation or something. Are u ethnic by chance and under 5’9? Ive had suicidal thoughts too but i know they stop there and i would never actually commit to it because we have one life and you never know what could happen

Yup im ethnic 5"6 LTN facially. Crazy how you can predict that I'm short just off the fact I want to kms yet normies say height doesn't matter despite objective data showing risk of suicide increases hugely every inch shorter you are (in men obviously)

I enjoy a few things, the Antidepressants helps with that, but in the end i know it's meaningless and won't lead to a fulfilling life or that activity/action/thing giving me happiness will last long term.

Yeah, hope is what stops me from commiting as well, there was only one time in my entire life where the agony I was in overcome the hope and I was very close to ending it - luckily not felt that in a long time

 

[bye_bye]

bro it's just over for everything, it's the end.

 

[LegitUser]

so is your goal to get rich?

My goal is to fall in love with a girl who loves me back, getting rich is just a step there, and I don't want to be some sugar daddy who is a beta buxxer, the money will be used on surgeries. If that happens without being rich, the. That's fine.

I'd rather be poor and dumb yet be loved than what I am right now

 

[Super Gooner]

Yup im ethnic 5"6 LTN facially. Crazy how you can predict that I'm short just off the fact I want to kms yet normies say height doesn't matter despite objective data showing risk of suicide increases hugely every inch shorter you are (in men obviously)

I enjoy a few things, the Antidepressants helps with that, but in the end i know it's meaningless and won't lead to a fulfilling life or that activity/action/thing giving me happiness will last long term.

Yeah, hope is what stops me from commiting as well, there was only one time in my entire life where the agony I was in overcome the hope and I was very close to ending it - luckily not felt that in a long time

Yeah i agree height is a brutal game, im 5’10 and feel short often. Its good you know that you need limb lengthening surgery. But in the mean time i would just give up on the hope of finding a woman. Tbh its overrated anyways and not a big deal. A good cope is just to find other things that make u happy as cliche as it sounds. Even if you cant find anything that makes you happy why dont you try to live life to the fullest and go crazy and do some low inhib shit. Like travel to thailand alone, go do some dangerous activities that make u feel alive. Women are overrated. Once you have one, you realise how high maintenance and draining they are unless your chad.

 

[134applesauce456]

Yeah, if I survive the impulsively when I am really alone, I think I have a deadline age at around 20 - if things haven't significantly improved by then I'm ending it.

I really hope things get better for you bhai

although the "it's never over no matter what" mindset is the best to have