this is for those relate to me be prepared to read.

[neuroincelvergent44]

2022 my first “love” it was freshman year i was chubby and had acne mid september there was this girl named janice i eyed her but never made a move since i was shy a few weeks go by and she made a move on me we started talking and we never really did anything besides text i was really nervous to go up to her so she had to do everything in this one class she held my hand and moved it to her thigh i didn’t know what to do or feel so i just let it happen a few days go by nothing really bad happened until i went to the bathroom and this guy with the same first name as me said “are you talking to janice” and i responded with a nod i didnt really think much of it since i was blinded by talking a foid for the first time.After a few days i decided i wanted to get a perm (man i regret ever getting this perm) when i entered school i asked janice and her friend if they wanted to go to the movies since janice’s friend was talking to my best friend i thought it would be a great idea and they both agreed to it after school ended her friend made up an excuse not to go but she told me the truth since i wanted to know janice said to her “i dont wanna be caught being with him” and it truly broke me since that day i decided it was time to change they kept calling me pizza face expecting me not to know but they are the loud stereotypical girls it motivated me to start looksmaxxing i took it serious i started mewing i did everything starve maxxing but i never truly knew how to fix my acne since i couldnt get my hands on accutane yet after a few months of devoting my life to looksmaxxing i looked way better and what do you know janice comes back in my dms saying she misses me i did what any other guy would say to their first “love” i said i missed you too but she ghosted me again after 2 weeks when i got a bad haircut. Parents started getting worried about me since i lost weight so fast and kept doing so i got sent to the doctors to check if anything was wrong with me and what do you know i had a heart problem which meant i couldnt do any type of workout and had to eat 5k calories now it’s may and janice came back because i started looking “healthier” we started talking until october i caught her talking to a guy and i was gonna take my life but my mom caught me and i got sent to the mental hospital for a few days i came back and i couldnt go back to school so i begged and begged my mom if i could do online and she finally agreed.

 

[mohi_100]

I'm not sure exactly why.. my body has always been special

 

[Sayori]

2022 my first “love” it was freshman year i was chubby and had acne mid september there was this girl named janice i eyed her but never made a move since i was shy a few weeks go by and she made a move on me we started talking and we never really did anything besides text i was really nervous to go up to her so she had to do everything in this one class she held my hand and moved it to her thigh i didn’t know what to do or feel so i just let it happen a few days go by nothing really bad happened until i went to the bathroom and this guy with the same first name as me said “are you talking to janice” and i responded with a nod i didnt really think much of it since i was blinded by talking a foid for the first time.After a few days i decided i wanted to get a perm (man i regret ever getting this perm) when i entered school i asked janice and her friend if they wanted to go to the movies since janice’s friend was talking to my best friend i thought it would be a great idea and they both agreed to it after school ended her friend made up an excuse not to go but she told me the truth since i wanted to know janice said to her “i dont wanna be caught being with him” and it truly broke me since that day i decided it was time to change they kept calling me pizza face expecting me not to know but they are the loud stereotypical girls it motivated me to start looksmaxxing i took it serious i started mewing i did everything starve maxxing but i never truly knew how to fix my acne since i couldnt get my hands on accutane yet after a few months of devoting my life to looksmaxxing i looked way better and what do you know janice comes back in my dms saying she misses me i did what any other guy would say to their first “love” i said i missed you too but she ghosted me again after 2 weeks when i got a bad haircut. Parents started getting worried about me since i lost weight so fast and kept doing so i got sent to the doctors to check if anything was wrong with me and what do you know i had a heart problem which meant i couldnt do any type of workout and had to eat 5k calories now it’s may and janice came back because i started looking “healthier” we started talking until october i caught her talking to a guy and i was gonna take my life but my mom caught me and i got sent to the mental hospital for a few days i came back and i couldnt go back to school so i begged and begged my mom if i could do online and she finally agreed.

 

[pjmm]

Damn

 

[Clerpilite]

2022 my first “love” it was freshman year i was chubby and had acne mid september there was this girl named janice i eyed her but never made a move since i was shy a few weeks go by and she made a move on me we started talking and we never really did anything besides text i was really nervous to go up to her so she had to do everything in this one class she held my hand and moved it to her thigh i didn’t know what to do or feel so i just let it happen a few days go by nothing really bad happened until i went to the bathroom and this guy with the same first name as me said “are you talking to janice” and i responded with a nod i didnt really think much of it since i was blinded by talking a foid for the first time.After a few days i decided i wanted to get a perm (man i regret ever getting this perm) when i entered school i asked janice and her friend if they wanted to go to the movies since janice’s friend was talking to my best friend i thought it would be a great idea and they both agreed to it after school ended her friend made up an excuse not to go but she told me the truth since i wanted to know janice said to her “i dont wanna be caught being with him” and it truly broke me since that day i decided it was time to change they kept calling me pizza face expecting me not to know but they are the loud stereotypical girls it motivated me to start looksmaxxing i took it serious i started mewing i did everything starve maxxing but i never truly knew how to fix my acne since i couldnt get my hands on accutane yet after a few months of devoting my life to looksmaxxing i looked way better and what do you know janice comes back in my dms saying she misses me i did what any other guy would say to their first “love” i said i missed you too but she ghosted me again after 2 weeks when i got a bad haircut. Parents started getting worried about me since i lost weight so fast and kept doing so i got sent to the doctors to check if anything was wrong with me and what do you know i had a heart problem which meant i couldnt do any type of workout and had to eat 5k calories now it’s may and janice came back because i started looking “healthier” we started talking until october i caught her talking to a guy and i was gonna take my life but my mom caught me and i got sent to the mental hospital for a few days i came back and i couldnt go back to school so i begged and begged my mom if i could do online and she finally agreed.

mannn i thought youd do something bad to her but she is your first "love"

 

[neuroincelvergent44]

mannn i thought youd do something bad to her but she is your first "love"

nah man she ruined my perspective on love aswell i get bored of women who actually like me it’s like i need something to chase and look better for rather then just communicate and be the same yk

 

[Clerpilite]

nah man she ruined my perspective on love aswell i get bored of women who actually like me it’s like i need something to chase and look better for rather then just communicate and be the same yk

ah i hear you man idk wat to say but i hope you find interest and happiness in someone tht luvs u hope you acsend bhai

 

[VrillFatNoob24]

2022 my first “love” it was freshman year i was chubby and had acne mid september there was this girl named janice i eyed her but never made a move since i was shy a few weeks go by and she made a move on me we started talking and we never really did anything besides text i was really nervous to go up to her so she had to do everything in this one class she held my hand and moved it to her thigh i didn’t know what to do or feel so i just let it happen a few days go by nothing really bad happened until i went to the bathroom and this guy with the same first name as me said “are you talking to janice” and i responded with a nod i didnt really think much of it since i was blinded by talking a foid for the first time.After a few days i decided i wanted to get a perm (man i regret ever getting this perm) when i entered school i asked janice and her friend if they wanted to go to the movies since janice’s friend was talking to my best friend i thought it would be a great idea and they both agreed to it after school ended her friend made up an excuse not to go but she told me the truth since i wanted to know janice said to her “i dont wanna be caught being with him” and it truly broke me since that day i decided it was time to change they kept calling me pizza face expecting me not to know but they are the loud stereotypical girls it motivated me to start looksmaxxing i took it serious i started mewing i did everything starve maxxing but i never truly knew how to fix my acne since i couldnt get my hands on accutane yet after a few months of devoting my life to looksmaxxing i looked way better and what do you know janice comes back in my dms saying she misses me i did what any other guy would say to their first “love” i said i missed you too but she ghosted me again after 2 weeks when i got a bad haircut. Parents started getting worried about me since i lost weight so fast and kept doing so i got sent to the doctors to check if anything was wrong with me and what do you know i had a heart problem which meant i couldnt do any type of workout and had to eat 5k calories now it’s may and janice came back because i started looking “healthier” we started talking until october i caught her talking to a guy and i was gonna take my life but my mom caught me and i got sent to the mental hospital for a few days i came back and i couldnt go back to school so i begged and begged my mom if i could do online and she finally agreed.

dnr

 

[neuroincelvergent44]

dnr

responding

 

[Sacrifice]

holy shit, I hope you get better man. I hope your not as fixated on your looks as you were before, obviously improving yourself is great and all but to the extent of having heart problems is insane. And from what I'm reading you seem to be a good looking guy as is, mainly because of that retard foid that kept going back to you.

Hope you get better

 

[neuroincelvergent44]

holy shit, I hope you get better man. I hope your not as fixated on your looks as you were before, obviously improving yourself is great and all but to the extent of having heart problems is insane. And from what I'm reading you seem to be a good looking guy as is, mainly because of that retard foid that kept going back to you.

Hope you get better

thanks man i have gotten better but im deeply fixated on my looks