This is my darkest hour

[Society hates me]

I’ve had an extremely traumatizing past few months. My autistic brain cannot handle the stress of even the most menial of jobs. Im going to have a black mark on my record which I’ll have to disclose on resumes and job applications in the future. I was so stressed out and overworked at my job that I simply slipped up and forgot to do something and the whole thing fell apart.

My life is over. I’m 25 and life had barely begun. But now it’s over.

From this day forward I will become a NEET. I will disappear from society. Maybe this was always supposed to happen. Maybe I was never meant to earn money or be independent. But I cannot handle the stress of having someone constantly evaluating me and having a structured HR department constantly watching every single move I make.

It’s so weird…. I remember being a young naive 13 year old kid. I thought that I would live a normal life. Work a 9 to 5 job and live in a nice neighborhood. I thought I would have a wife and children who love me.

But now it’s all over. I never intended for any of this to happen.

Yes I’ve considered suicide. But when I actually think about it, I don’t think I would have the strength to actually pull the trigger and blow my head off.

I’m not sure what to do now. I want to just live in a cabin in the woods away from everything and everyone. But even cabins in the woods cost money. And I can’t earn money anymore. So I’ll become a NEET and live with my parents forever.

 

[Xaus]

I’ve had an extremely traumatizing past few months. My autistic brain cannot handle the stress of even the most menial of jobs. Im going to have a black mark on my record which I’ll have to disclose on resumes and job applications in the future. I was so stressed out and overworked at my job that I simply slipped up and forgot to do something and the whole thing fell apart.

My life is over. I’m 25 and life had barely begun. But now it’s over.

From this day forward I will become a NEET. I will disappear from society. Maybe this was always supposed to happen. Maybe I was never meant to earn money or be independent. But I cannot handle the stress of having someone constantly evaluating me and having a structured HR department constantly watching every single move I make.

It’s so weird…. I remember being a young naive 13 year old kid. I thought that I would live a normal life. Work a 9 to 5 job and live in a nice neighborhood. I thought I would have a wife and children who love me.

But now it’s all over. I never intended for any of this to happen.

Yes I’ve considered suicide. But when I actually think about it, I don’t think I would have the strength to actually pull the trigger and blow my head off.

I’m not sure what to do now. I want to just live in a cabin in the woods away from everything and everyone. But even cabins in the woods cost money. And I can’t earn money anymore. So I’ll become a NEET and live with my parents forever.

Damn. Hope everything works out for you

 

[imabetanumale]

go to a psychiatrist

 

[imabetanumale]

get prescribed meds, dont go neet, its hard to return once you are rotting

 

[Society hates me]

get prescribed meds, dont go neet, its hard to return once you are rotting

I live in freedom land. I don’t have the money to get on pills for the rest of my life. I would literally be spending thousands of dollars a month on medication.

 

[imabetanumale]

I live in freedom land. I don’t have the money to get on pills for the rest of my life. I would literally be spending thousands of dollars a month on medication.

maybe benzodiazepines, dont take them everyday, just when you are too stressed to keep going, but dont become a NEET, im one but im still a teeanger and skipped school for 2 years, dont isolate yourself like me, when alone you have the worst thoughts,maybe rest for some time and take pills

 

[Nimrod]

im having a similiar experience starting hs. i wittness the bp all time, foids constantly talking about if their friends have boyfriends and guys they're talking about, literally nothing else it's so brutal because no good looking girl is seeking me and all these fucks want is to get fucked by chad. thankfully 90% of young guys nowadays are also incels JFL so i dont really feel left out but it's still brutal

 

[Society hates me]

im having a similiar experience starting hs. i wittness the bp all time, foids constantly talking about if their friends have boyfriends and guys they're talking about, literally nothing else it's so brutal because no good looking girl is seeking me and all these fucks want is to get fucked by chad. thankfully 90% of young guys nowadays are also incels JFL so i dont really feel left out but it's still brutal

You have so much more time bro. You’re ten years younger than me. Just find something you want to study in college and stick with it.

 

[fluxx]

do something about this, you dont have to become a neet
do something at least

 

[Society hates me]

do something about this, you dont have to become a neet
do something at least

What do I do