this life is a joke

[valentine]

people who say they want to die or actually rope know for a fact people will be hurt by it. a lot of the time they do it to prove something to this world.
the most brutal realization ive had is that i have no one to prove anything to. i only have myself, and i dont want to find out what happens after it. im just killing time day by day, without anything to look forward to. its been years since i was excited for anything. i was supposed to die a while ago. now im just waiting for my time stuck forever in this body i dont like. life is a joke, and if god exists, i think he enjoys watching me suffer and i cant respect that.

 

[valentine]

and why would i even ascend if im gonna die anyway

 

[Sceptical]

 

[valentine]

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just proves my point honestly, welcome to my ignore list

 

[Sceptical]

just proves my point honestly, welcome to my ignore list

 

[Alias!]

people who say they want to die or actually rope know for a fact people will be hurt by it. a lot of the time they do it to prove something to this world.
the most brutal realization ive had is that i have no one to prove anything to. i only have myself, and i dont want to find out what happens after it. im just killing time day by day, without anything to look forward to. its been years since i was excited for anything. i was supposed to die a while ago. now im just waiting for my time stuck forever in this body i dont like. life is a joke, and if god exists, i think he enjoys watching me suffer and i cant respect that.

 

[valentine]

he was a sexhaver, deserved

 

[brownmutt42]

You never know when you’ll die, could be years, could also be tomorrow

 

[Alias!]

he was a sexhaver, deserved

L last words

 

[valentine]

You never know when you’ll die, could be years, could also be tomorrow

most likely soon and thats ok

 

[first snow]

honestly same. my state often fluctuates between being optimistic about future/happy and feeling like there's nothing to look forward to

 

[valentine]

honestly same. my state often fluctuates between being optimistic about future/happy and feeling like there's nothing to look forward to

it hurts most when you realize youre never truly happy but just delusional a lot of the time

 

[first snow]

delusional

not really i don't think so, if we had more positive feedback loops we wouldn't think that

in the moment of being genuinely happy i just can't force myself in this doomer mindset no matter how much i try to (these are rare though, sadly)

 

[valentine]

not really i don't think so, if we had more positive feedback loops we wouldn't think that

in the moment of being genuinely happy i just can't force myself in this doomer mindset no matter how much i try to (these are rare though, sadly)

havent felt happy in years

 

[first snow]

havent felt happy in years

that sucks man. your best bet is getting lucky and finding friends to hang out with but that's super small odds

 

[valentine]

finding friends to hang out with

could talk about how its not an option for me and never works out but that would be cringe and i dont feel like oversharing.
but yes, its over. i hope things will atleast go well for you

 

[first snow]

could talk about how its not an option for me and never works out

those probably weren't real friends
real friends that are into same shit have the same sense of humor are like gems, you either find them or not

 

[valentine]

those probably weren't real friends
real friends that are into same shit have the same sense of humor are like gems, you either find them or not

i always end up being disrespected, my birthday is next week, i will be spending it on org.

 

[first snow]

i always end up being disrespected, my birthday is next week, i will be spending it on org.

that's shitty, i'm sorry

 

[valentine]

that's shitty, i'm sorry

thats ok