mirinnnasal
𝚊𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚑ē𝚝𝚒𝚔𝚘𝚜
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I’m 17, and I’ve been doing online school since freshman year because my school environment genuinely wasn’t good for me mentally. I wouldn’t even call it straight-up bullying, but I had a terrible friend group where everyone was constantly trying to embarrass each other for attention. It was always stuff like pantsing each other, making disrespectful jokes, trying to clown somebody in front of girls, acting fake for validation, all that immature stuff. Being around that environment every day honestly changed the way I saw school and people in general. It got exhausting constantly feeling like you had to defend your dignity or act a certain way just to fit in.
I’m a junior right now with around a 3.6 GPA, so on paper I look like I’m doing OK academically, but I honestly feel disconnected from actually learning. Ever since switching to online school, I feel like my ability to focus, retain information, and apply knowledge the right way has gotten weaker over time. And if I’m being real, I’ve abused AI a lot too. At first it felt helpful and efficient, but now I’m noticing that I rely on it too much instead of fully thinking through problems myself, especially when it comes to writing, studying, and critical thinking. I can complete assignments, but sometimes it feels like I’m not genuinely sharpening my mind the way I should be at this age.
That’s why SAT and ACT scores stress me out so much. I feel like those tests expose whether you actually understand concepts independently without shortcuts. I know colleges look at GPA, extracurriculars, essays, and all that, and realistically I think I could still get accepted into some solid schools. But deep down I feel like building real academic discipline and getting a strong SAT score is FUCKING foundational, not just for college admissions but for proving to myself that I can still learn and perform at a high level without depending on AI or coasting through online classes.
My parents are pretty high iq and money-maxed, so i can't fuck shit up or I'll look like an absolute disgrace and failure.
I’m a junior right now with around a 3.6 GPA, so on paper I look like I’m doing OK academically, but I honestly feel disconnected from actually learning. Ever since switching to online school, I feel like my ability to focus, retain information, and apply knowledge the right way has gotten weaker over time. And if I’m being real, I’ve abused AI a lot too. At first it felt helpful and efficient, but now I’m noticing that I rely on it too much instead of fully thinking through problems myself, especially when it comes to writing, studying, and critical thinking. I can complete assignments, but sometimes it feels like I’m not genuinely sharpening my mind the way I should be at this age.
That’s why SAT and ACT scores stress me out so much. I feel like those tests expose whether you actually understand concepts independently without shortcuts. I know colleges look at GPA, extracurriculars, essays, and all that, and realistically I think I could still get accepted into some solid schools. But deep down I feel like building real academic discipline and getting a strong SAT score is FUCKING foundational, not just for college admissions but for proving to myself that I can still learn and perform at a high level without depending on AI or coasting through online classes.
My parents are pretty high iq and money-maxed, so i can't fuck shit up or I'll look like an absolute disgrace and failure.
