This world isn't made for me

[rraymond]

No matter how hard I try to make things go my way something always comes back and screws me over and turns everything to shit. Genetics are everything. If I looked better and didn't have a horse philtrum, if I had less UEE, If I was lovable and not just a backup friend my life would have meaning. My family life is shit, my school life is shit, my mental health is shit, everything that possibly could go wrong has gone wrong. I just can't take this retarded shit anymore. Been thinking about roping in a few weeks and I know nothing ever happens and it all won't matter in the end but I'm just going crazy. This world isn't made for someone as ND as me. Being ND allows me to see the world differently which is good but it has opened my eyes and shown me how cruel and unforgivable my life truly is. No matter how hard I try to look better, fit in, mask my autism. It all doesn't matter just as nothing matters and the end of the day I'll be dead before 25. I just want to take a break a from all of this and be loveable. I am just a orbiter deep down floating around trying to fit in, ending up knowing everyone but not having a true friend to my name. I try to cope with the gym and pretending like I'm "him" but deep down I know I'll never be shit. I know thats a negative feedback loop but why does it matter even. I will never be valued or truly loved because of how disgusting I am. I am considered somewhat good looking but every time I look into that mirror and see that reflection I just want to rope. If there are any fuckin glowies or feds from my school reading this please fuck off JFL. Anyways I hope life can get better for me but I know I try to convince myself I'm waiting for the ""one" my true soulmate but I'll probably die a virgin at 25 or younger if things keep going down this path. I've tried turning around my life but I can't take this shit anymore..........

yeah i understand and relate bro, im here for u man ur a great user awesome guy love u bhai

 

[Whiteboard7]

yeah i understand and relate bro, im here for u man ur a great user awesome guy love u bhai

Love U bhai. I'm trying to move. Love it boss

 

[rraymond]

Love U bhai. I'm trying to move. Love it boss

Gl bro

 

[droidmaxxing]

No matter how hard I try to make things go my way something always comes back and screws me over and turns everything to shit. Genetics are everything. If I looked better and didn't have a horse philtrum, if I had less UEE, If I was lovable and not just a backup friend my life would have meaning. My family life is shit, my school life is shit, my mental health is shit, everything that possibly could go wrong has gone wrong. I just can't take this retarded shit anymore. Been thinking about roping in a few weeks and I know nothing ever happens and it all won't matter in the end but I'm just going crazy. This world isn't made for someone as ND as me. Being ND allows me to see the world differently which is good but it has opened my eyes and shown me how cruel and unforgivable my life truly is. No matter how hard I try to look better, fit in, mask my autism. It all doesn't matter just as nothing matters and the end of the day I'll be dead before 25. I just want to take a break a from all of this and be loveable. I am just a orbiter deep down floating around trying to fit in, ending up knowing everyone but not having a true friend to my name. I try to cope with the gym and pretending like I'm "him" but deep down I know I'll never be shit. I know thats a negative feedback loop but why does it matter even. I will never be valued or truly loved because of how disgusting I am. I am considered somewhat good looking but every time I look into that mirror and see that reflection I just want to rope. If there are any fuckin glowies or feds from my school reading this please fuck off JFL. Anyways I hope life can get better for me but I know I try to convince myself I'm waiting for the ""one" my true soulmate but I'll probably die a virgin at 25 or younger if things keep going down this path. I've tried turning around my life but I can't take this shit anymore..........

Relatable man but I'm still trying
Pls don't rope bro

 

[Whiteboard7]

Relatable man but I'm still trying
Pls don't rope bro

I won't rope doing better rn. Thanks for replying

 

[Whiteboard7]

Gl bro

Love U brah. Thanks

 

[irrumator praetor]

Being ND allows me to see the world differently which is good

cope because NTs see more, ND is a disability. NTs simply don't mention that kinda stuff as it isn't socially acceptable. But they see more than NDs

 

[Whiteboard7]

cope because NTs see more, ND is a disability. NTs simply don't mention that kinda stuff as it isn't socially acceptable. But they see more than NDs

Its JovER at this point

 

[droidmaxxing]

I won't rope doing better rn. Thanks for replying

Glad to know that brother
I hope you continue to do better each day brah

 

[Whiteboard7]

Glad to know that brother
I hope you continue to do better each day brah

Thanks bhai