thoughts

[toxfab]

I'm not emotionless. People grow up to feel as if they are bipolar throughout their adolescents due to their very short duration of emotions, one second they feel rage and the other they are in a moment of grief and quiet, that is simply being suppressed. Throughout my upbringings and childhood I've been so suppressed of my feelings that all I feel is rage, I want to rage and I want to do something about it. People live to think they are bipolar, and maybe they are, but most of the time they are suppressed of all the years of the rage. My experience with this feeling of nothingness, it sounds very edgy but I really font feel anything, I don't know how to express myself due to this lack of knowledge on how to express this suppressed, the times I do feel anger and sadness is either when I get extremely overwhelmed or when laying in bed at night, forcing myself to think about my life, but that only last so long, when the anger is over and the consequences come set, I immediately don't a single thing.