tired of this shit

[fallendown]

thinking back from where i am now, i know all the wrong course of actions with my life and i wish this was a fucking dream.

lost my teenager years because the world had a fucking lockdown, highschool years passed so fuckin quickly and now i am 18 in the body of a twink. i used to hunger myself to see if i could look better but guess what -- i didnt know that bones were everything.

i graduated and now the only thing i can think of doing are multiple surgeries and roids. i always knew that looks were important in all my life and i could see why but still had hope that it wasnt "the thing", i though being a man or whatever it means was the most important thing to be. but when that bitch left me for our "friend" something shifted.

sometimes i think i am on the only "timeline" where things went wrong.

i feel disgusted when i see people's faces, i can see their flaws and visualize their ideal version, even when i myself cant correct my own flaws, and thats why the most disgust i feel is when i look to my image and be shocked by reality.

if i dont figure this shit out by 25 im lwk painting the walls red. i hope god doesnt exist cause if he does hes a bitch.

thank you for reading

 

[dnrwarrior11]

thank you for reading

Well I didn’t

 

[topology]

TLDR: OP is a moron who starved himself and is sad he looks like a twink now. He claims he's going to kill himself if nothing improves by 25.

 

[MouthBreathingElite]

thinking back from where i am now, i know all the wrong course of actions with my life and i wish this was a fucking dream.

lost my teenager years because the world had a fucking lockdown, highschool years passed so fuckin quickly and now i am 18 in the body of a twink. i used to hunger myself to see if i could look better but guess what -- i didnt know that bones were everything.

i graduated and now the only thing i can think of doing are multiple surgeries and roids. i always knew that looks were important in all my life and i could see why but still had hope that it wasnt "the thing", i though being a man or whatever it means was the most important thing to be. but when that bitch left me for our "friend" something shifted.

sometimes i think i am on the only "timeline" where things went wrong.

i feel disgusted when i see people's faces, i can see their flaws and visualize their ideal version, even when i myself cant correct my own flaws, and thats why the most disgust i feel is when i look to my image and be shocked by reality.

if i dont figure this shit out by 25 im lwk painting the walls red. i hope god doesnt exist cause if he does hes a bitch.

thank you for reading

Unless you were starving for months with low bf% you didnt lose bones

 

[fallendown]

Unless you were starving for months with low bf% you didnt lose bones

i had 2 meals a day from 13-17. and even if i did different i dont think it would change the outcome that much