To actual hikkikomori

[fr0st]

If you are a real hikkikomori and not a larping loser then let me say something. for about 6-7 years (fuck off) i was a shut in complete recluse. when i got into middle school i immediately started home-school and shut myself off from the outside world. there would be stretches of time where i would not leave my house for months getting to the point where even leaving my room was hard. i pissed in bottles ill admit it i was scared of leaving my room for the bathroom. im sure some users remember this time as i was posting near the end of it until i beaten and yelled at by my uncle and forced into a job. if you are a user trying to escape then i have one word of advice. You cannot do it alone its impossible i was only able to change due to force. granted i hate my uncle and wish nothing but the worst for him and my life is misery but you are all not me i only want the best for you.

 

[fr0st]

If you are a real hikkikomori and not a larping loser then let me say something. for about 6-7 years (fuck off) i was a shut in complete recluse. when i got into middle school i immediately started home-school and shut myself off from the outside world. there would be stretches of time where i would not leave my house for months getting to the point where even leaving my room was hard. i pissed in bottles ill admit it i was scared of leaving my room for the bathroom. im sure some users remember this time as i was posting near the end of it until i beaten and yelled at by my uncle and forced into a job. if you are a user trying to escape then i have one word of advice. You cannot do it alone its impossible i was only able to change due to force. granted i hate my uncle and wish nothing but the worst for him and my life is misery but you are all not me i only want the best for you.

this thread is made in a haze of attempted overdose by adderall

 

[Gengar]

I was a genuine hikikomori. I had periods where I didn’t leave the house for weeks/months.

 

[fr0st]

this thread is made in a haze of attempted overdose by adderall

i fucking hate the outside world i cant do this anymore tbh

 

[fr0st]

I was a genuine hikikomori. I had periods where I didn’t leave the house for weeks/months.

its not the isolation that hurt it was the look of my grandparents faces when they saw me and the cracks in their voice when they left food outside my door

 

[fr0st]

If you are a real hikkikomori and not a larping loser then let me say something. for about 6-7 years (fuck off) i was a shut in complete recluse. when i got into middle school i immediately started home-school and shut myself off from the outside world. there would be stretches of time where i would not leave my house for months getting to the point where even leaving my room was hard. i pissed in bottles ill admit it i was scared of leaving my room for the bathroom. im sure some users remember this time as i was posting near the end of it until i beaten and yelled at by my uncle and forced into a job. if you are a user trying to escape then i have one word of advice. You cannot do it alone its impossible i was only able to change due to force. granted i hate my uncle and wish nothing but the worst for him and my life is misery but you are all not me i only want the best for you.

Sorry guys holidays arent easy for me i'll stop posting for the day hopefully i dont die or need to go to the ER i dont wanna go back to the psych ward

 

[Gengar]

its not the isolation that hurt it was the look of my grandparents faces when they saw me and the cracks in their voice when they left food outside my door

Yes, I can relate to that as well (with being alone not being the worst part).

 

[fr0st]

Yes, I can relate to that as well (with being alone not being the worst part).

People romanticizing that life always sickens me because they never felt that feeling of complete and utter hopelessness and disappointment. you eventually get numb to it after hearing the words "please we just want you to be happy" over and over again eventually you just grow to resent them and everyone around you.

 

[childishkillah]

If you are a real hikkikomori and not a larping loser then let me say something. for about 6-7 years (fuck off) i was a shut in complete recluse. when i got into middle school i immediately started home-school and shut myself off from the outside world. there would be stretches of time where i would not leave my house for months getting to the point where even leaving my room was hard. i pissed in bottles ill admit it i was scared of leaving my room for the bathroom. im sure some users remember this time as i was posting near the end of it until i beaten and yelled at by my uncle and forced into a job. if you are a user trying to escape then i have one word of advice. You cannot do it alone its impossible i was only able to change due to force. granted i hate my uncle and wish nothing but the worst for him and my life is misery but you are all not me i only want the best for you.

Bro u are not Crustanon

 

[romanstock]

Hikkikomori can make the real world liveable by practicing butsukari otoko.

 

[Gengar]

People romanticizing that life always sickens me because they never felt that feeling of complete and utter hopelessness and disappointment. you eventually get numb to it after hearing the words "please we just want you to be happy" over and over again eventually you just grow to resent them and everyone around you.

Tell me about it. I know what it’s like. I think most people would go crazy if they had to live like we had to live.

 

[Gengar]

Hikkikomori can make the real world liveable by practicing butsukari otoko.

Why does this sound like an illegal violent game?

 

[fr0st]

Bro u are not Crustanon

I hate that faggot tbh he's such an attention seeker

 

[fr0st]

Hikkikomori can make the real world liveable by practicing butsukari otoko.

I literally freak out at the slightest touch from another human i wouldnt be able to do that

 

[fr0st]

Tell me about it. I know what it’s like. I think most people would go crazy if they had to live like we had to live.

People dont understand that hikkikomori doesnt mean not going outside voluntarily and liking anime being a hikkikomori is a debilitating case of agoraphobia and aspd. i talked so little that sometimes my voice wouldnt even be able to force a word out because my vocal cords didnt know how to sound out words i would literally throw up when i stood up for too long my diet was just instant ramen and lukewarm water i got from tap out of a unwashed water container. people dont understand the reality of the lifestyle my entire existance and developmental years was spent in a singular secluded room sat down on a desk. my life was literally completely and utterly online.

 

[Gengar]

People dont understand that hikkikomori doesnt mean not going outside voluntarily and liking anime being a hikkikomori is a debilitating case of agoraphobia and aspd. i talked so little that sometimes my voice wouldnt even be able to force a word out because my vocal cords didnt know how to sound out words i would literally throw up when i stood up for too long my diet was just instant ramen and lukewarm water i got from tap out of a unwashed water container. people dont understand the reality of the lifestyle my entire existance and developmental years was spent in a singular secluded room sat down on a desk. my life was literally completely and utterly online.

It’s a problematic lifestyle, for sure. It’s not something that should be idolized or romanticized. There’s nothing good that comes from this. My social skills have gotten nuked as a result of so much rotting/NEETing and having these HM periods.

 

[The Grinch]

I was a genuine hikikomori. I had periods where I didn’t leave the house for weeks/months.

Damn. Was it a burnout?

 

[fr0st]

It’s a problematic lifestyle, for sure. It’s not something that should be idolized or romanticized. There’s nothing good that comes from this. My social skills have gotten nuked as a result of so much rotting/NEETing and having these HM periods.

The issue is that i will always want to go back. its impossible to not miss it i spent half of my life being that way. i hate it i will never be able to live normally i can only pretend to.

 

[fr0st]

Damn. Was it a burnout?

No i just had a very bad case of agoraphobia. like i said my entire developmental years were spent being a shut in i had no idea what the outside world was like beyond what i saw on a screen. it may also be that i was bullied pretty heavily in elementary school and various family and parental issues that i wont whine about.

 

[Gengar]

The issue is that i will always want to go back. its impossible to not miss it i spent half of my life being that way. i hate it i will never be able to live normally i can only pretend to.

That’s why I kept NEETing for as long as I did. I was looking for excuses to go back to it. And I had resources back then, so it was possible. Now I no longer have the resources, I realize I’ve wasted enough time and I should do something with my life. So, I decided to go back into university and that’s what I’m doing now. I still consider myself a NEET since I have a lot of time off, but I will be looking for a new job if I can find anything that suits me. You should do the same.

 

[fr0st]

That’s why I kept NEETing for as long as I did. I was looking for excuses to go back to it. And I had resources back then, so it was possible. Now I no longer have the resources, I realize I’ve wasted enough time and I should do something with my life. So, I decided to go back into university and that’s what I’m doing now. I still consider myself a NEET since I have a lot of time off, but I will be looking for a new job if I can find anything that suits me. You should do the same.

I have a job i was beaten and kicked out by my uncle so i had to. but recently i have taken two weeks off work im falling back into my previous state i dont know what to do

 

[The Grinch]

No i just had a very bad case of agoraphobia. like i said my entire developmental years were spent being a shut in i had no idea what the outside world was like beyond what i saw on a screen. it may also be that i was bullied pretty heavily in elementary school and various family and parental issues that i wont whine about.

Damn that’s crazy, but I was actually asking gengar

 

[fr0st]

No i just had a very bad case of agoraphobia. like i said my entire developmental years were spent being a shut in i had no idea what the outside world was like beyond what i saw on a screen. it may also be that i was bullied pretty heavily in elementary school and various family and parental issues that i wont whine about.

its so bad that i dont even know where everything is in my area. i have zero knowledge of the town i was born in nor do i know anybody.

 

[Gengar]

I have a job i was beaten and kicked out by my uncle so i had to. but recently i have taken two weeks off work im falling back into my previous state i dont know what to do

Good to hear you have a job now. You’re getting a taste of that lifestyle again, so it seems appealing now but snap out of it. This is not the life you want. You and I know this the most.

 

[fr0st]

Damn that’s crazy, but I was actually asking gengar

oh im sorry lol ignore my message i didnt see that my eyes are a bit hazey from the adderall i took

 

[Gengar]

Damn that’s crazy, but I was actually asking gengar

Oh you asked me something?

 

[Gengar]

Damn. Was it a burnout?

No, it wasn’t - I was just NEETing. But I was also dealing with (extreme) depression. Sometimes I just wanted to go back into the lifestyle simply because I hated life and having to be a part of it. So, I wanted to do nothing but lay in bed all day or just not leave the house.

 

[The Grinch]

No i just had a very bad case of agoraphobia. like i said my entire developmental years were spent being a shut in i had no idea what the outside world was like beyond what i saw on a screen. it may also be that i was bullied pretty heavily in elementary school and various family and parental issues that i wont whine about.

I was bullied as a kid too. It was so bad i still feel the PTSD after 10 years, it also turned me into an alcoholic

 

[fr0st]

Good to hear you have a job now. You’re getting a taste of that lifestyle again, so it seems appealing now but snap out of it. This is not the life you want. You and I know this the most.

Im gonna go force myself out for a walk tomorrow i need to get out.

Thanks gengy you're always here when im at my worst you're still my favorite mod keep up the good work brocel

 

[fr0st]

I was bullied as a kid too. It was so bad i still feel the PTSD after 10 years, it also turned me into an alcoholic

the worst part is that my bullies are all in good colleges living happy lives while im stuck being the failure. thats real life though unfortunately bullies win and losers fall.

 

[Gengar]

Im gonna go force myself out for a walk tomorrow i need to get out.

Thanks gengy you're always here when im at my worst you're still my favorite mod keep up the good work brocel

Glad I could be here for you. and thanks for the nice words.

My PMs are always open for you, even if I may not always respond so quickly. Just gotta bump that shit a few times sometimes.

 

[The Grinch]

the worst part is that my bullies are all in good colleges living happy lives while im stuck being the failure. thats real life though unfortunately bullies win and losers fall.

In my case they all live a miserable life actually, none of them became successful in life

 

[Lefty Rankin]

If you are a real hikkikomori and not a larping loser then let me say something. for about 6-7 years (fuck off) i was a shut in complete recluse. when i got into middle school i immediately started home-school and shut myself off from the outside world. there would be stretches of time where i would not leave my house for months getting to the point where even leaving my room was hard. i pissed in bottles ill admit it i was scared of leaving my room for the bathroom. im sure some users remember this time as i was posting near the end of it until i beaten and yelled at by my uncle and forced into a job. if you are a user trying to escape then i have one word of advice. You cannot do it alone its impossible i was only able to change due to force. granted i hate my uncle and wish nothing but the worst for him and my life is misery but you are all not me i only want the best for you.

If an uncle of mine ever beat me I'd kill him. I would beat his fucking head in with a hammer, out of principle. Now my father beat me many times growing up, but that is my father and I'm grateful that he did. I would without a doubt be serving life without parole if he hadn't.

Anyways I had piss bottles. I had an ex girlfriend who accidentally took a mouthful of one of them after accidentally setting her drink right next to it and forgetting which one was her's. It was the same kind of green tea I would always drink. When she took the sip a look of dread immediately came over her face and she started flapping her hands as she ran to my bathroom to spit it out. I've always been pretty lazy and had bottles of old urine placed all over my table surrounding my laptop because I dislike getting up to go to the bathroom. We were watching a movie on my laptop and she wasn't paying attention. A few months later she brought it up saying, "Remember, how I drank your pee?" with a look of genuine pride, lol.

 

[fr0st]

If an uncle of mine ever beat me I'd kill him. I would beat his fucking head in with a hammer, out of principle. Now my father beat me many times growing up, but that is my father and I'm grateful that he did. I would without a doubt be serving life without parole if he hadn't.

Anyways I had piss bottles. I had an ex girlfriend who accidentally took a mouthful of one of them after accidentally setting her drink right next to it and forgetting which one was her's. It was the same kind of green tea I would always drink. When she took the sip a look of dread immediately came over her face and she started flapping her hands as she ran to my bathroom to spit it out. I've always been pretty lazy and had bottles of old urine placed all over my table surrounding my laptop because I dislike getting up to go to the bathroom. We were watching a movie on my laptop and she wasn't paying attention. A few months later she brought it up saying, "Remember, how I drank your pee?" with a look of genuine pride, lol.

I couldnt beat him if i tried. he's a tradesmen works out and is overall a very active person. in contrast i spent pretty much every single day completely sedentary and only ate instant ramen my body was complete mush. i fell and puked a little at one punch and curled up while he kicked me and threw my anime figures.

 

[Onewithmoss]

The issue is that i will always want to go back. its impossible to not miss it i spent half of my life being that way. i hate it i will never be able to live normally i can only pretend to.

Thats been the biggest part for me. I'm much happier now than I was back then since now I workout outside with friends, go hiking, and generally speak to people alot more but I still sometimes have the odd craving to just stay in my room and do nothing or miss back when I used to do that despite how when I was doing that I felt like complete shit and like a failure, which in turn made me not want to leave my room more because I didnt want to give my parents a opportunity to scrutinize me. It was like a negative feedback loop of "Its been too long since I've left my room so they'll judge me once I leave so I'd better not leave" I went around 3 years only leaving my house to take the trash out once every other day and that was entirely it and all the other time I was just at my pc. Honestly it was a very rough time and it always makes me mad seeing people romanticize bedrotting/being a neet.

 

[FiendFiend]

If you are a real hikkikomori and not a larping loser then let me say something. for about 6-7 years (fuck off) i was a shut in complete recluse. when i got into middle school i immediately started home-school and shut myself off from the outside world. there would be stretches of time where i would not leave my house for months getting to the point where even leaving my room was hard. i pissed in bottles ill admit it i was scared of leaving my room for the bathroom. im sure some users remember this time as i was posting near the end of it until i beaten and yelled at by my uncle and forced into a job. if you are a user trying to escape then i have one word of advice. You cannot do it alone its impossible i was only able to change due to force. granted i hate my uncle and wish nothing but the worst for him and my life is misery but you are all not me i only want the best for you.

nigga this is just called being a loser, u can fear social interaction but still fucking shower, talk to family, leave ur room , but just not step outdoors. Nigga this is the difference between actually being ND and or a lazy fuck incel

 

[Lefty Rankin]

I couldnt beat him if i tried. he's a tradesmen works out and is overall a very active person. in contrast i spent pretty much every single day completely sedentary and only ate instant ramen my body was complete mush. i fell and puked a little at one punch and curled up while he kicked me and threw my anime figures.

No, I'm not talking then and there. I would take the beating and then at some later time, could be a week later or could be a year, I would cave his head in from behind with a hammer. If I couldn't kill him I would kill one of his kids.

 

[lafr]

If you are a real hikkikomori and not a larping loser then let me say something. for about 6-7 years (fuck off) i was a shut in complete recluse. when i got into middle school i immediately started home-school and shut myself off from the outside world. there would be stretches of time where i would not leave my house for months getting to the point where even leaving my room was hard. i pissed in bottles ill admit it i was scared of leaving my room for the bathroom. im sure some users remember this time as i was posting near the end of it until i beaten and yelled at by my uncle and forced into a job. if you are a user trying to escape then i have one word of advice. You cannot do it alone its impossible i was only able to change due to force. granted i hate my uncle and wish nothing but the worst for him and my life is misery but you are all not me i only want the best for you.

ye bump

 

[lastofus123]

i fucking hate the outside world i cant do this anymore tbh

brown hands typed this btw

 

[Matthias8272]

its so bad that i dont even know where everything is in my area. i have zero knowledge of the town i was born in nor do i know anybody.

Same I've had a tourist and a disabled person asking what direction the city center is and I couldn't tell them living in the city my whole life