jdofh
190cm;19cm; mtn
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’m writing this because the mental rot is getting too heavy today. This is strictly directed at my fellow MTNs and anyone below that. If you are a Chad or an HTN, just click away. You will never truly understand this specific type of pain.
Lately, the envy is absolutely eating me alive from the inside out. Every single day, seeing guys walk around with flawless forward growth, perfect hunter eyes, and ideal facial harmony feels like a physical stab in the chest. This jealousy destroys me every minute. It’s a constant reminder of my own imperfections. I look in the mirror, and all I see are the flaws preventing me from ever truly living.
To be honest, the only thing keeping me sane is knowing that I’m not at the absolute bottom. I’m incredibly grateful that I’m not sub-5. I genuinely don't know if I would have had the strength to keep going or to keep looksmaxxing if I started from a sub-5 baseline. Props to the guys who do, but I think I would have given up a long time ago(with everything).
How do you guys cope with this consuming envy? How do you accept being just average or below while the top percentage gets everything handed to them on a silver platter? The imperfection is a prison.
im just a sensiitive young man
Lately, the envy is absolutely eating me alive from the inside out. Every single day, seeing guys walk around with flawless forward growth, perfect hunter eyes, and ideal facial harmony feels like a physical stab in the chest. This jealousy destroys me every minute. It’s a constant reminder of my own imperfections. I look in the mirror, and all I see are the flaws preventing me from ever truly living.
To be honest, the only thing keeping me sane is knowing that I’m not at the absolute bottom. I’m incredibly grateful that I’m not sub-5. I genuinely don't know if I would have had the strength to keep going or to keep looksmaxxing if I started from a sub-5 baseline. Props to the guys who do, but I think I would have given up a long time ago(with everything).
How do you guys cope with this consuming envy? How do you accept being just average or below while the top percentage gets everything handed to them on a silver platter? The imperfection is a prison.
im just a sensiitive young man
