Narcissus🥀
Fell from the heavens... Plotting in hell...
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I'm literally on the verge of tears, I've reached the point where I'm holding the urge to bust out laughing at how outrageous this is, just a chain of torture and agony tearing down my soul and eating off my spirits.
I don't know what to say, but the one that scarred my heart the most was when I was bullied by words...
Normally no matter how strong or scary the guy I'd give him a beat down.
But this one was different, he is a good looking and very NT guy, he just likes to shit on other people to make himself look better.
That's why he takes every chance he gets to insult me and make fun of me, to make me look bad.
And that's what happened, he made fun of me and the girls with him started laughing at ME
They raised thier dopamine off of ME
AND IN COLLEGE NARCISSUS IS NOT NARCISSUS, IM NOT WHO I AM THERE...
THE REAL ME WOULD HAVE MADE HIM SWALLOW HIS FUCKING TEETH, BUT THE REAL ME... wasn't there
I stumbled my words, I froze as I felt pain and shame in every cell of my body and I couldn't respond.
I could have kicked his ass, but I didn't.
I was in shock...
Do you know that feeling?? When you are nothing but a hated person to everyone around you??
I didn't choose to be like this, but might as well choose to accept it
I'LL GIVE THEM A REASON TO HATE ME, I SWEAR ON MY MOTHER'S GRAVE THAT I ALWAYS HIT BACK ON THOSE TRASH PEOPLE, THEY PICK ON ME EVEN THOUGH I'VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TO THEM...
Why? What have I done? What am I guilty of?
I just don't understand, why should I go home in tears and shame? What have I done to deserve this?
I always greet people I know, but they look at me with disgust and hatred, if they wish to see me as an enemy then I shall grant them this only wish.
I vow that I will change, I'll become the person people see me as, now I feel like a sheep in a wolf's body, it's time to get into a predator mentality.
I don't know what to say, but the one that scarred my heart the most was when I was bullied by words...
Normally no matter how strong or scary the guy I'd give him a beat down.
But this one was different, he is a good looking and very NT guy, he just likes to shit on other people to make himself look better.
That's why he takes every chance he gets to insult me and make fun of me, to make me look bad.
And that's what happened, he made fun of me and the girls with him started laughing at ME
They raised thier dopamine off of ME
AND IN COLLEGE NARCISSUS IS NOT NARCISSUS, IM NOT WHO I AM THERE...
THE REAL ME WOULD HAVE MADE HIM SWALLOW HIS FUCKING TEETH, BUT THE REAL ME... wasn't there
I stumbled my words, I froze as I felt pain and shame in every cell of my body and I couldn't respond.
I could have kicked his ass, but I didn't.
I was in shock...
Do you know that feeling?? When you are nothing but a hated person to everyone around you??
I didn't choose to be like this, but might as well choose to accept it
I'LL GIVE THEM A REASON TO HATE ME, I SWEAR ON MY MOTHER'S GRAVE THAT I ALWAYS HIT BACK ON THOSE TRASH PEOPLE, THEY PICK ON ME EVEN THOUGH I'VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TO THEM...
Why? What have I done? What am I guilty of?
I just don't understand, why should I go home in tears and shame? What have I done to deserve this?
I always greet people I know, but they look at me with disgust and hatred, if they wish to see me as an enemy then I shall grant them this only wish.
I vow that I will change, I'll become the person people see me as, now I feel like a sheep in a wolf's body, it's time to get into a predator mentality.