Today is the day imma ending it all

[Munshi]

I can't cope anymore. I can't cope. I'm failing everything in life. I can't cope, I just rot. How did I get this shit in life. I'm crying daily, how. How. Life is so brutal.

 

[Deleted member 29796]

How old are you?

 

[Munshi]

How old are you?

I'm 14

 

[Deleted member 29796]

I'm 14

Yeah, offing yourself would be peak clown shit, you just don't have the reasoning development to see it yet. Every single time I was about to kill myself, and sometimes I got really close, I realized months down the line how stupid it was. I say, get away from this place, inform your parents of your troubled thoughts, get professional help, and start making the right steps so that when you reach adulthood, you will be well adjusted and have proper control of your life.

Dead serious, I think my first attempt was at 15, if I remember correctly, just didn't think I had much to live for. And I'm not one of those "it gets better" clowns, it's just, if you aren't killing yourself over something major like 24/7 chronic pain, it's usually dumb as hell. Just imagine being 20+ one day, and your life is much better than now because you have proper control of it, and you looking back on how fucking stupid you were today, that's where I ended up most times.

 

[Lebgfinal]

I can't cope anymore. I can't cope. I'm failing everything in life. I can't cope, I just rot. How did I get this shit in life. I'm crying daily, how. How. Life is so brutal.

stfu larper i hope you really kill yourself

 

[Deleted member 28904]

Larping as a suicidal 14 year old prettyboy from the US, while in reality you are a construction worker in Dhaka.

 

[Munshi]

Larping as a suicidal 14 year old prettyboy from the US, while in reality you are a construction worker in Dhaka.

And you advocate suicide bombings to minors. Hmmmm

 

[Deleted member 28904]

And you advocate suicide bombings to minors. Hmmmm

What are you talking about.

 

[actual9cmjawslayer]

Another rope thread that wont result in a rope

 

[Niggerian_Prince420]

Well good luck then, hope it will hurt a lot

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

Only rope if ur khhv at 21 after having thoroughly leanmaxxed after adequately building enough muscle to do it without looking like shit.

If you are still hopeless after that you never stood a chance.

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

Well good luck then, hope it will hurt a lot

Jesus nigga

 

[Niggerian_Prince420]

Jesus nigga

What? That was a really nice farewell blessing

 

[horsefacin]

Yeah, offing yourself would be peak clown shit, you just don't have the reasoning development to see it yet. Every single time I was about to kill myself, and sometimes I got really close, I realized months down the line how stupid it was. I say, get away from this place, inform your parents of your troubled thoughts, get professional help, and start making the right steps so that when you reach adulthood, you will be well adjusted and have proper control of your life.

Dead serious, I think my first attempt was at 15, if I remember correctly, just didn't think I had much to live for. And I'm not one of those "it gets better" clowns, it's just, if you aren't killing yourself over something major like 24/7 chronic pain, it's usually dumb as hell. Just imagine being 20+ one day, and your life is much better than now because you have proper control of it, and you looking back on how fucking stupid you were today, that's where I ended up most times.

you sound pretty high iq and wise, if u dont mind i would like to ask for some advice

all my friends, family, and grade view me as an unhinged drug addict cause ive been slipping and doing drugs to cope with autism and depression. i already had both beforehand but this is really just accelerating it and i dont know what to do. ofc ill be an adult one day and it wont be as bad but being labeled a drug addict is not just something thats swept under the rug, no matter how much time passes.

like, i know people will look for something new to talk about it one day but you cant remove the label of drug addict from your reputation, and even on my own conscious i feel like ive tainted myself. its a big part why i kept going - once u lose ur "drug virginity" theres not really a point in stopping since u cant go back to having that pride of never doing drugs, right? thats how i feel

 

[Deleted member 23391]

I'm 14

You need HGH peptides and proviron, my boy. Don't even think about roping yet.

 

[Munshi]

you sound pretty high iq and wise, if u dont mind i would like to ask for some advice

all my friends, family, and grade view me as an unhinged drug addict cause ive been slipping and doing drugs to cope with autism and depression. i already had both beforehand but this is really just accelerating it and i dont know what to do. ofc ill be an adult one day and it wont be as bad but being labeled a drug addict is not just something thats swept under the rug, no matter how much time passes.

like, i know people will look for something new to talk about it one day but you cant remove the label of drug addict from your reputation, and even on my own conscious i feel like ive tainted myself. its a big part why i kept going - once u lose ur "drug virginity" theres not really a point in stopping since u cant go back to having that pride of never doing drugs, right? thats how i feel

It's over tell them to end it. Everyone here did so I might as as well.

 

[Deleted member 29796]

you sound pretty high iq and wise, if u dont mind i would like to ask for some advice

all my friends, family, and grade view me as an unhinged drug addict cause ive been slipping and doing drugs to cope with autism and depression. i already had both beforehand but this is really just accelerating it and i dont know what to do. ofc ill be an adult one day and it wont be as bad but being labeled a drug addict is not just something thats swept under the rug, no matter how much time passes.

like, i know people will look for something new to talk about it one day but you cant remove the label of drug addict from your reputation, and even on my own conscious i feel like ive tainted myself. its a big part why i kept going - once u lose ur "drug virginity" theres not really a point in stopping since u cant go back to having that pride of never doing drugs, right? thats how i feel

I never did hard drugs, but I know how insanely relieving drugs can be for past traumas. I think, and this is overlooked by most, you never get rid of the traumas, that stays for life, sadly, but through therapy, cognitive behavioral therapy, you learn a scientifically proven way of managing your response to that trauma. That's what most underestimate about therapy, you are learning to re-wire your brain to respond better. I can't tell you to quit drugs, I had copes, I know how hard it is, but if you tackle the root cause, it will increase the probability of you waning off of it.

Regarding your perception from your peers, truth is, until they have been there, they will never understand it. But there is a beauty in suffering, through suffering, if you get through it, it makes you stronger, but is also give you perspective. You can turn that perspective into something positive down the road, and that can be assisting people in getting through their suffering, and you are better to do it because you would have actually lived it. An individual that turns their life around in that manner and gives back can never be reduced to just a "drug addict", and for those that do, simply realize it's a fault of their own limited experiences. The people that love you, they are watching you destroy yourself and it likely hurts them bad, they are fools, thus they don't know how to properly respond to the situation, but I couldn't imagine them treating you the same once you get past it.

I think these are important:

- Cognitive behavioral therapy (this is key)
- Meditation
- Breathwork
- Exercise
- Volunteering (once you are healthy but even now it can be beneficial, especially when you get see the outside perspective of peoples' rock bottom)


Truth is, you need professional help, don't shrug that, everyone needs that. It's a shame that's locked behind a $$$ amount, but it's worth saving up an investing in it. Now, meditation and breathwork is free, and that made a world of a difference for me. Every major breathwork session I have done has brought me to tears, it humbles me every time. We all need to be humbled greatly, every major moment in my life was after I was humbled, either through injury or loss. I say, log most of this stuff down and take baby steps towards introducing it into your life, 5 mins of meditation before 10 mins one day, and 30+ mins down the road, same for breathwork.

I think humans are tabula rasa, we are malleable, so you can change your life, but you need to find a place to start and put in the work. It's unfortunate, but those with traumas and stressors need to work harder to overcome their pain, but when you do it, you become such a valuable human being. If we would all simply work to make others happy, everyone would have a someone to rely on, that's my goal, that's what I am to be for humans. I just hate suffering.

 

[Deleted member 29796]

I don't think there is meaning in suffering, but you can definitely derive purpose from it. On my deathbed, even if I'm the poorest man in the world, and no one is there in my last moments, I will die happy knowing I positively affected the lives of others. I think, if you aim to make the world a better place, so not focusing solely on what benefits you, you will die a rich man. No one can take that impact from you, and it's truly profound when you consider how one action could influence so many humans down the line.

I aim to make myself better so that I can help others, anything that benefits me in the end is just a bonus.

 

[Xerryx]

I don't think there is meaning in suffering, but you can definitely derive purpose from it. On my deathbed, even if I'm the poorest man in the world, and no one is there in my last moments, I will die happy knowing I positively affected the lives of others. I think, if you aim to make the world a better place, so not focusing solely on what benefits you, you will die a rich man. No one can take that impact from you, and it's truly profound when you consider how one action could influence so many humans down the line.

I aim to make myself better so that I can help others, anything that benefits me in the end is just a bonus.

I really like you, man, one of the few "good" users on this forum. Cheers

 

[redhoodreincarnate]

hurry up