overthefalls
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For some reason I really wanted to use tren like 4 months after I started roiding, so I grabbed tren e and started on 100mg. Basically nothing happened for like 3 weeks because it was enanthate, but on week 4 I had a random psychotic episode and I took almost 3 grams of dianabol because I thought it was going to give a liver tumor and I figured for some reason that if I had cancer then this girl I liked would stay with me and take care of me. The next day I I stayed in bed literally the whole day except for getting up one time to piss, didn't eat at all. The day after that, I overdosed on benadryl because I figured that if I was delirious enough I would be convinced that there was an actual person next to me when I put on mommy asmr. That didn't work and I was tweaking out for like 3 hours and then fell asleep again. Like 2 days later I finally snapped out of it and realized I was being really retarded and nothing I was doing made sense.
Then for like a whole 7 days I was completely normal and then I started getting REALLY fucking depressed, worst I've probably ever felt in my life. I took my car out and just redlined it on the interstate for about 30 minutes before I got pulled over, got a citation and I have court next month for it. The next day I swear to god I turned into an actual lustless monk, I was fully convinced that the reason I couldn't get with that girl was because God didn't deem me good enough to be with her, so for about 6 days I had the willpower of a Buddhist monk and abstained entirely from any lustful thoughts or actions. Like 4 days into that time period I randomly woke up at like 4 am and got out of bed and tied a shoe on the ground repeatedly for almost an hour straight because I couldn't stop thinking about this one time that girl asked me to tie her shoe for her because she was too sore to bend down and do it herself. This episode lasted for over a week before I got normal again.
I was normal for a bit over a week before having another episode of just feeling REALLY shitty, that was on and off for like a month or so and then I was randomly like REALLY fucking paranoid for a few days, like every second I was awake I was horribly scared, I had nightmares nearly every night, couldn't sleep at all, I got convinced that my father was a pedophile and was trying to rape me based on nothing at all so I wouldn't leave my room if he was in the house and I would push my desk up against my bedroom door at night.
I did a lot of other stupid stuff but these are the funnier or stupider things I ended up doing. During the episodes it'd be like everything I was doing or thinking made perfect sense, and then as soon as it was over I realized nothing made sense about it.
Anyway been off tren for like 3 or 4 weeks now, I'm not having any of those episodes anymore but I still feel like shit
total time using it was probably 2 months, I highkey just couldn't deal with it anymore.
w yaps
Then for like a whole 7 days I was completely normal and then I started getting REALLY fucking depressed, worst I've probably ever felt in my life. I took my car out and just redlined it on the interstate for about 30 minutes before I got pulled over, got a citation and I have court next month for it. The next day I swear to god I turned into an actual lustless monk, I was fully convinced that the reason I couldn't get with that girl was because God didn't deem me good enough to be with her, so for about 6 days I had the willpower of a Buddhist monk and abstained entirely from any lustful thoughts or actions. Like 4 days into that time period I randomly woke up at like 4 am and got out of bed and tied a shoe on the ground repeatedly for almost an hour straight because I couldn't stop thinking about this one time that girl asked me to tie her shoe for her because she was too sore to bend down and do it herself. This episode lasted for over a week before I got normal again.
I was normal for a bit over a week before having another episode of just feeling REALLY shitty, that was on and off for like a month or so and then I was randomly like REALLY fucking paranoid for a few days, like every second I was awake I was horribly scared, I had nightmares nearly every night, couldn't sleep at all, I got convinced that my father was a pedophile and was trying to rape me based on nothing at all so I wouldn't leave my room if he was in the house and I would push my desk up against my bedroom door at night.
I did a lot of other stupid stuff but these are the funnier or stupider things I ended up doing. During the episodes it'd be like everything I was doing or thinking made perfect sense, and then as soon as it was over I realized nothing made sense about it.
Anyway been off tren for like 3 or 4 weeks now, I'm not having any of those episodes anymore but I still feel like shit
total time using it was probably 2 months, I highkey just couldn't deal with it anymore.w yaps
