
Short Ugly and Brown
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From the start of primary school
when I would play tag with my classmates, girls would avoid me or keep me out of social events
As I matured into middle school, I started seeing my friends with other girls they liked... I never ever had a girl come up to me and express interest in me
What did I do? I focused my attention onto school to cope. I was doing accelerated geometry by grade 8 (which is 2 years above my math year).
Slowly over time I started losing interest In math, I started to come to the realization again that I didn't have any girls that loved me, but my friends did...
Into highschool times I started to also realize that it wasn't because of my social reputation or because I wasn't on the football team...
rather that my friends were better looking.... the ones who got the girls had better facial features than me
I started to become envious of good-looking guys, witnessing how they turn on women made me hate myself and feel as if im a loser
Coming to now 18 years of life in 26 days, I will be a KHHTV
Ive never held hands with a girl I love, Ive never been alone with a girl before. Ive never hugged, Ive never went to a dance, Ive never done anything romantic over my lifetime
I know that I will have to live out this lifestyle for another 50 or so years til my passing by age
This life isn't fair, everyday is misery
Living life as a truecel is like playing a videogame without a controller, its not fair, I want to give up. Give me the game over
But that's not how it goes. I have to live and suffer for a lifetime's span, euthanasia is illegal...
Im playing a game I don't want to play, in a body with a face I don't want, I wish to G-d, please end this suffering and torture.



when I would play tag with my classmates, girls would avoid me or keep me out of social events
As I matured into middle school, I started seeing my friends with other girls they liked... I never ever had a girl come up to me and express interest in me
What did I do? I focused my attention onto school to cope. I was doing accelerated geometry by grade 8 (which is 2 years above my math year).
Slowly over time I started losing interest In math, I started to come to the realization again that I didn't have any girls that loved me, but my friends did...
Into highschool times I started to also realize that it wasn't because of my social reputation or because I wasn't on the football team...
rather that my friends were better looking.... the ones who got the girls had better facial features than me
I started to become envious of good-looking guys, witnessing how they turn on women made me hate myself and feel as if im a loser
Coming to now 18 years of life in 26 days, I will be a KHHTV
Ive never held hands with a girl I love, Ive never been alone with a girl before. Ive never hugged, Ive never went to a dance, Ive never done anything romantic over my lifetime
I know that I will have to live out this lifestyle for another 50 or so years til my passing by age
This life isn't fair, everyday is misery
Living life as a truecel is like playing a videogame without a controller, its not fair, I want to give up. Give me the game over
But that's not how it goes. I have to live and suffer for a lifetime's span, euthanasia is illegal...
Im playing a game I don't want to play, in a body with a face I don't want, I wish to G-d, please end this suffering and torture.
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