Trying not to rope after getting laid

[calvinc]

Lost my V-card on the 19th of July and for the rest of our relationship (lasted 4 weeks lmao) her and I screwed like rabbits

Now that I've gotten the experience, gotten my knob slobbed etc. I have lowk realized that a very large reason I have not roped yet is that I couldn't accept dying a virgin and wanted to at least get through my first relationship before considering it further.

Plus I've become more atheistic recently, seems like God and religion are just copes, people taking metaphors literally to believe that their suffering has meaning or justification when in reality it doesn't, we are all just worthless rats writhing around, doomed to suffer and destined for destruction

Been spending the past few months just sort of diving into a bunch of different activities, skateboarding, writing, reading, expanding my gym routine to try and occupy myself but in every free moment to think I have all I can really think about is how easy it'd be to end this stupid joke right now and be done with it.

I imagine this is an almost universal thing for people to go through so what do you all have to say

 

[Sceptical]

'i had sex and it was just a wet hole' ahh thread
@Gaygymmaxx

 

[DBDR]

'i had sex and it was just a wet hole' ahh thread
@Gaygymmaxx

Remember when @Gaygymmaxx paid for another round of sex with that one hoe, but then he had second thoughts. He asked for his money back, but that hoe said nah, that sent me honestly.

 

[Urielwillascend]

If you think religion is cope why would u rope better off blasting roids and getting the most risky surgeries to see if you can ascend psl 7-8

 

[calvinc]

If you think religion is cope why would u rope better off blasting roids and getting the most risky surgeries to see if you can ascend psl 7-8

Not a bad point tbh

Could just spend the rest of my life fucking around having fun until one of my vices catches up with me

 

[calvinc]

'i had sex and it was just a wet hole' ahh thread
@Gaygymmaxx

nah it was so much worse than that

she actually kind of mattered to me since she was not only my first, but also the first girl that I really wanted, and seemed like an actually pretty interesting person

of course like the rest of gen Z she was one-shot by mainstream dating perceptions and will almost certainly sleep around, destroy herself with tattoos etc.

I am caused much despair imagining this process happening to every woman that might've been a beautiful wife or loving mother in a better timeline