
calvinc
Retardcel
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Lost my V-card on the 19th of July and for the rest of our relationship (lasted 4 weeks lmao) her and I screwed like rabbits
Now that I've gotten the experience, gotten my knob slobbed etc. I have lowk realized that a very large reason I have not roped yet is that I couldn't accept dying a virgin and wanted to at least get through my first relationship before considering it further.
Plus I've become more atheistic recently, seems like God and religion are just copes, people taking metaphors literally to believe that their suffering has meaning or justification when in reality it doesn't, we are all just worthless rats writhing around, doomed to suffer and destined for destruction
Been spending the past few months just sort of diving into a bunch of different activities, skateboarding, writing, reading, expanding my gym routine to try and occupy myself but in every free moment to think I have all I can really think about is how easy it'd be to end this stupid joke right now and be done with it.
I imagine this is an almost universal thing for people to go through so what do you all have to say
Now that I've gotten the experience, gotten my knob slobbed etc. I have lowk realized that a very large reason I have not roped yet is that I couldn't accept dying a virgin and wanted to at least get through my first relationship before considering it further.
Plus I've become more atheistic recently, seems like God and religion are just copes, people taking metaphors literally to believe that their suffering has meaning or justification when in reality it doesn't, we are all just worthless rats writhing around, doomed to suffer and destined for destruction
Been spending the past few months just sort of diving into a bunch of different activities, skateboarding, writing, reading, expanding my gym routine to try and occupy myself but in every free moment to think I have all I can really think about is how easy it'd be to end this stupid joke right now and be done with it.
I imagine this is an almost universal thing for people to go through so what do you all have to say