Unhappiness with my life

[bubblebass12]

For the past 3 months since school started i've had to work hard on getting my GPA up to a 3.6, which recently I achieved, my plan was to get a good base grade for the rest of the semester, but it took away time from joining clubs and in general free time and time to sleep. The club I was interested in doesn't accept any new volunteers because apparently it's past the signup date. What few friends I had have a completely different schedule than me so I don't see them at all anymore. All the clubs I've searched up at my school match none of my interests. And to make things worse I just failed my math test, reducing my overall math grade to a 70, and because i missed a couple questions on the review guide I can't retake the test. I'm not exactly sure if I can recover my math grade back to atleast a 90 after this because I've been wanting to pursue a volunteer phase at a local hospital, which could be the only thing that makes my college transcript look good. However, you need a 3.5 weighted cumulative GPA and i'm thinking i might actually be cooked after failing this test considering my overall GPA for the last two years was around a 2.8-2.9 GPA..... My dad lost his job years ago and works uber, i barely see him because of how many hours he works, my mom is always worried and sometimes she literally cries for me because she thinks my life is bad. My unemployed ass sister whos 20 and still lives in this house verbally and emotionally abuses my mom whos the only person who actually cares for her, honestly my sister is a bitch and the only reason why i haven't said anything to her yet is because i feel bad for my mom, my dad wishes my sister were dead, matter of fact my dad doesn't believe my mom loves him anymore and he told me himself sometimes that he wants to die or that when i go to college he's gonna leave, he says that my mom is just the mother of his kids..... at school because of how hard i work i barely get time to socialize and i typically only talk to 1-2 people per day... always the same people tho and it's really only at gym. i keep getting detentions because i'm late because i keep sleeping in so i gotta waste time after school sitting in some damn class for an hour. The only thing that I've got going for me is that I look better than I did two years ago..... I used to be so chopped that I would feel embarassed walking in the halls, girls would laugh at me or tease me, people wouldn't really want to talk to me, i was looked at but i wasn't seen... at the very least times have gotten better than that but because i had such low status years ago i missed out on the oppurtunities to connect to more people. honestly i just wonder what the rest of my life is gonna be like..... all i can hope for is that somehow i pull through and can get into a medical school, which has been my plan. But life feels isolating right now, nobody really has any deep conversations at school, this was not how i expected my teenage years to be.

TLDR my life is ass rn, any tips?

 

[WHMPSL]

You need to stop worrying about school. Just live man. stop stressing about all of the small stuff. Doing these things are sure to make you feel more seen and less self conscious.

 

[bubblebass12]

You need to stop worrying about school. Just live man. stop stressing about all of the small stuff. Doing these things are sure to make you feel more seen and less self conscious.

Can you explain more and where this connects

 

[dnrboyoi]

For the past 3 months since school started i've had to work hard on getting my GPA up to a 3.6, which recently I achieved, my plan was to get a good base grade for the rest of the semester, but it took away time from joining clubs and in general free time and time to sleep. The club I was interested in doesn't accept any new volunteers because apparently it's past the signup date. What few friends I had have a completely different schedule than me so I don't see them at all anymore. All the clubs I've searched up at my school match none of my interests. And to make things worse I just failed my math test, reducing my overall math grade to a 70, and because i missed a couple questions on the review guide I can't retake the test. I'm not exactly sure if I can recover my math grade back to atleast a 90 after this because I've been wanting to pursue a volunteer phase at a local hospital, which could be the only thing that makes my college transcript look good. However, you need a 3.5 weighted cumulative GPA and i'm thinking i might actually be cooked after failing this test considering my overall GPA for the last two years was around a 2.8-2.9 GPA..... My dad lost his job years ago and works uber, i barely see him because of how many hours he works, my mom is always worried and sometimes she literally cries for me because she thinks my life is bad. My unemployed ass sister whos 20 and still lives in this house verbally and emotionally abuses my mom whos the only person who actually cares for her, honestly my sister is a bitch and the only reason why i haven't said anything to her yet is because i feel bad for my mom, my dad wishes my sister were dead, matter of fact my dad doesn't believe my mom loves him anymore and he told me himself sometimes that he wants to die or that when i go to college he's gonna leave, he says that my mom is just the mother of his kids..... at school because of how hard i work i barely get time to socialize and i typically only talk to 1-2 people per day... always the same people tho and it's really only at gym. i keep getting detentions because i'm late because i keep sleeping in so i gotta waste time after school sitting in some damn class for an hour. The only thing that I've got going for me is that I look better than I did two years ago..... I used to be so chopped that I would feel embarassed walking in the halls, girls would laugh at me or tease me, people wouldn't really want to talk to me, i was looked at but i wasn't seen... at the very least times have gotten better than that but because i had such low status years ago i missed out on the oppurtunities to connect to more people. honestly i just wonder what the rest of my life is gonna be like..... all i can hope for is that somehow i pull through and can get into a medical school, which has been my plan. But life feels isolating right now, nobody really has any deep conversations at school, this was not how i expected my teenage years to be.

TLDR my life is ass rn, any tips?

lower your inhib and talk to more people. focusing on the past will make you higher inhib and socially outcast when you focus on the shitty things in life. try to do stuff and hang out with your dad when he's home and convince him not to end it when you move away. what a bitch sister idk what to do about that. fix your sleep schedule. nobody has deep conversations because its school. you have deep conversations when youre alone with a friend, not with a friend group.
youre making it harder for yourself by having such a high inhib and not talking to anyone. i grew up outcast too so just force yourself to talk to people who you think are cool and you'll make more friends
parents should just divorce itd be easier for everyone involved. sisters a bitch i'd humble her shit if she was talking to my mom like that. if a club doesnt match your interest just make a club and find other people to join it once you get lower inhib. and just make more friends so you have friends in classes.
basically just make more friends boyo

 

[bubblebass12]

lower your inhib and talk to more people. focusing on the past will make you higher inhib and socially outcast when you focus on the shitty things in life. try to do stuff and hang out with your dad when he's home and convince him not to end it when you move away. what a bitch sister idk what to do about that. fix your sleep schedule. nobody has deep conversations because its school. you have deep conversations when youre alone with a friend, not with a friend group.
youre making it harder for yourself by having such a high inhib and not talking to anyone. i grew up outcast too so just force yourself to talk to people who you think are cool and you'll make more friends
parents should just divorce itd be easier for everyone involved. sisters a bitch i'd humble her shit if she was talking to my mom like that. if a club doesnt match your interest just make a club and find other people to join it once you get lower inhib. and just make more friends so you have friends in classes.
basically just make more friends boyo

so what ur saying is making friends will make my life easier

 

[dnrboyoi]

so what ur saying is making friends will make my life easier

so much easier. youll have people to talk to, and itll be easier to see life on the positive side if you hang out with them.
gotta have close friends tho
also rep me and mark as sol or i will annihilate you