update: im utterly exhausted

[etulceil]

this constant school pressure is crushing me add to it all the ND interactions that i always remember and i genuinely get a headache

also i miss my MTB ive done everything i begged lied manipulated all in the hopes of getting her back yet she still wont come
i begged god and prayed with tears in my eyes on my knees i prayed yet he still didnt grant my wish what more should i give? are my tears not proof enough of my devotion? has god forsaken me?
i dont want to let her go i dont want to move on why wont they understand that?
"if i was you..." youd be dead faggot
why does my effort never pays off?
and the constant nagging from my parents crushes me
also acting NT has never been this difficult
im so tired i just want her to hold me while i cry

 

[etulceil]

bump of shame

 

[car12345]

me when a sexhaver(or someone who has been in an relationship) is complaining:
**insert meme where some guy tells you to shut the fuck up, or some david gandy DNR video**

anyways dont be a cuck son

im so tired i just want her to hold me while i cry

listen to fucking girlfriend asmr or whatever

 

[etulceil]

me when a sexhaver(or someone who has been in an relationship) is complaining:
**insert meme where some guy tells you to shut the fuck up, or some david gandy DNR video**

anyways dont be a cuck son


listen to fucking girlfriend asmr or whatever

im a loser

 

[car12345]

im a loser

most people on here are but you had a girlfriend unlinke most incels so your genetics make it impossible for you to be a loser even if you tried

 

[etulceil]

most people on here are but you had a girlfriend unlinke most incels so your genetics make it impossible for you to be a loser even if you tried

it wasnt even a gf we were into each other i think atleast i was and i was happy but before i got serious she just left

 

[moongazer]

this constant school pressure is crushing me add to it all the ND interactions that i always remember and i genuinely get a headache

also i miss my MTB ive done everything i begged lied manipulated all in the hopes of getting her back yet she still wont come
i begged god and prayed with tears in my eyes on my knees i prayed yet he still didnt grant my wish what more should i give? are my tears not proof enough of my devotion? has god forsaken me?
i dont want to let her go i dont want to move on why wont they understand that?
"if i was you..." youd be dead faggot
why does my effort never pays off?
and the constant nagging from my parents crushes me
also acting NT has never been this difficult
im so tired i just want her to hold me while i cry

School is hell for me

 

[car12345]

it wasnt even a gf we were into each other i think atleast i was and i was happy but before i got serious she just left

too bad, but on the bright side you now have more free time to be on this forum with your favorite user (me)

 

[BR32]

I’m sorry man I hope you’re doing ok

 

[etulceil]

too bad, but on the bright side you now have more free time to be on this forum with your favorite user (me)

i love you bro

School is hell for me

for me too i just started wearing headphones and hiding in the hallways just so i dont interact with anyone peak truecel activities

 

[moongazer]

i love you bro

for me too i just started wearing headphones and hiding in the hallways just so i dont interact with anyone peak truecel activities

I feel like everyones watching my every move

 

[lowiqmanlet]

sacrifice a child to moloch and she will come back

 

[etulceil]

I feel like everyones watching my every move

i get that too hence the hiding part
today two girls at the bus laughed at me not even a chuckle no full on cackling so i genuinely hate ppl

 

[etulceil]

sacrifice a child to moloch and she will come back

crazy thing is i considered it lol

 

[moongazer]

i get that too hence the hiding part
today two girls at the bus laughed at me not even a chuckle no full on cackling so i genuinely hate ppl

i can’t tell if people are talking/laughing abt/at me or not, but im hyperaware

 

[car12345]

I feel like everyones watching my every move

they are tbh, you just have to try to act as normal and uninteresting as possible, you just have to avoid being bullied at all cost tbh. But you will always get judged by others and they will make fun of you. There is just no escaping that(besides not leaving your room maybe)

 

[chinkcel]

post of shame and agony

 

[moongazer]

they are tbh, you just have to try to act as normal and uninteresting as possible, you just have to avoid being bullied at all cost tbh. But you will always get judged by others and they will make fun of you. There is just no escaping that(besides not leaving your room maybe)

I have friends but i don’t enjoyr or relate to them much

 

[chinkcel]

they are tbh, you just have to try to act as normal and uninteresting as possible, you just have to avoid being bullied at all cost tbh. But you will always get judged by others and they will make fun of you. There is just no escaping that(besides not leaving your room maybe)

I used to be like this and overanalyse every single thing i did when i had people around but ive started to just not gaf about what anyone thinks in an almost even more autist way but it actually makes me come accross as more neurotypical

 

[car12345]

I have friends but i don’t enjoyr or relate to them much

the thing is with social interaction atleast for myself, i cant stand people but my biology as a human still forces me too enjoy social contact and gives me the need to be with others or be in an relationship, be loved and all that stuff, espacially because i crave attention and praise really badly its hard for me too just be invisible. I hope i will someday overcome this

 

[moongazer]

the thing is with social interaction atleast for myself, i cant stand people but my biology as a human still forces me too enjoy social contact and gives me the need to be with others or be in an relationship, be loved and all that stuff, espacially because i crave attention and praise really badly its hard for me too just be invisible. I hope i will someday overcome this

great way to put it

 

[etulceil]

I have friends but i don’t enjoyr or relate to them much

real real real real i just feel so disconnected to them we share neither music nor interests we share nothing i dont even know why we talk anymore

 

[etulceil]

post of shame and agony

its all im feeling rn buddy

 

[moongazer]

real real real real i just feel so disconnected to them we share neither music nor interests we share nothing i dont even know why we talk anymore

truth

 

[etulceil]

truth