Henry Kissinger
Aristokrat auf die Geist
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I have completed my first year at a university, and here's an update for those who care (no one)
Major: Computer Science (ML & Bioinformatics)
Minor: Biology (genetics)
Stats:
18 years old
6'1 (6'2-6'3 with shoes)
White male (Italian mother, English/German father), and I come from a well-off family
Brown eyes & Brown hair
I have slayed nothing, I haven't gone to any parties, and I have a couple failed talking stages (typically lasting 2-3 weeks before getting ghosted). I am not sure why I get ghosted, but I assume it's because I'm off-putting in some way; not to mention that I already have a difficult time speaking with people unless we have a mutual interest or something significant in common. Never attending parties or putting myself out there has definitely not helped, but I simply can't force myself to do so (thank you, social inhibition)
My lack of success with women has been demoralizing, and something that exacerbates this feeling is whenever I get called attractive by family members (insincere platitudes, yes, I know), or by friends, girls that I know, or girls that my friends send photos of me to (included in screenshots). I can't help but shake this feeling that they are all lying, which I know sounds irrational, and it is, and it's something that I will chalk up to my deeply rooted insecurity.
Recently, I completed this project for my International Human Rights class. I did the entire thing by myself simply because I am sort of peculiar about aesthetics, quality of sources/material, and I also just wanted to make sure that I, and subsequently, the people in my group got good grades (I got an A, thankfully). In the screenshots I provided a girl offered to help me with "anything personally", and maybe I misunderstood her, but I'm assuming that if she didn't find me interesting or attractive at all, she would have never offered to help me with anything "personally". As you probably could have guessed, this went absolutely nowhere. I got her # & her IG, but right after we presented the project, I was ghosted on everything. Is this because I am ugly? I don't know, and that's the main problem. I keep on attracting women, keep them around for maybe 2-3 weeks, and then I get ghosted or it just simply doesn't work out due to whatever reason.
All of this has led to me feeling aloof & apathetic to most things in my life, except for academics, but even that's slipping.
On the plus side, I was invited to this research lab that's filled with people who hold PhD's or MDs as a first year undergrad, and I impressed them quite a bit which made me feel nice but outside of that, everything's been pretty awful. I should also say that I haven't had a hard time making friends, I just have a hard time slaying and or getting into a relationship. Anyways, that's all. I hope whoever reads this enjoyed my short description of my currently mundane life and can offer some advice or at least comment something funny.
*All the girls included in the screenshots (5 different ones) were all talking stages that amounted to nothing*
And to contextualize the fourth screenshot (the girl calling me, me saying I'm in class, then calling her), her boyfriend got mad because I sent her an "us" video and he told her to block me and to also tell me that me and her are strictly friends (JFL she called me a day later apologizing) ->
Major: Computer Science (ML & Bioinformatics)
Minor: Biology (genetics)
Stats:
18 years old
6'1 (6'2-6'3 with shoes)
White male (Italian mother, English/German father), and I come from a well-off family
Brown eyes & Brown hair
I have slayed nothing, I haven't gone to any parties, and I have a couple failed talking stages (typically lasting 2-3 weeks before getting ghosted). I am not sure why I get ghosted, but I assume it's because I'm off-putting in some way; not to mention that I already have a difficult time speaking with people unless we have a mutual interest or something significant in common. Never attending parties or putting myself out there has definitely not helped, but I simply can't force myself to do so (thank you, social inhibition)
My lack of success with women has been demoralizing, and something that exacerbates this feeling is whenever I get called attractive by family members (insincere platitudes, yes, I know), or by friends, girls that I know, or girls that my friends send photos of me to (included in screenshots). I can't help but shake this feeling that they are all lying, which I know sounds irrational, and it is, and it's something that I will chalk up to my deeply rooted insecurity.
Recently, I completed this project for my International Human Rights class. I did the entire thing by myself simply because I am sort of peculiar about aesthetics, quality of sources/material, and I also just wanted to make sure that I, and subsequently, the people in my group got good grades (I got an A, thankfully). In the screenshots I provided a girl offered to help me with "anything personally", and maybe I misunderstood her, but I'm assuming that if she didn't find me interesting or attractive at all, she would have never offered to help me with anything "personally". As you probably could have guessed, this went absolutely nowhere. I got her # & her IG, but right after we presented the project, I was ghosted on everything. Is this because I am ugly? I don't know, and that's the main problem. I keep on attracting women, keep them around for maybe 2-3 weeks, and then I get ghosted or it just simply doesn't work out due to whatever reason.
All of this has led to me feeling aloof & apathetic to most things in my life, except for academics, but even that's slipping.
On the plus side, I was invited to this research lab that's filled with people who hold PhD's or MDs as a first year undergrad, and I impressed them quite a bit which made me feel nice but outside of that, everything's been pretty awful. I should also say that I haven't had a hard time making friends, I just have a hard time slaying and or getting into a relationship. Anyways, that's all. I hope whoever reads this enjoyed my short description of my currently mundane life and can offer some advice or at least comment something funny.
*All the girls included in the screenshots (5 different ones) were all talking stages that amounted to nothing*
And to contextualize the fourth screenshot (the girl calling me, me saying I'm in class, then calling her), her boyfriend got mad because I sent her an "us" video and he told her to block me and to also tell me that me and her are strictly friends (JFL she called me a day later apologizing) ->
