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when i get handsome i dont think of manipulating girls and using them, i would think that time that they are unworthy of me, i dont want to show them my 1second man, i also dont want them to spread it lmao, like the girl will say why you finished so fast, i have no cooldown tho even though i finish fast, and i can also restrain it to pleasure my girl you know, but isnt the sex to make myself feel good not the girl, i dont want to make all that effort, unless i love her. i dont want to have sex to only make the girl feel good, i want a girl who would cater to mine, someone who will want and will be happy to make me feel good, but just as i said, i think of girls unworthy of me unless they are the same as me, so it will only apply to girls worthy of me, which i i might even not find in my whole life, but i will not regret that, my games, interest, is stronger stimulation that is not bound by flesh. but this is the thinking that i can get if i solve this mentall illness first and not kill myself first. but thinking from now, from my mental state now, is it worth it to manipulate a pretty girl to do all my bidding if i get handsome? but i dont want to say to her my fetish lmao that i have to manipulate her to make her like do my fetish, i also have to manipulate the girl to like sex, it can take for a year if shes smart, all that effort just for making her my meat human, if i will do this effort, might as well pick a pretty and smart girl and good body too right, if i will pick someone unworthy of me regardless and will put effort to it, why not do it to someone i love and worthy of me, same as me, but i will prob not meet that girl my whole life, am different from normal person. i will also prob unable to lie at myself that i love her no matter how pretty, good body and smart she is, after all, my motto is to not regret anything, but isnt her body and smartness worthy enough to lie? i cant think rn so i cant decide man, but my smart self prob have a reason why he dont want to lie. oh, i think its cause am responsible for the girl am with? i cant fucking think man am so sorry to myself. i can only say what i think in the moment. its like youre in dazed or tired, and you only say the things that come up in your head not the things
i only seem retarded now saying my ramblings in an incel forum but its just cause i have mental illness, but am smart if i can think. would not even post here to say this here, if i can think, but i want to prob not forget my feelings that i feel rn so i write it. as i say this, i already forget the whole content of what i written. i only rememmber about girls? oh i remember now, but i mostly forget everything.
i only seem retarded now saying my ramblings in an incel forum but its just cause i have mental illness, but am smart if i can think. would not even post here to say this here, if i can think, but i want to prob not forget my feelings that i feel rn so i write it. as i say this, i already forget the whole content of what i written. i only rememmber about girls? oh i remember now, but i mostly forget everything.
