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I was watching this show called "body bizarre" and on this episode there was this middle aged man absolutely covered in these horrible warts from head to toe, im talking like fully peppered with these shiny keratinous bumps so much that even parts of his scalp had no hair because of those things
Anyway fastforward to near the end of the episode where he is about to get surgery to remove most of the bumps but then the surgeon decides it is too unsafe and ultimately cancels the surgery, pretty much ruining any hope this man has of getting rid of these bumps, so understandably he gets really upset and angry and there's this scene where his family tries to console him but he snaps at them and tells them to leave him alone
The thing is though, when I saw the scene of him snapping at his family because he's angry that he can't ever look normal ever, I found myself for a split second thinking "what a fucking bitter asshole, whys he being such an irate piece of shit", I had to literally consciously stop myself from thinking this and force myself to be more empathetic to his situation but it was actually surprisingly difficult for me to not see him as an angry and bitter asshole after that scene
It just made me realise that all humans have this inbuilt genetic raging fucking HATRED of ugly people, like it's so crazy to me how my mind just immediately without skipping a beat went straight to thinking he's an asshole for being angry, like what the fuck, the entire episode showcases all of the hardships this man went through because of his deformity, just for my brain to instantly feel hostile towards him after seeing him become understandably angry that he couldn't get surgery
I fucking hate humans so much and it's so agonizing to me that I have to live and be one until I die
Anyway fastforward to near the end of the episode where he is about to get surgery to remove most of the bumps but then the surgeon decides it is too unsafe and ultimately cancels the surgery, pretty much ruining any hope this man has of getting rid of these bumps, so understandably he gets really upset and angry and there's this scene where his family tries to console him but he snaps at them and tells them to leave him alone
The thing is though, when I saw the scene of him snapping at his family because he's angry that he can't ever look normal ever, I found myself for a split second thinking "what a fucking bitter asshole, whys he being such an irate piece of shit", I had to literally consciously stop myself from thinking this and force myself to be more empathetic to his situation but it was actually surprisingly difficult for me to not see him as an angry and bitter asshole after that scene
It just made me realise that all humans have this inbuilt genetic raging fucking HATRED of ugly people, like it's so crazy to me how my mind just immediately without skipping a beat went straight to thinking he's an asshole for being angry, like what the fuck, the entire episode showcases all of the hardships this man went through because of his deformity, just for my brain to instantly feel hostile towards him after seeing him become understandably angry that he couldn't get surgery
I fucking hate humans so much and it's so agonizing to me that I have to live and be one until I die
