Very fleshed out scenarios in my head that makes me irrationally angry l, declining cognitive function

[LatentIntellectual]

Unrelated but I've been mentally fucked recently, like I've been having arguments with my subconscious which just sucks me into a state of psychosis where I'm fully immersed and everything is extremely visual and detailed. Not like a regular day dream. Time will skip forward a lot when I'm in this trance, like really far ahead.

It's never been so bad, I legit caught myself, shouting to absolutely no one whilst walking around the house. I was having an arguement in my head and was like unironically getting mad and stressed.

My symptoms of what I believe is OCDs has gotten worse. Like I will take this random walks around my living area and I will have this routine of opening the fridge, entering specific rooms and repeatedly checking if certain lights and door knobs are closed.

My mother is a certified diagnosed mentally ill freak and I'd never thought I would be just like her ( I despise her existence deeply and the thought of me becoming like her seriously pisses me off ). I've been denying it recently but I'm starting to accept the way things are going

Already started to log my thoughts on some word document here and there because God forbid I become a raging pseudo Trisomy 21 patient by the time I'm 40

For the record I don't think it's anything serious but definitely I wanna manage my symptoms going forward. I've seen a neurologist for some unrelated problem I had and he pretty much told me I have stress and depression ( Made up exxageration obviously cuz the pills he supplied costed like 800 USD, frankly I respekt the hustle yo )

I'll make a pact with my brother tommorow. If I become an adult-diaper wearing mental-vegetable, he has to kill me on the spot

@Jova @cromagnon @Kroker

 

[New Poster]

Most people replay arguments in their head

 

[LatentIntellectual]

Most people replay arguments in their head

Yeah, this is true but unrelated

 

[New Poster]

Yeah, this is true but unrelated

Sounds like that’s what you’re doing

 

[LatentIntellectual]

Sounds like that’s what you’re doing

There is a difference between replaying arguments in your head and getting into non existent arguments whilst you literally start talking and shouting in real life ( which has gotten me looks IRL when I'm waiting on my food and other such situations )

I'm aware of my behaviours and the way they change, and I'm aware of when my my behaviour crosses the line from normal imaginary power trip VS complete retardation.

I've been normal for the whole of my life but the latter started cropping up only recently and I'm not exaggerating anything here. Leaving out a lot actually since the other accompanying problems or symptoms I have need not be shared or are just disgusting/embarrassing

 

[New Poster]

There is a difference between replaying arguments in your head and getting into non existent arguments whilst you literally start talking and shouting in real life ( which has gotten me looks IRL when I'm waiting on my food and other such situations )

I'm aware of my behaviours and the way they change, and I'm aware of when my my behaviour crosses the line from normal imaginary power trip VS complete retardation.

I've been normal for the whole of my life but the latter started cropping up only recently and I'm not exaggerating anything here. Leaving out a lot actually since the other accompanying problems or symptoms I have need not be shared or are just disgusting/embarrassing

Oh, if you’re making up people and convos in your head and talking to them aloud outside, then you’re legit schizo

 

[LatentIntellectual]

Oh, if you’re making up people and convos in your head and talking to them aloud outside, then you’re legit schizo

I'm not schizophrenic and never will be that's for dumb noobs who can't manage their head space

I just need to be more happier and walk it out

 

[New Poster]

I'm not schizophrenic

I got bad news

 

[MikeMew'sBitch]

I have that as well. Actually i have it even worse, sometimes id start punching the air with my fists in some manic episode where im imagining that im fighting some motherfucker and killing him with my bare hands. Happened to me while i was walking outside, i was saying something like "ill kill you motherfucker" and was swinging my arms while walking. Then i realized some passerbys were watching me and i quickly pulled myself out of that tought and sobered up. I dont have any mental illnesses diagnosed but lately ive been getting shit like that fairly frequently

 

[LatentIntellectual]

Make no mistake I'm not a looney ^^

 

[superpsycho]

high t

 

[superpsycho]

Most people replay arguments in their head

i do

 

[LatentIntellectual]

high t

I'm low T I have narrow jaw and narrow frame + was born premature

I was never cut out to live this hard-core incel life

 

[superpsycho]

I'm low T I have narrow jaw and narrow frame + was born premature

I was never cut out to live this hard-core incel life

same

brutal

 

[Kroker]

I relate so much to this bro... I have depression and anxiety and a slight sprinkle of ADHD not to mention OCD. My mind is a complete mess.


I'll get back on Paxil (SSRI), I feel so much better on meds, both mentally and physically.

I don't care what others say, some people do benefit off of psychiatric meds.

What did he prescribe you?

 

[LatentIntellectual]

I relate so much to this bro... I have depression and anxiety and a slight sprinkle of ADHD not to mention OCD. My mind is a complete mess.


I'll get back on Paxil (SSRI), I feel so much better on meds, both mentally and physically.

I don't care what others say, some people do benefit off of psychiatric meds.

What did he prescribe you?

Elavil and Lexapro + some other painkillers for my headaches ( some non selective NSAID and fludan )