Very high inhibition and bp ruined my life.

[soldiersboi]

I just can't take it anymore. I’m not sure if I have mental health issues—though I’ve received a few diagnoses in the past—but the bottom line is, I can't act naturally or feel self-confident. I don't know if "Blackpill" content and appearance comparisons messed with my head that much, but I simply don't have the guts to approach any girl. Even seeing guys who are worse off than me in terms of looks and status, I just can't figure girls out—I can't tell if their glances mean they find me handsome or just ugly and weird. I’ve tried practically everything—trying to "fraud" my face and height, taking Xanax, cyclobenzaprine, propranolol, alcohol, clonazepam, etc.—and yet my inhibition never ends. I simply don't have enough confidence in my self-image to approach anyone; the only thing these substances led to was an addiction. What a shitty situation.