i have cPTSD im just figuring out. been wondering what’s wrong with me. seeing people say pairing NSI-189 and vorinostat completed cured it for them.
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Psychedelics will blow your mind open, they are extremely powerful tools that will not only bring one change but dozens and change your perception of reality. If you just wanna overcome the negative patterns vorinostat is probably better, psychedelics get to the very root
do you have experience with them?
Yes I had an ego death experience in the beginning of the year with months of following DPDR and suffering. I initially couldn’t integrate the experience but after a while it clicked and I feel better than ever. At certain doses you are able to dig deep into your subconscious and cognition but take too much and you will transcend your personal narrative altogether. At that point you probably need to pick up a spiritual practice such as non-duality or buddhism to make sense of it. It is nice because once you see through the ego and self made narrative then the mental noise is significantly reduced and identity becomes more fluid
hmm interesting. well thanks. will probably just stick to the VStat if i can find a damn vendor
How long until dpdr subsided? Got it after an edible 2 months ago
Around 5 months. The way I recovered was fully facing it while moving along as usual in daily life. When you instead bathe in all the existential questions it wont take long until you exhaust them and make peace with it, the dpdr then soon subsides. It is a gradual process
Also I highly recommend reading The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. Great book. It was the turning point
What were your symptoms?
Obsessive existential rumination, world felt unreal and made up, I was convinced I didnt exist and everything was just a big lie, places looked unfamiliar, I could sense energies and my awareness was severely heightened, couldn’t watch people talk as I was overly aware of their subconcious delusions, thought about everything in terms of physical processes, when talking to my family all I saw was me talking to chemical reactions etc anxiety, insomnia, eating problems. It was like I never fully came down from the trip and saw right through everything
increase the dosage. If it doesn't work for you then anhero.
I didn't say that to mug you off but for me selegiline never worked for me even after double it from the inital 2.5 to 5mgs. That was until some guy on reddit told me that he takes 30mg of seleg which to me was insane but it was on then that I felt what these guys have been talking about. Was kinda surreal.
