Wanting to kill myself

[K4ZYA223]

No matter what beard i grow, what exercise i do, distractions i do. Its never enough i have been depressed heavily since i was fucking 8.
Yes diagnosed since 8.
I want to die, i want someone to fucking shoot me. Everyday whether im walking or on the bus i fantasize about being run over, stabbed killed etc. i just want to fucking die im so hideous, im so lonely. I put on some fake face for college, tiktok, jobs. Its never enough i just cant handle it anymore

 

[_MVP_]

u look like an abused dog indeed